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| 1 | 00:02:14,259 | 00:02:15,294 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 2 | 00:02:38,116 | 00:02:40,573 | You are very brave. | You are very brave. |
| 3 | 00:02:40,661 | 00:02:43,323 | To be brave for doing something. | To be brave for doing something. |
| 4 | 00:02:43,413 | 00:02:47,031 | You live in Rome, then you are brave. | You live in Rome, then you are brave. |
| 5 | 00:02:47,125 | 00:02:48,285 | Okay, okay. | Okay, okay. |
| 6 | 00:02:48,377 | 00:02:50,163 | First of all. | First of all. |
| 7 | 00:02:50,712 | 00:02:51,712 | Good. | Good. |
| 8 | 00:02:51,797 | 00:02:53,412 | What did you do this morning? | What did you do this morning? |
| 9 | 00:02:53,507 | 00:02:56,999 | This morning I had some work to do | This morning I had some work to do |
| 10 | 00:02:57,094 | 00:03:01,633 | 'cause I'm still preparing this new project. | 'cause I'm still preparing this new project. |
| 11 | 00:03:03,892 | 00:03:09,182 | We are waiting for the money, as usual it's not easy, | We are waiting for the money, as usual it's not easy, |
| 12 | 00:03:11,108 | 00:03:15,317 | but I'm confident we're gonna find it. | but I'm confident we're gonna find it. |
| 13 | 00:03:16,488 | 00:03:19,400 | So, for homework. | So, for homework. |
| 14 | 00:03:22,035 | 00:03:25,948 | Write ten sentences in past continuous tense | Write ten sentences in past continuous tense |
| 15 | 00:03:26,039 | 00:03:28,746 | using verbs you like. | using verbs you like. |
| 16 | 00:03:28,834 | 00:03:31,621 | Any verb you choose, | Any verb you choose, |
| 17 | 00:03:31,712 | 00:03:34,203 | the important thing is that it's past continuous. | the important thing is that it's past continuous. |
| 18 | 00:03:34,297 | 00:03:37,255 | Okay, wait. | Okay, wait. |
| 19 | 00:03:37,342 | 00:03:39,879 | I have a little thing for you. | I have a little thing for you. |
| 20 | 00:03:39,970 | 00:03:43,337 | Turn around, it's a surprise. | Turn around, it's a surprise. |
| 21 | 00:03:43,432 | 00:03:45,673 | Don't be scared. | Don't be scared. |
| 22 | 00:04:08,832 | 00:04:10,743 | Do I have to make a wish? | Do I have to make a wish? |
| 23 | 00:05:24,574 | 00:05:26,110 | How's the baby? | How's the baby? |
| 24 | 00:05:26,201 | 00:05:27,566 | Good. | Good. |
| 25 | 00:05:28,787 | 00:05:30,493 | Does she speak Italian? | Does she speak Italian? |
| 26 | 00:05:35,919 | 00:05:37,455 | Bits of them together. | Bits of them together. |
| 27 | 00:05:40,215 | 00:05:44,504 | It's complicated, 'cause I don't understand moldavian. | It's complicated, 'cause I don't understand moldavian. |
| 28 | 00:05:44,594 | 00:05:47,131 | - It's the mother's fault. - Yes! | - It's the mother's fault. - Yes! |
| 29 | 00:05:47,806 | 00:05:49,717 | Women! | Women! |
| 30 | 00:06:08,577 | 00:06:10,909 | - How are you? - Good. | - How are you? - Good. |
| 31 | 00:06:20,338 | 00:06:25,674 | It's not the season for radicchio trevigiano, right? | It's not the season for radicchio trevigiano, right? |
| 32 | 00:06:25,760 | 00:06:28,502 | No, trevigiano is not now. | No, trevigiano is not now. |
| 33 | 00:06:36,855 | 00:06:41,519 | I'll come back tomorrow for pineapple and beans. | I'll come back tomorrow for pineapple and beans. |
| 34 | 00:08:00,397 | 00:08:03,184 | - Hey! - Hey! | - Hey! - Hey! |
| 35 | 00:08:13,034 | 00:08:14,945 | Mama? | Mama? |
| 36 | 00:08:15,036 | 00:08:16,776 | - Mama? - Yes? | - Mama? - Yes? |
| 37 | 00:08:16,871 | 00:08:20,784 | - Well, can you... can you order? - No, we did, we did. | - Well, can you... can you order? - No, we did, we did. |
| 38 | 00:08:26,840 | 00:08:29,081 | No, she told me that she's, like, | No, she told me that she's, like, |
| 39 | 00:08:29,175 | 00:08:31,336 | gonna take this little Clay | gonna take this little Clay |
| 40 | 00:08:31,428 | 00:08:34,090 | and put it in another thing and... | and put it in another thing and... |
| 41 | 00:08:35,306 | 00:08:36,762 | I can't understand shit. | I can't understand shit. |
| 42 | 00:08:45,233 | 00:08:47,519 | Yes, I put some salt. | Yes, I put some salt. |
| 43 | 00:08:47,610 | 00:08:50,397 | Let's put it all if... If it's gonna last... | Let's put it all if... If it's gonna last... |
| 44 | 00:08:50,488 | 00:08:54,356 | Hey, when I... when I speak to you in Italian, help me! | Hey, when I... when I speak to you in Italian, help me! |
| 45 | 00:08:54,451 | 00:08:56,362 | Please don't answer in English, huh? | Please don't answer in English, huh? |
| 46 | 00:08:56,453 | 00:08:58,660 | - Okay. - Okay. | - Okay. - Okay. |
| 47 | 00:09:09,716 | 00:09:11,331 | - All right. - Is it done? | - All right. - Is it done? |
| 48 | 00:09:17,515 | 00:09:19,051 | Yeah, no. | Yeah, no. |
| 49 | 00:09:21,227 | 00:09:22,342 | Okay? | Okay? |
| 50 | 00:09:22,437 | 00:09:24,143 | - Two minutes and we eat. - Okay. | - Two minutes and we eat. - Okay. |
| 51 | 00:09:27,067 | 00:09:28,557 | Mama, look! | Mama, look! |
| 52 | 00:09:40,413 | 00:09:42,119 | They are the only two inhabitants. | They are the only two inhabitants. |
| 53 | 00:09:42,207 | 00:09:44,414 | All that is heard is the sound of their breath. | All that is heard is the sound of their breath. |
| 54 | 00:09:44,501 | 00:09:46,867 | Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, | Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, |
| 55 | 00:09:46,961 | 00:09:51,455 | but now appears... Appears far away. | but now appears... Appears far away. |
| 56 | 00:09:51,549 | 00:09:53,881 | Clint kneels before the girl. | Clint kneels before the girl. |
| 57 | 00:10:23,623 | 00:10:25,579 | Pupa, you hungry? Hungry? | Pupa, you hungry? Hungry? |
| 58 | 00:10:26,876 | 00:10:27,876 | Yeah? | Yeah? |
| 59 | 00:10:29,295 | 00:10:32,037 | Nikki, do you want a lot? | Nikki, do you want a lot? |
| 60 | 00:10:32,132 | 00:10:34,748 | Are you hungry? | Are you hungry? |
| 61 | 00:10:34,843 | 00:10:36,629 | This. | This. |
| 62 | 00:10:36,719 | 00:10:38,334 | Put it. | Put it. |
| 63 | 00:10:44,102 | 00:10:46,468 | - Want some oil? - No, grazie. | - Want some oil? - No, grazie. |
| 64 | 00:11:04,539 | 00:11:05,824 | So we're ready. | So we're ready. |
| 65 | 00:13:11,416 | 00:13:13,452 | - Yo. - Hey. | - Yo. - Hey. |
| 66 | 00:13:13,543 | 00:13:15,534 | - Did she go down? - Yes. | - Did she go down? - Yes. |
| 67 | 00:13:15,628 | 00:13:17,869 | - Easy? - Finally. | - Easy? - Finally. |
| 68 | 00:13:17,964 | 00:13:20,296 | - Is she asleep? - Finally asleep. | - Is she asleep? - Finally asleep. |
| 69 | 00:13:22,260 | 00:13:25,673 | I'm reading this thing, I don't know... | I'm reading this thing, I don't know... |
| 70 | 00:13:25,763 | 00:13:27,503 | What is it about? | What is it about? |
| 71 | 00:13:27,598 | 00:13:29,384 | No, it's, um, you know, | No, it's, um, you know, |
| 72 | 00:13:29,475 | 00:13:32,182 | it's the section with, uh, you know, | it's the section with, uh, you know, |
| 73 | 00:13:32,270 | 00:13:34,226 | the thing that you... The feeling is | the thing that you... The feeling is |
| 74 | 00:13:34,314 | 00:13:37,056 | they traverse the galaxy and now on the other side, | they traverse the galaxy and now on the other side, |
| 75 | 00:13:37,150 | 00:13:39,857 | they're... it's only two inhabitants. | they're... it's only two inhabitants. |
| 76 | 00:13:39,944 | 00:13:41,855 | All that is heard is the sound of their breath. | All that is heard is the sound of their breath. |
| 77 | 00:13:41,946 | 00:13:44,358 | Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, | Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, |
| 78 | 00:13:44,449 | 00:13:46,064 | but now appears. | but now appears. |
| 79 | 00:13:46,159 | 00:13:47,990 | Clint kneels before Russian girl. | Clint kneels before Russian girl. |
| 80 | 00:13:48,077 | 00:13:49,283 | That part. | That part. |
| 81 | 00:13:50,747 | 00:13:53,864 | I just don't know whether it's, um... | I just don't know whether it's, um... |
| 82 | 00:13:53,958 | 00:13:55,494 | Too sentimental, or... | Too sentimental, or... |
| 83 | 00:13:55,585 | 00:13:57,917 | And also, I... | And also, I... |
| 84 | 00:13:58,004 | 00:14:00,837 | - No, it seems so sweet. - I don't know... | - No, it seems so sweet. - I don't know... |
| 85 | 00:14:00,923 | 00:14:02,709 | You like it? - Yes. | You like it? - Yes. |
| 86 | 00:14:02,800 | 00:14:05,507 | I think it's very... | I think it's very... |
| 87 | 00:14:05,595 | 00:14:08,211 | It's like a dream, it's like... | It's like a dream, it's like... |
| 88 | 00:14:09,891 | 00:14:14,885 | Something, you know, out of this world. | Something, you know, out of this world. |
| 89 | 00:14:14,979 | 00:14:17,971 | At least, you know, you have a purpose to... | At least, you know, you have a purpose to... |
| 90 | 00:14:18,066 | 00:14:19,647 | No, I think... I don't know. | No, I think... I don't know. |
| 91 | 00:14:19,734 | 00:14:22,020 | There's something wrong about it, I don't know. | There's something wrong about it, I don't know. |
| 92 | 00:14:22,111 | 00:14:24,477 | I had something else I wanted to... | I had something else I wanted to... |
| 93 | 00:14:29,077 | 00:14:30,442 | How are you? | How are you? |
| 94 | 00:14:31,829 | 00:14:33,535 | I'm tired. | I'm tired. |
| 95 | 00:14:33,623 | 00:14:36,205 | - Yeah? - I'm tired. | - Yeah? - I'm tired. |
| 96 | 00:14:36,292 | 00:14:39,659 | I'm tired, you know, she's really... | I'm tired, you know, she's really... |
| 97 | 00:14:39,754 | 00:14:43,167 | - She seems good, though, huh? - She's good, but she's... | - She seems good, though, huh? - She's good, but she's... |
| 98 | 00:14:43,257 | 00:14:46,875 | You know, it's not like you just stay with her. | You know, it's not like you just stay with her. |
| 99 | 00:14:46,969 | 00:14:49,085 | - I know. - You really gotta be very... | - I know. - You really gotta be very... |
| 100 | 00:14:49,180 | 00:14:53,844 | All your focus is only the baby, the baby, the baby. | All your focus is only the baby, the baby, the baby. |
| 101 | 00:14:53,935 | 00:14:55,746 | - I know, I know, I know. - You forgot about... | - I know, I know, I know. - You forgot about... |
| 102 | 00:14:55,770 | 00:14:57,135 | I know it better than anyone. | I know it better than anyone. |
| 103 | 00:14:57,230 | 00:15:01,314 | - Yes. - I think, you know, it's normal | - Yes. - I think, you know, it's normal |
| 104 | 00:15:01,401 | 00:15:04,689 | with a baby, but, you know, you just gotta... | with a baby, but, you know, you just gotta... |
| 105 | 00:15:06,864 | 00:15:08,820 | Unless you aren't happy with me anymore. | Unless you aren't happy with me anymore. |
| 106 | 00:15:10,827 | 00:15:12,112 | You don't even know. | You don't even know. |
| 107 | 00:15:12,203 | 00:15:14,239 | - Sometimes. - I know, I know. | - Sometimes. - I know, I know. |
| 108 | 00:15:14,330 | 00:15:16,446 | - Sometimes. - Wrong question. | - Sometimes. - Wrong question. |
| 109 | 00:15:16,541 | 00:15:20,033 | Sometimes I am... | Sometimes I am... |
| 110 | 00:15:20,128 | 00:15:22,961 | You know, sometimes you just don't talk with me, | You know, sometimes you just don't talk with me, |
| 111 | 00:15:23,047 | 00:15:25,504 | you don't communicate with me, | you don't communicate with me, |
| 112 | 00:15:25,591 | 00:15:27,127 | you don't... | you don't... |
| 113 | 00:15:27,218 | 00:15:28,924 | I know. You know... | I know. You know... |
| 114 | 00:15:29,011 | 00:15:31,878 | - We get busy. - You're so busy, | - We get busy. - You're so busy, |
| 115 | 00:15:31,973 | 00:15:35,886 | and you forget about that I'm a woman | and you forget about that I'm a woman |
| 116 | 00:15:35,977 | 00:15:37,513 | and I'm different. | and I'm different. |
| 117 | 00:15:37,603 | 00:15:40,310 | Okay, well, what should I know? | Okay, well, what should I know? |
| 118 | 00:15:42,191 | 00:15:43,772 | Hmm? | Hmm? |
| 119 | 00:15:43,860 | 00:15:44,860 | Yeah. | Yeah. |
| 120 | 00:15:44,944 | 00:15:47,026 | You forget I'm a man, huh? | You forget I'm a man, huh? |
| 121 | 00:15:47,113 | 00:15:49,855 | This is what I'm talking about. | This is what I'm talking about. |
| 122 | 00:15:49,949 | 00:15:52,281 | I forget you're a man also | I forget you're a man also |
| 123 | 00:15:52,368 | 00:15:55,155 | because I have this little... | because I have this little... |
| 124 | 00:15:55,246 | 00:15:56,452 | Baby. | Baby. |
| 125 | 00:15:56,539 | 00:15:57,699 | I know. | I know. |
| 126 | 00:15:58,875 | 00:16:00,490 | Us. | Us. |
| 127 | 00:16:16,851 | 00:16:18,762 | She's asleep now. | She's asleep now. |
| 128 | 00:16:20,062 | 00:16:21,598 | Not here. | Not here. |
| 129 | 00:16:28,613 | 00:16:30,274 | Touch. | Touch. |
| 130 | 00:16:32,158 | 00:16:33,773 | It's so nice. | It's so nice. |
| 131 | 00:17:04,482 | 00:17:07,019 | Oh, such a beautiful ass. | Oh, such a beautiful ass. |
| 132 | 00:17:08,277 | 00:17:10,233 | Oh, baby. | Oh, baby. |
| 133 | 00:18:36,365 | 00:18:38,230 | Mama. | Mama. |
| 134 | 00:18:38,326 | 00:18:40,817 | Mama. Wait. | Mama. Wait. |
| 135 | 00:18:40,911 | 00:18:43,027 | - The baby. - What? The baby. | - The baby. - What? The baby. |
| 136 | 00:18:43,122 | 00:18:44,282 | Yes. | Yes. |
| 137 | 00:18:45,666 | 00:18:47,873 | - Wait a second. - Mama, mama. | - Wait a second. - Mama, mama. |
| 138 | 00:19:13,903 | 00:19:15,939 | Oh! It's okay? | Oh! It's okay? |
| 139 | 00:19:16,030 | 00:19:18,772 | Okay, sorry, I walked too fast. | Okay, sorry, I walked too fast. |
| 140 | 00:19:37,134 | 00:19:38,715 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 141 | 00:19:41,472 | 00:19:42,928 | More? | More? |
| 142 | 00:19:45,226 | 00:19:47,387 | Elisa, don't be angry. | Elisa, don't be angry. |
| 143 | 00:19:47,478 | 00:19:49,434 | I am angry. | I am angry. |
| 144 | 00:19:50,189 | 00:19:52,430 | Go hug Anna. | Go hug Anna. |
| 145 | 00:19:58,698 | 00:20:00,359 | She is jealous... | She is jealous... |
| 146 | 00:20:00,449 | 00:20:04,112 | She's angry 'cause Anna doesn't want to give her the bubbles. | She's angry 'cause Anna doesn't want to give her the bubbles. |
| 147 | 00:20:04,203 | 00:20:06,194 | Anna, give her the bubbles. | Anna, give her the bubbles. |
| 148 | 00:20:11,460 | 00:20:13,746 | Deedee. | Deedee. |
| 149 | 00:20:13,838 | 00:20:15,374 | So fancy. | So fancy. |
| 150 | 00:20:15,464 | 00:20:17,250 | What do you think? | What do you think? |
| 151 | 00:20:27,768 | 00:20:29,679 | Deedee. | Deedee. |
| 152 | 00:21:46,138 | 00:21:49,221 | Deedee, do you want to go get ice cream? | Deedee, do you want to go get ice cream? |
| 153 | 00:23:06,427 | 00:23:07,837 | Ahh! | Ahh! |
| 154 | 00:23:07,928 | 00:23:10,169 | - Ciao. - What's happening? | - Ciao. - What's happening? |
| 155 | 00:23:11,390 | 00:23:14,052 | Oh my god, you look so good! | Oh my god, you look so good! |
| 156 | 00:23:14,143 | 00:23:16,634 | Where have you been, what you did? | Where have you been, what you did? |
| 157 | 00:23:16,729 | 00:23:19,345 | - Gelato. - Gelato, fragola? | - Gelato. - Gelato, fragola? |
| 158 | 00:23:19,440 | 00:23:20,440 | Fragola. | Fragola. |
| 159 | 00:23:22,776 | 00:23:24,482 | - Okay. - Okay. | - Okay. - Okay. |
| 160 | 00:23:24,570 | 00:23:26,731 | Lisa... Lisa cried? | Lisa... Lisa cried? |
| 161 | 00:23:26,822 | 00:23:28,278 | Lisa cried? | Lisa cried? |
| 162 | 00:23:31,035 | 00:23:32,650 | Why Lisa cried? | Why Lisa cried? |
| 163 | 00:23:32,745 | 00:23:34,030 | Oh my god. | Oh my god. |
| 164 | 00:23:34,121 | 00:23:35,907 | It's okay. | It's okay. |
| 165 | 00:23:35,998 | 00:23:37,579 | We're gonna come back. | We're gonna come back. |
| 166 | 00:23:37,666 | 00:23:40,624 | Yes, we're gonna still play with her. | Yes, we're gonna still play with her. |
| 167 | 00:23:40,711 | 00:23:42,952 | I gotta do something real quick, okay? | I gotta do something real quick, okay? |
| 168 | 00:23:43,047 | 00:23:44,503 | Yes. | Yes. |
| 169 | 00:23:47,676 | 00:23:49,632 | Let's wash our hands. | Let's wash our hands. |
| 170 | 00:24:20,042 | 00:24:22,408 | Exterior: Snow country, day. | Exterior: Snow country, day. |
| 171 | 00:24:22,503 | 00:24:25,791 | Credits over wild winter landscape. | Credits over wild winter landscape. |
| 172 | 00:24:25,881 | 00:24:28,623 | When I had been pondering many things to myself | When I had been pondering many things to myself |
| 173 | 00:24:28,717 | 00:24:31,174 | for a long time and had for many days | for a long time and had for many days |
| 174 | 00:24:31,261 | 00:24:35,049 | been seeking my own self and what my own good was | been seeking my own self and what my own good was |
| 175 | 00:24:35,140 | 00:24:37,756 | and what evil was to be avoided, | and what evil was to be avoided, |
| 176 | 00:24:37,851 | 00:24:40,137 | it suddenly spoke to me. | it suddenly spoke to me. |
| 177 | 00:24:40,229 | 00:24:41,435 | What was it? | What was it? |
| 178 | 00:24:41,522 | 00:24:43,934 | I, myself, or someone else, | I, myself, or someone else, |
| 179 | 00:24:44,024 | 00:24:46,606 | inside or outside me. | inside or outside me. |
| 180 | 00:24:46,694 | 00:24:50,357 | This is the very thing I would love to know | This is the very thing I would love to know |
| 181 | 00:24:50,447 | 00:24:51,857 | but don't. | but don't. |
| 182 | 00:25:49,506 | 00:25:51,713 | Sexy, beautiful, stupid. | Sexy, beautiful, stupid. |
| 183 | 00:25:55,054 | 00:25:59,844 | It's important to find the gesture in an organic way, | It's important to find the gesture in an organic way, |
| 184 | 00:26:01,268 | 00:26:03,634 | a simple way. | a simple way. |
| 185 | 00:26:05,230 | 00:26:07,687 | I like this movement. | I like this movement. |
| 186 | 00:26:09,985 | 00:26:11,270 | Two... | Two... |
| 187 | 00:26:13,197 | 00:26:17,031 | Go back to the circle. | Go back to the circle. |
| 188 | 00:26:17,117 | 00:26:19,233 | Three, keep going. | Three, keep going. |
| 189 | 00:26:29,588 | 00:26:31,920 | I want to say, | I want to say, |
| 190 | 00:26:32,007 | 00:26:35,465 | the idea is, these are all simple games, | the idea is, these are all simple games, |
| 191 | 00:26:35,552 | 00:26:41,343 | but I like very much the idea of distraction, | but I like very much the idea of distraction, |
| 192 | 00:26:41,433 | 00:26:44,470 | the double... The double focus that you have, | the double... The double focus that you have, |
| 193 | 00:26:44,561 | 00:26:46,643 | because you're all... for me, | because you're all... for me, |
| 194 | 00:26:46,730 | 00:26:52,066 | performing is always between control and abandon. | performing is always between control and abandon. |
| 195 | 00:26:54,780 | 00:26:59,365 | Okay. Um, so when we do some of these distracting things, | Okay. Um, so when we do some of these distracting things, |
| 196 | 00:26:59,451 | 00:27:01,533 | things that don't seem to go together, | things that don't seem to go together, |
| 197 | 00:27:01,620 | 00:27:03,986 | it makes you feel off-balance, | it makes you feel off-balance, |
| 198 | 00:27:04,081 | 00:27:05,867 | but if you can relax in that state, | but if you can relax in that state, |
| 199 | 00:27:05,958 | 00:27:07,949 | it makes you more emotionally available. | it makes you more emotionally available. |
| 200 | 00:27:15,425 | 00:27:19,384 | Your job is to approach that... that action that you know | Your job is to approach that... that action that you know |
| 201 | 00:27:19,471 | 00:27:23,134 | with a way that's not to show but to do, | with a way that's not to show but to do, |
| 202 | 00:27:23,225 | 00:27:26,513 | to do the action, do the action in a pure way, | to do the action, do the action in a pure way, |
| 203 | 00:27:26,603 | 00:27:30,061 | so the action is born, and when the action is born, | so the action is born, and when the action is born, |
| 204 | 00:27:30,149 | 00:27:31,514 | you have a reaction to it, | you have a reaction to it, |
| 205 | 00:27:31,608 | 00:27:33,940 | and that propels you to something. | and that propels you to something. |
| 206 | 00:27:34,027 | 00:27:36,484 | But it's sometimes imitated emotion | But it's sometimes imitated emotion |
| 207 | 00:27:36,572 | 00:27:37,812 | or demonstrated emotion, | or demonstrated emotion, |
| 208 | 00:27:37,906 | 00:27:40,397 | not really felt emotion or experience. | not really felt emotion or experience. |
| 209 | 00:27:40,492 | 00:27:44,485 | If you're only doing emotional things | If you're only doing emotional things |
| 210 | 00:27:44,580 | 00:27:48,198 | that you feel safe with, it's... it's for you. | that you feel safe with, it's... it's for you. |
| 211 | 00:27:48,292 | 00:27:50,078 | It's... you gotta go beyond yourself. | It's... you gotta go beyond yourself. |
| 212 | 00:27:50,169 | 00:27:51,955 | Okay. We all know it in life. | Okay. We all know it in life. |
| 213 | 00:27:52,045 | 00:27:54,331 | When we do things and we forget about ourselves | When we do things and we forget about ourselves |
| 214 | 00:27:54,423 | 00:27:58,166 | and we're just doing the action in a pure way, | and we're just doing the action in a pure way, |
| 215 | 00:27:58,260 | 00:28:02,674 | that's when we get closer to experiencing, for me, | that's when we get closer to experiencing, for me, |
| 216 | 00:28:02,764 | 00:28:04,300 | the beauty of life. | the beauty of life. |
| 217 | 00:28:47,935 | 00:28:50,677 | So I'm making this movie in Miami | So I'm making this movie in Miami |
| 218 | 00:28:50,771 | 00:28:57,062 | and I'm... I'm deep into using crack cocaine. | and I'm... I'm deep into using crack cocaine. |
| 219 | 00:28:57,152 | 00:28:59,313 | I'm drinking, heroin. | I'm drinking, heroin. |
| 220 | 00:28:59,404 | 00:29:00,894 | I'm out, I'm out. | I'm out, I'm out. |
| 221 | 00:29:00,989 | 00:29:03,822 | Hey! Good to see you. | Hey! Good to see you. |
| 222 | 00:29:03,909 | 00:29:05,490 | - Yeah, I'm good. - Good to see you. | - Yeah, I'm good. - Good to see you. |
| 223 | 00:29:05,577 | 00:29:06,783 | It's hot, but... | It's hot, but... |
| 224 | 00:29:06,870 | 00:29:08,110 | Look at that fucking water. | Look at that fucking water. |
| 225 | 00:29:09,039 | 00:29:10,119 | Like a beer. | Like a beer. |
| 226 | 00:29:10,207 | 00:29:11,476 | I'll see you down there in a minute. | I'll see you down there in a minute. |
| 227 | 00:29:11,500 | 00:29:12,580 | Yeah. | Yeah. |
| 228 | 00:29:17,422 | 00:29:22,837 | You know, and we're making this movie in Miami | You know, and we're making this movie in Miami |
| 229 | 00:29:22,928 | 00:29:26,420 | at a time that Miami is, like, the nightlife is exploding, | at a time that Miami is, like, the nightlife is exploding, |
| 230 | 00:29:26,515 | 00:29:28,847 | and just made a movie... | and just made a movie... |
| 231 | 00:29:28,934 | 00:29:31,016 | I don't have my regular people with me. | I don't have my regular people with me. |
| 232 | 00:29:31,103 | 00:29:35,346 | I gotta make a movie that's gonna be the first video... | I gotta make a movie that's gonna be the first video... |
| 233 | 00:29:35,440 | 00:29:37,226 | Movie shot with a video camera. | Movie shot with a video camera. |
| 234 | 00:29:37,317 | 00:29:40,309 | I'm feeling really like it's... I'm it, you know, I'm... | I'm feeling really like it's... I'm it, you know, I'm... |
| 235 | 00:29:40,404 | 00:29:43,066 | My ego is like, "I'm gonna do this thing," | My ego is like, "I'm gonna do this thing," |
| 236 | 00:29:43,156 | 00:29:46,068 | and not only... I'm gonna make a remake | and not only... I'm gonna make a remake |
| 237 | 00:29:46,159 | 00:29:48,400 | of La dolce vita. | of La dolce vita. |
| 238 | 00:29:48,495 | 00:29:50,736 | American remake, | American remake, |
| 239 | 00:29:50,831 | 00:29:54,073 | and I got this young Cuban actor | and I got this young Cuban actor |
| 240 | 00:29:54,167 | 00:29:57,705 | and, uh, he's, uh, he's down with it | and, uh, he's, uh, he's down with it |
| 241 | 00:29:57,796 | 00:30:01,584 | and he's also... When I get there, you know, | and he's also... When I get there, you know, |
| 242 | 00:30:01,675 | 00:30:04,633 | the guy's in rehab, but I'm good with that, | the guy's in rehab, but I'm good with that, |
| 243 | 00:30:04,720 | 00:30:07,211 | and I just gotta get him out of rehab, and I do. | and I just gotta get him out of rehab, and I do. |
| 244 | 00:30:07,306 | 00:30:10,594 | I get him out of rehab. I remember I even, you know, | I get him out of rehab. I remember I even, you know, |
| 245 | 00:30:10,684 | 00:30:12,800 | bringing him stuff when he wasn't in rehab. | bringing him stuff when he wasn't in rehab. |
| 246 | 00:30:12,894 | 00:30:17,103 | He'd meet us outside... Outside the place, | He'd meet us outside... Outside the place, |
| 247 | 00:30:17,190 | 00:30:19,226 | like middle of the night, it was crazy. | like middle of the night, it was crazy. |
| 248 | 00:30:19,318 | 00:30:20,933 | But I needed this kid. | But I needed this kid. |
| 249 | 00:30:21,028 | 00:30:24,862 | And, uh, one day, I'm... I'm working on the set | And, uh, one day, I'm... I'm working on the set |
| 250 | 00:30:24,948 | 00:30:29,487 | and I see this extra, this chick, she's good looking. | and I see this extra, this chick, she's good looking. |
| 251 | 00:30:29,578 | 00:30:31,409 | You know, I shouldn't be messing with her, | You know, I shouldn't be messing with her, |
| 252 | 00:30:31,496 | 00:30:35,489 | but I'm... I'm it, I'm having... I can do whatever I want, right? | but I'm... I'm it, I'm having... I can do whatever I want, right? |
| 253 | 00:30:35,584 | 00:30:37,916 | I'm feeling strong and I'm prancing. | I'm feeling strong and I'm prancing. |
| 254 | 00:30:38,003 | 00:30:40,244 | So I go out with her, we're out late, | So I go out with her, we're out late, |
| 255 | 00:30:40,339 | 00:30:43,297 | and I go to my friend's place that's got an all-night... | and I go to my friend's place that's got an all-night... |
| 256 | 00:30:43,383 | 00:30:46,420 | It's like a diner, but it's a hip place, you know, | It's like a diner, but it's a hip place, you know, |
| 257 | 00:30:46,511 | 00:30:49,378 | it's like a cool, fancy place. | it's like a cool, fancy place. |
| 258 | 00:30:49,473 | 00:30:53,933 | I get in there, I lay some... A hundred dollar bill on the bar | I get in there, I lay some... A hundred dollar bill on the bar |
| 259 | 00:30:54,019 | 00:30:55,975 | and I say, "hey, buy these guys a drink." | and I say, "hey, buy these guys a drink." |
| 260 | 00:30:56,063 | 00:30:59,351 | I go in, go out with the owner of the place | I go in, go out with the owner of the place |
| 261 | 00:30:59,441 | 00:31:03,309 | to do some stuff, and when I come back, | to do some stuff, and when I come back, |
| 262 | 00:31:03,403 | 00:31:05,689 | the chick's not there. | the chick's not there. |
| 263 | 00:31:05,781 | 00:31:08,147 | Uh, you know, | Uh, you know, |
| 264 | 00:31:08,241 | 00:31:10,152 | she's gone, and the guy says, | she's gone, and the guy says, |
| 265 | 00:31:10,243 | 00:31:11,721 | "Hey, who's gonna pay for the drinks?" | "Hey, who's gonna pay for the drinks?" |
| 266 | 00:31:11,745 | 00:31:13,155 | I said, "I left a hundred..." | I said, "I left a hundred..." |
| 267 | 00:31:13,246 | 00:31:15,862 | He said, "No, no, I didn't see any hundred." | He said, "No, no, I didn't see any hundred." |
| 268 | 00:31:15,957 | 00:31:18,539 | So I'm really pissed, I get on the phone, | So I'm really pissed, I get on the phone, |
| 269 | 00:31:18,627 | 00:31:21,243 | and I get her number and I say, "you fucking bitch!" | and I get her number and I say, "you fucking bitch!" |
| 270 | 00:31:21,338 | 00:31:23,499 | You know, really chew her out nasty, | You know, really chew her out nasty, |
| 271 | 00:31:23,590 | 00:31:26,081 | like mean, like crazy, like, you know, | like mean, like crazy, like, you know, |
| 272 | 00:31:26,176 | 00:31:30,294 | she betrayed this... this guy that was happening, you know. | she betrayed this... this guy that was happening, you know. |
| 273 | 00:31:30,389 | 00:31:33,256 | What I didn't know is this girl had a boyfriend, | What I didn't know is this girl had a boyfriend, |
| 274 | 00:31:33,350 | 00:31:37,434 | and her boyfriend was crazy about what she was doing | and her boyfriend was crazy about what she was doing |
| 275 | 00:31:37,521 | 00:31:41,013 | with these movie people, and he was crazy jealous. | with these movie people, and he was crazy jealous. |
| 276 | 00:31:41,108 | 00:31:44,475 | She talked about, you know, being afraid of this guy. | She talked about, you know, being afraid of this guy. |
| 277 | 00:31:44,569 | 00:31:48,482 | Well, I go back to my south beach motel, | Well, I go back to my south beach motel, |
| 278 | 00:31:48,573 | 00:31:50,689 | I forgot to double lock the door, | I forgot to double lock the door, |
| 279 | 00:31:50,784 | 00:31:54,402 | and I think I'm dreaming, | and I think I'm dreaming, |
| 280 | 00:31:54,496 | 00:31:56,327 | I go to bed and I think I'm dreaming | I go to bed and I think I'm dreaming |
| 281 | 00:31:56,415 | 00:31:58,622 | that some guy's beating the shit out of me. | that some guy's beating the shit out of me. |
| 282 | 00:31:58,708 | 00:32:02,200 | Wailing away on me, just slamming me in the face. | Wailing away on me, just slamming me in the face. |
| 283 | 00:32:02,295 | 00:32:03,831 | But I'm not dreaming. | But I'm not dreaming. |
| 284 | 00:32:03,922 | 00:32:07,255 | This guy came in, he's the boyfriend, | This guy came in, he's the boyfriend, |
| 285 | 00:32:07,342 | 00:32:09,754 | he's fucking, you know, cursing me out | he's fucking, you know, cursing me out |
| 286 | 00:32:09,845 | 00:32:13,008 | about what I did to the girl, and he's beating me really bad. | about what I did to the girl, and he's beating me really bad. |
| 287 | 00:32:13,098 | 00:32:16,511 | My face is all blown up, I mean, like this. | My face is all blown up, I mean, like this. |
| 288 | 00:32:16,601 | 00:32:21,766 | The guy leaves, they grab me, bring me to the hospital, | The guy leaves, they grab me, bring me to the hospital, |
| 289 | 00:32:21,857 | 00:32:24,143 | you know, nobody's there, I'm all alone, you know, | you know, nobody's there, I'm all alone, you know, |
| 290 | 00:32:24,234 | 00:32:27,567 | and I'm messed up, and my ego is so crazy | and I'm messed up, and my ego is so crazy |
| 291 | 00:32:27,654 | 00:32:30,361 | that I also think that they want to kill me, | that I also think that they want to kill me, |
| 292 | 00:32:30,449 | 00:32:32,735 | you know, I get these paranoid thoughts of... | you know, I get these paranoid thoughts of... |
| 293 | 00:32:32,826 | 00:32:35,613 | All I can think about is being safe. | All I can think about is being safe. |
| 294 | 00:32:35,704 | 00:32:41,665 | So, I... I hear that there's a rehab place | So, I... I hear that there's a rehab place |
| 295 | 00:32:41,751 | 00:32:43,742 | in this hospital on the third floor, | in this hospital on the third floor, |
| 296 | 00:32:43,837 | 00:32:46,829 | and it's kind of a lockdown, like, only family can come, | and it's kind of a lockdown, like, only family can come, |
| 297 | 00:32:46,923 | 00:32:50,165 | so I go into rehab. | so I go into rehab. |
| 298 | 00:32:51,636 | 00:32:54,799 | But I have no intention of getting sober. | But I have no intention of getting sober. |
| 299 | 00:32:54,890 | 00:32:57,882 | None at all, I mean, this... All this shit happens. | None at all, I mean, this... All this shit happens. |
| 300 | 00:32:57,976 | 00:32:59,762 | I almost die, you know. | I almost die, you know. |
| 301 | 00:32:59,853 | 00:33:02,936 | Still, I don't get the idea that, you know, | Still, I don't get the idea that, you know, |
| 302 | 00:33:03,023 | 00:33:04,729 | what I'm doing is a problem. | what I'm doing is a problem. |
| 303 | 00:33:04,816 | 00:33:06,397 | I'm still bigger than that, | I'm still bigger than that, |
| 304 | 00:33:06,485 | 00:33:08,271 | I'm still more important than that. | I'm still more important than that. |
| 305 | 00:33:08,361 | 00:33:10,147 | It still isn't occurring to me. | It still isn't occurring to me. |
| 306 | 00:33:10,238 | 00:33:12,570 | It fucking... It's hard to believe. | It fucking... It's hard to believe. |
| 307 | 00:33:12,657 | 00:33:15,273 | I mean, this is 12 years before. | I mean, this is 12 years before. |
| 308 | 00:33:15,368 | 00:33:16,699 | So... | So... |
| 309 | 00:33:18,622 | 00:33:20,112 | You know, I go in this place, | You know, I go in this place, |
| 310 | 00:33:20,207 | 00:33:23,745 | and I'm still using, and my dealer's coming. | and I'm still using, and my dealer's coming. |
| 311 | 00:33:23,835 | 00:33:25,541 | You know, my face starts to heal, | You know, my face starts to heal, |
| 312 | 00:33:25,629 | 00:33:28,587 | and I'm feeling like I can do it again, | and I'm feeling like I can do it again, |
| 313 | 00:33:28,673 | 00:33:34,669 | so it's just, you know, amazing that it took me so long. | so it's just, you know, amazing that it took me so long. |
| 314 | 00:33:34,763 | 00:33:39,132 | I mean, yesterday was my birthday. | I mean, yesterday was my birthday. |
| 315 | 00:33:39,226 | 00:33:41,091 | It's been six years. | It's been six years. |
| 316 | 00:33:44,773 | 00:33:46,980 | And, you know, | And, you know, |
| 317 | 00:33:47,067 | 00:33:49,809 | I want to thank everybody. | I want to thank everybody. |
| 318 | 00:33:49,903 | 00:33:53,145 | Also, something magical happened, | Also, something magical happened, |
| 319 | 00:33:53,240 | 00:33:55,652 | or at least for me it was magical, | or at least for me it was magical, |
| 320 | 00:33:55,742 | 00:34:00,361 | that last month, um, a guy came, | that last month, um, a guy came, |
| 321 | 00:34:00,455 | 00:34:04,664 | he was a tourist from the states, | he was a tourist from the states, |
| 322 | 00:34:04,751 | 00:34:07,493 | and he came to the meeting, he came here, | and he came to the meeting, he came here, |
| 323 | 00:34:07,587 | 00:34:13,378 | and afterwards, we were outside and he came up to me, | and afterwards, we were outside and he came up to me, |
| 324 | 00:34:13,468 | 00:34:17,427 | and he said, you know, | and he said, you know, |
| 325 | 00:34:17,514 | 00:34:21,132 | "I was... I was your doctor, I was your counselor | "I was... I was your doctor, I was your counselor |
| 326 | 00:34:21,226 | 00:34:24,844 | in rehab in Miami, and, uh, | in rehab in Miami, and, uh, |
| 327 | 00:34:24,938 | 00:34:28,556 | I followed... I followed, uh... | I followed... I followed, uh... |
| 328 | 00:34:28,650 | 00:34:32,234 | I followed your movies and I followed you, and I... | I followed your movies and I followed you, and I... |
| 329 | 00:34:32,320 | 00:34:35,904 | I just want to say that, um, | I just want to say that, um, |
| 330 | 00:34:35,991 | 00:34:38,858 | I'm happy to see you alive." | I'm happy to see you alive." |
| 331 | 00:34:38,952 | 00:34:44,037 | And I said, "thank you," and that was really beautiful. | And I said, "thank you," and that was really beautiful. |
| 332 | 00:34:44,124 | 00:34:45,910 | And thank you all. | And thank you all. |
| 333 | 00:34:53,758 | 00:34:56,044 | Okay, so the time's beaten us once again. | Okay, so the time's beaten us once again. |
| 334 | 00:34:56,136 | 00:34:58,798 | Folks, we'll finish with the Serenity prayer. | Folks, we'll finish with the Serenity prayer. |
| 335 | 00:35:05,353 | 00:35:07,184 | - God... - God... | - God... - God... |
| 336 | 00:35:07,272 | 00:35:11,857 | Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, | Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, |
| 337 | 00:35:11,943 | 00:35:14,275 | the courage to change the things I can, | the courage to change the things I can, |
| 338 | 00:35:14,362 | 00:35:16,523 | and the wisdom to know the difference. | and the wisdom to know the difference. |
| 339 | 00:35:16,615 | 00:35:18,981 | Keep coming back, it works if you work it, | Keep coming back, it works if you work it, |
| 340 | 00:35:19,075 | 00:35:20,690 | so work it, you're worth it. | so work it, you're worth it. |
| 341 | 00:35:21,786 | 00:35:23,242 | Well done, man. Good job. | Well done, man. Good job. |
| 342 | 00:35:23,330 | 00:35:24,866 | Congratulations. | Congratulations. |
| 343 | 00:35:26,416 | 00:35:27,576 | Keep coming back. | Keep coming back. |
| 344 | 00:35:27,667 | 00:35:30,704 | - Happy birthday, thanks. - Happy birthday. | - Happy birthday, thanks. - Happy birthday. |
| 345 | 00:35:30,795 | 00:35:32,126 | Hey. | Hey. |
| 346 | 00:35:34,507 | 00:35:35,917 | Hey. | Hey. |
| 347 | 00:35:52,859 | 00:35:54,599 | You're never gonna fall. | You're never gonna fall. |
| 348 | 00:35:54,694 | 00:35:56,650 | Okay, we're here, we're here. | Okay, we're here, we're here. |
| 349 | 00:35:59,407 | 00:36:00,567 | Okay, okay. | Okay, okay. |
| 350 | 00:36:00,659 | 00:36:01,865 | Goodnight, moon! | Goodnight, moon! |
| 351 | 00:36:01,951 | 00:36:03,987 | Goodnight, we go to sleep! | Goodnight, we go to sleep! |
| 352 | 00:36:10,085 | 00:36:11,575 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 353 | 00:38:26,221 | 00:38:32,012 | So you've been making speeches to the crowd in the piazza. | So you've been making speeches to the crowd in the piazza. |
| 354 | 00:38:34,103 | 00:38:36,435 | I only told some people | I only told some people |
| 355 | 00:38:36,523 | 00:38:41,813 | that the temple of old laws must fall | that the temple of old laws must fall |
| 356 | 00:38:41,903 | 00:38:45,646 | and a new temple of truth should be built. | and a new temple of truth should be built. |
| 357 | 00:38:45,740 | 00:38:47,321 | But don't take me literally. | But don't take me literally. |
| 358 | 00:38:47,408 | 00:38:51,321 | I'm just trying to make myself understood. | I'm just trying to make myself understood. |
| 359 | 00:38:51,412 | 00:38:55,405 | Why is someone like you upsetting the people? | Why is someone like you upsetting the people? |
| 360 | 00:38:55,500 | 00:38:57,161 | Why? | Why? |
| 361 | 00:38:57,252 | 00:39:00,494 | You think you know the truth? | You think you know the truth? |
| 362 | 00:39:01,881 | 00:39:03,712 | What is truth? | What is truth? |
| 363 | 00:39:07,971 | 00:39:10,303 | The truth is, | The truth is, |
| 364 | 00:39:10,390 | 00:39:11,721 | you're in pain. | you're in pain. |
| 365 | 00:39:11,808 | 00:39:13,093 | You have a terrible headache | You have a terrible headache |
| 366 | 00:39:13,184 | 00:39:15,800 | and you're thinking of suicide. | and you're thinking of suicide. |
| 367 | 00:39:16,813 | 00:39:18,098 | You can barely look at me. | You can barely look at me. |
| 368 | 00:39:18,189 | 00:39:20,680 | The way you look at me disturbs me. | The way you look at me disturbs me. |
| 369 | 00:39:20,775 | 00:39:23,767 | I don't want to be a torturer. | I don't want to be a torturer. |
| 370 | 00:39:23,862 | 00:39:28,322 | But this feeling will go away. | But this feeling will go away. |
| 371 | 00:39:28,408 | 00:39:29,739 | It will. | It will. |
| 372 | 00:39:31,327 | 00:39:33,113 | It's going away. | It's going away. |
| 373 | 00:39:37,792 | 00:39:39,532 | This feeling... | This feeling... |
| 374 | 00:39:41,546 | 00:39:43,286 | It's going away. | It's going away. |
| 375 | 00:39:43,381 | 00:39:46,919 | It is, it's going away. | It is, it's going away. |
| 376 | 00:39:48,344 | 00:39:50,175 | It's going away. | It's going away. |
| 377 | 00:39:55,018 | 00:39:58,806 | You should go take a walk in the park. | You should go take a walk in the park. |
| 378 | 00:39:58,897 | 00:40:02,105 | Totally up to you. I could come with you. | Totally up to you. I could come with you. |
| 379 | 00:40:02,191 | 00:40:05,058 | You seem like an intelligent man. | You seem like an intelligent man. |
| 380 | 00:40:07,113 | 00:40:09,946 | The trouble with you is your mind is closed. | The trouble with you is your mind is closed. |
| 381 | 00:40:10,033 | 00:40:12,490 | You lack empathy. | You lack empathy. |
| 382 | 00:40:12,577 | 00:40:15,034 | You only care for your dog. | You only care for your dog. |
| 383 | 00:40:43,983 | 00:40:47,100 | Tell me, are you a doctor? | Tell me, are you a doctor? |
| 384 | 00:40:47,195 | 00:40:50,653 | No, I'm not a doctor. | No, I'm not a doctor. |
| 385 | 00:40:50,740 | 00:40:54,198 | How do you know that I was thinking to pet my dog? | How do you know that I was thinking to pet my dog? |
| 386 | 00:40:55,703 | 00:40:58,615 | Because you made a gesture | Because you made a gesture |
| 387 | 00:40:58,706 | 00:41:01,539 | as if to stroke something, | as if to stroke something, |
| 388 | 00:41:01,626 | 00:41:03,412 | and your lips... | and your lips... |
| 389 | 00:41:06,297 | 00:41:08,458 | You are a doctor. | You are a doctor. |
| 390 | 00:41:09,175 | 00:41:11,040 | No. | No. |
| 391 | 00:41:11,135 | 00:41:13,171 | I'm not a doctor. | I'm not a doctor. |
| 392 | 00:42:46,856 | 00:42:48,847 | Ah, okay. | Ah, okay. |
| 393 | 00:42:48,941 | 00:42:50,897 | You think it's too heavy for you? | You think it's too heavy for you? |
| 394 | 00:42:50,985 | 00:42:53,021 | No, mama is gonna carry it. | No, mama is gonna carry it. |
| 395 | 00:42:53,112 | 00:42:55,444 | It's too heavy for you to take, I know. | It's too heavy for you to take, I know. |
| 396 | 00:42:57,325 | 00:42:59,611 | Okay, now... | Okay, now... |
| 397 | 00:43:01,537 | 00:43:03,698 | Tommaso? | Tommaso? |
| 398 | 00:43:03,790 | 00:43:06,202 | Yeah? We are about to leave. | Yeah? We are about to leave. |
| 399 | 00:43:06,292 | 00:43:08,954 | - You're going? - Yup. | - You're going? - Yup. |
| 400 | 00:43:09,045 | 00:43:11,957 | - Okay. - We're going to nonna's. | - Okay. - We're going to nonna's. |
| 401 | 00:43:15,927 | 00:43:18,088 | You sure you don't want to come? | You sure you don't want to come? |
| 402 | 00:43:18,179 | 00:43:19,794 | You sure you don't want to come with us? | You sure you don't want to come with us? |
| 403 | 00:43:19,889 | 00:43:21,720 | No, I got... I got too much to do. | No, I got... I got too much to do. |
| 404 | 00:43:22,975 | 00:43:24,511 | - You know. - Come on, you... | - You know. - Come on, you... |
| 405 | 00:43:24,602 | 00:43:27,309 | Let me call you a cab, okay? Did you call a cab? | Let me call you a cab, okay? Did you call a cab? |
| 406 | 00:43:27,396 | 00:43:29,227 | Oh, no, no, no, I'm gonna go with the Metro. | Oh, no, no, no, I'm gonna go with the Metro. |
| 407 | 00:43:29,315 | 00:43:30,851 | No, no, no, it's too far. | No, no, no, it's too far. |
| 408 | 00:43:30,942 | 00:43:32,523 | It's too far. Let me call. | It's too far. Let me call. |
| 409 | 00:43:32,610 | 00:43:35,317 | - No, no, listen... - No, it's too far for the baby, | - No, no, listen... - No, it's too far for the baby, |
| 410 | 00:43:35,404 | 00:43:36,684 | and that's a freaky neighborhood. | and that's a freaky neighborhood. |
| 411 | 00:43:36,739 | 00:43:38,900 | I'm gonna take the Metro and I'm... | I'm gonna take the Metro and I'm... |
| 412 | 00:43:38,991 | 00:43:41,277 | - I'm calling a taxi. - No, please don't call it. | - I'm calling a taxi. - No, please don't call it. |
| 413 | 00:43:41,369 | 00:43:42,484 | Please. | Please. |
| 414 | 00:43:43,746 | 00:43:44,746 | No, please. | No, please. |
| 415 | 00:43:47,875 | 00:43:49,115 | - No. - No, it's okay. | - No. - No, it's okay. |
| 416 | 00:43:49,210 | 00:43:50,575 | No, I'm gonna take the Metro. | No, I'm gonna take the Metro. |
| 417 | 00:43:50,670 | 00:43:52,456 | - Are you kidding me? - Grazie. | - Are you kidding me? - Grazie. |
| 418 | 00:43:52,547 | 00:43:55,334 | No, it's gonna... it's gonna come in just a little... | No, it's gonna... it's gonna come in just a little... |
| 419 | 00:43:55,424 | 00:43:57,756 | - Give me some money, please. - Oh, okay, yeah. | - Give me some money, please. - Oh, okay, yeah. |
| 420 | 00:43:57,844 | 00:44:00,756 | But I'm not gonna take the cab. | But I'm not gonna take the cab. |
| 421 | 00:44:00,847 | 00:44:03,634 | I wanna take the Metro. It's cool. | I wanna take the Metro. It's cool. |
| 422 | 00:44:03,724 | 00:44:05,260 | I'm really cool with that. | I'm really cool with that. |
| 423 | 00:44:05,351 | 00:44:06,966 | - It's coming. - No, really. | - It's coming. - No, really. |
| 424 | 00:44:07,061 | 00:44:10,519 | - I'm calling you a taxi. - Tommaso, don't do this to me. | - I'm calling you a taxi. - Tommaso, don't do this to me. |
| 425 | 00:44:10,606 | 00:44:12,597 | I'm really good with it. | I'm really good with it. |
| 426 | 00:44:53,441 | 00:44:54,931 | Wow, okay. | Wow, okay. |
| 427 | 00:45:02,700 | 00:45:04,315 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 428 | 00:45:04,410 | 00:45:06,150 | Are you tired? | Are you tired? |
| 429 | 00:45:07,496 | 00:45:09,987 | Do we want to finish earlier? | Do we want to finish earlier? |
| 430 | 00:45:10,082 | 00:45:11,367 | No... | No... |
| 431 | 00:45:11,459 | 00:45:14,792 | Earlier I had a fight with Nikki | Earlier I had a fight with Nikki |
| 432 | 00:45:14,879 | 00:45:19,964 | 'cause she wanted to get the subway with the baby | 'cause she wanted to get the subway with the baby |
| 433 | 00:45:20,051 | 00:45:22,042 | and I don't like that... | and I don't like that... |
| 434 | 00:45:23,638 | 00:45:25,299 | It's hard, | It's hard, |
| 435 | 00:45:26,432 | 00:45:29,549 | maybe it's my problem, but... | maybe it's my problem, but... |
| 436 | 00:45:32,271 | 00:45:36,264 | Lately I believe | Lately I believe |
| 437 | 00:45:37,902 | 00:45:41,895 | that we should stay more relaxed. | that we should stay more relaxed. |
| 438 | 00:45:41,989 | 00:45:45,573 | - Me? - In general, not you. | - Me? - In general, not you. |
| 439 | 00:45:47,370 | 00:45:49,986 | I'm trying to learn... | I'm trying to learn... |
| 440 | 00:45:53,668 | 00:45:57,661 | I've learned some breathing exercises. | I've learned some breathing exercises. |
| 441 | 00:45:58,798 | 00:46:01,210 | I can't do that. | I can't do that. |
| 442 | 00:46:01,300 | 00:46:02,335 | - You? - Tommaso, | - You? - Tommaso, |
| 443 | 00:46:02,426 | 00:46:03,586 | for me it's impossible. | for me it's impossible. |
| 444 | 00:46:03,678 | 00:46:05,794 | I can't do the breathing. | I can't do the breathing. |
| 445 | 00:46:05,888 | 00:46:07,594 | Inhale in. | Inhale in. |
| 446 | 00:46:09,433 | 00:46:14,018 | Bring it down to that point of meeting down here. | Bring it down to that point of meeting down here. |
| 447 | 00:46:17,525 | 00:46:21,689 | Switch, the other nostril, | Switch, the other nostril, |
| 448 | 00:46:21,779 | 00:46:24,270 | then bring the energy up. | then bring the energy up. |
| 449 | 00:46:27,868 | 00:46:29,574 | And then send it up | And then send it up |
| 450 | 00:46:29,662 | 00:46:32,199 | through the crown of your head with your diaphragm. | through the crown of your head with your diaphragm. |
| 451 | 00:46:32,290 | 00:46:34,531 | - Okay, we'll breathe together. - Mm-hmm. | - Okay, we'll breathe together. - Mm-hmm. |
| 452 | 00:46:40,047 | 00:46:41,583 | Hold. | Hold. |
| 453 | 00:46:49,098 | 00:46:52,886 | You stop the breath here. | You stop the breath here. |
| 454 | 00:46:53,769 | 00:46:55,384 | It's only... | It's only... |
| 455 | 00:47:00,484 | 00:47:01,519 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 456 | 00:47:04,071 | 00:47:08,064 | I must immediately find a meditation teacher, | I must immediately find a meditation teacher, |
| 457 | 00:47:08,159 | 00:47:10,445 | I must learn. | I must learn. |
| 458 | 00:47:11,662 | 00:47:13,448 | When am I gonna see you? | When am I gonna see you? |
| 459 | 00:47:15,833 | 00:47:17,824 | Friday, great. | Friday, great. |
| 460 | 00:47:17,918 | 00:47:19,704 | Have a good day. | Have a good day. |
| 461 | 00:48:49,844 | 00:48:52,051 | Nikki? Tommaso. | Nikki? Tommaso. |
| 462 | 00:48:53,722 | 00:48:56,088 | - Yo. - Nikki, what... | - Yo. - Nikki, what... |
| 463 | 00:48:56,183 | 00:48:57,673 | What? Why are you calling? | What? Why are you calling? |
| 464 | 00:48:57,768 | 00:48:59,349 | I, you know, I've been calling you | I, you know, I've been calling you |
| 465 | 00:48:59,437 | 00:49:01,268 | and you didn't pick up, what the fuck? | and you didn't pick up, what the fuck? |
| 466 | 00:49:01,355 | 00:49:02,765 | I mean, come on. | I mean, come on. |
| 467 | 00:49:02,857 | 00:49:05,018 | - What, what? - I've been trying to reach you, | - What, what? - I've been trying to reach you, |
| 468 | 00:49:05,109 | 00:49:07,100 | I've probably called you 50 times. | I've probably called you 50 times. |
| 469 | 00:49:07,194 | 00:49:09,526 | I just forgot the charger of my phone, are you serious? | I just forgot the charger of my phone, are you serious? |
| 470 | 00:49:09,613 | 00:49:11,695 | Either you don't pick up or it goes to voice mail. | Either you don't pick up or it goes to voice mail. |
| 471 | 00:49:11,782 | 00:49:13,238 | What the fuck? I mean, I worry. | What the fuck? I mean, I worry. |
| 472 | 00:49:13,325 | 00:49:15,281 | What if something happened to the baby? | What if something happened to the baby? |
| 473 | 00:49:15,369 | 00:49:17,735 | - It's not funny. - Well, you don't have to worry. | - It's not funny. - Well, you don't have to worry. |
| 474 | 00:49:17,830 | 00:49:20,367 | You know, don't act like a fucking kid, you know? | You know, don't act like a fucking kid, you know? |
| 475 | 00:49:20,458 | 00:49:21,868 | You got some responsibilities. | You got some responsibilities. |
| 476 | 00:49:21,959 | 00:49:24,416 | I worry about, you know, I worry... | I worry about, you know, I worry... |
| 477 | 00:49:24,503 | 00:49:27,336 | So please, don't... Don't do that again, okay? | So please, don't... Don't do that again, okay? |
| 478 | 00:49:27,423 | 00:49:29,209 | Everything is fine, don't worry. | Everything is fine, don't worry. |
| 479 | 00:49:29,300 | 00:49:31,632 | - I just forgot the charger. - Okay, pick up next time. | - I just forgot the charger. - Okay, pick up next time. |
| 480 | 00:49:31,719 | 00:49:33,209 | - Okay, okay. - Okay. | - Okay, okay. - Okay. |
| 481 | 00:49:33,304 | 00:49:34,965 | - Ciao, ciao. - Ciao. | - Ciao, ciao. - Ciao. |
| 482 | 00:49:37,141 | 00:49:38,802 | My wife... | My wife... |
| 483 | 00:49:40,102 | 00:49:45,313 | She left the phone charger at home | She left the phone charger at home |
| 484 | 00:49:45,399 | 00:49:48,141 | and it's been impossible to reach her. | and it's been impossible to reach her. |
| 485 | 00:49:48,235 | 00:49:50,442 | She is with the baby, | She is with the baby, |
| 486 | 00:49:51,322 | 00:49:52,937 | I started worrying, | I started worrying, |
| 487 | 00:49:53,032 | 00:49:55,273 | so I had to call my mother-in-law. | so I had to call my mother-in-law. |
| 488 | 00:49:56,285 | 00:49:58,241 | You had to call all around. | You had to call all around. |
| 489 | 00:50:00,206 | 00:50:01,696 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 490 | 00:51:20,828 | 00:51:28,701 | Lately, uh, with the mother of my baby girl, Deedee, uh, | Lately, uh, with the mother of my baby girl, Deedee, uh, |
| 491 | 00:51:28,794 | 00:51:32,286 | I've had some problems because every time | I've had some problems because every time |
| 492 | 00:51:32,381 | 00:51:36,750 | I try to extend myself to her, do things for her, | I try to extend myself to her, do things for her, |
| 493 | 00:51:36,844 | 00:51:38,584 | she really pushes me away. | she really pushes me away. |
| 494 | 00:51:38,679 | 00:51:40,840 | She's, like, got issues. | She's, like, got issues. |
| 495 | 00:51:40,931 | 00:51:47,143 | She... she's younger than me, she's, uh, 29. | She... she's younger than me, she's, uh, 29. |
| 496 | 00:51:47,229 | 00:51:50,346 | You'd think she would appreciate my experience. | You'd think she would appreciate my experience. |
| 497 | 00:51:51,525 | 00:51:53,390 | But, you know, sometimes, she... | But, you know, sometimes, she... |
| 498 | 00:51:53,485 | 00:51:56,101 | She just says, "oh, let me make my own decision up. | She just says, "oh, let me make my own decision up. |
| 499 | 00:51:56,196 | 00:51:58,733 | I don't know who I am if I don't make a decision." | I don't know who I am if I don't make a decision." |
| 500 | 00:51:58,824 | 00:52:00,439 | And I'm telling you, this goes down | And I'm telling you, this goes down |
| 501 | 00:52:00,534 | 00:52:03,822 | to just very simple things, you know, like what food to eat | to just very simple things, you know, like what food to eat |
| 502 | 00:52:03,912 | 00:52:06,995 | or whether to take a taxi or the subway, | or whether to take a taxi or the subway, |
| 503 | 00:52:07,082 | 00:52:08,822 | or these kinds of things, | or these kinds of things, |
| 504 | 00:52:08,917 | 00:52:12,751 | and it... it really robs me of, um, | and it... it really robs me of, um, |
| 505 | 00:52:12,838 | 00:52:15,955 | feeling good like I'm taking care of her. | feeling good like I'm taking care of her. |
| 506 | 00:52:23,515 | 00:52:27,474 | I do know, you know, she has a strange relationship... | I do know, you know, she has a strange relationship... |
| 507 | 00:52:27,561 | 00:52:29,301 | Well, a rough relationship with her father | Well, a rough relationship with her father |
| 508 | 00:52:29,396 | 00:52:31,512 | because he was an alcoholic | because he was an alcoholic |
| 509 | 00:52:31,607 | 00:52:33,768 | and a bad Russian drunk. | and a bad Russian drunk. |
| 510 | 00:52:33,859 | 00:52:36,896 | Vodka, you know, he was abusive with the mother. | Vodka, you know, he was abusive with the mother. |
| 511 | 00:52:36,987 | 00:52:38,943 | Eventually, she kicked her out | Eventually, she kicked her out |
| 512 | 00:52:39,031 | 00:52:43,024 | and he left when she was only four years old. | and he left when she was only four years old. |
| 513 | 00:52:43,118 | 00:52:47,987 | And then, uh, things started to change in the eastern bloc, | And then, uh, things started to change in the eastern bloc, |
| 514 | 00:52:48,082 | 00:52:50,323 | and her mother and then her sister went to Moscow | and her mother and then her sister went to Moscow |
| 515 | 00:52:50,417 | 00:52:52,829 | and she got passed around with family and... | and she got passed around with family and... |
| 516 | 00:52:52,920 | 00:52:54,330 | And other people. | And other people. |
| 517 | 00:52:54,421 | 00:52:56,161 | Um, that's where she lived. | Um, that's where she lived. |
| 518 | 00:52:56,256 | 00:52:58,292 | So she grew up very independent. | So she grew up very independent. |
| 519 | 00:52:58,384 | 00:53:00,375 | So she did learn to be self-reliant, | So she did learn to be self-reliant, |
| 520 | 00:53:00,469 | 00:53:03,051 | but at the same time, she had these unresolved issues | but at the same time, she had these unresolved issues |
| 521 | 00:53:03,138 | 00:53:06,175 | with her father because she also romanticizes him. | with her father because she also romanticizes him. |
| 522 | 00:53:06,266 | 00:53:08,302 | She still wants to talk to him, | She still wants to talk to him, |
| 523 | 00:53:08,394 | 00:53:09,850 | but he won't talk to her. | but he won't talk to her. |
| 524 | 00:53:09,937 | 00:53:11,802 | He still is around somewhere, | He still is around somewhere, |
| 525 | 00:53:11,897 | 00:53:14,104 | he's still an alcoholic. | he's still an alcoholic. |
| 526 | 00:53:14,191 | 00:53:16,022 | You know. | You know. |
| 527 | 00:53:16,110 | 00:53:18,977 | So that's a little hard to take. | So that's a little hard to take. |
| 528 | 00:53:19,071 | 00:53:23,485 | You know, I'm haunted a little bit by the fact that... | You know, I'm haunted a little bit by the fact that... |
| 529 | 00:53:23,575 | 00:53:26,362 | My... my Deedee is three years old, | My... my Deedee is three years old, |
| 530 | 00:53:26,453 | 00:53:33,325 | and when... when I wasn't sober, | and when... when I wasn't sober, |
| 531 | 00:53:33,419 | 00:53:38,163 | I had two adopted children, | I had two adopted children, |
| 532 | 00:53:38,257 | 00:53:41,920 | and I was not... | and I was not... |
| 533 | 00:53:42,010 | 00:53:45,252 | I left when, uh... | I left when, uh... |
| 534 | 00:53:45,347 | 00:53:49,932 | I basically left, I wasn't there because I wasn't sober, | I basically left, I wasn't there because I wasn't sober, |
| 535 | 00:53:50,018 | 00:53:52,134 | when my youngest was four years old, | when my youngest was four years old, |
| 536 | 00:53:52,229 | 00:53:56,518 | and I think she, you know, it really destroyed her, | and I think she, you know, it really destroyed her, |
| 537 | 00:53:56,608 | 00:53:59,350 | and I don't want that to happen again. | and I don't want that to happen again. |
| 538 | 00:53:59,445 | 00:54:03,404 | I'm sober now, and, uh, | I'm sober now, and, uh, |
| 539 | 00:54:03,490 | 00:54:06,357 | I'm so afraid of it, but I don't know how to do | I'm so afraid of it, but I don't know how to do |
| 540 | 00:54:06,452 | 00:54:10,741 | because I try to take care, and every time I do, you know, | because I try to take care, and every time I do, you know, |
| 541 | 00:54:10,831 | 00:54:16,952 | it's like there's no recognition that, um, that... | it's like there's no recognition that, um, that... |
| 542 | 00:54:17,045 | 00:54:21,084 | Even like the idea that the baby needs a father | Even like the idea that the baby needs a father |
| 543 | 00:54:21,175 | 00:54:25,418 | is like an oppressive or, you know... | is like an oppressive or, you know... |
| 544 | 00:54:25,512 | 00:54:29,425 | She doesn't think that's necessarily true, | She doesn't think that's necessarily true, |
| 545 | 00:54:29,516 | 00:54:33,555 | and for me, it's essential because it breaks my heart. | and for me, it's essential because it breaks my heart. |
| 546 | 00:54:33,645 | 00:54:36,808 | I remember the four-year-old, right before I left, | I remember the four-year-old, right before I left, |
| 547 | 00:54:36,899 | 00:54:39,766 | she said to me, uh, | she said to me, uh, |
| 548 | 00:54:39,860 | 00:54:44,069 | "are you leaving because I make too much noise?" | "are you leaving because I make too much noise?" |
| 549 | 00:54:44,156 | 00:54:46,112 | And the truth is, she was the quietest, | And the truth is, she was the quietest, |
| 550 | 00:54:46,200 | 00:54:48,111 | sweetest girl in the world, | sweetest girl in the world, |
| 551 | 00:54:48,202 | 00:54:50,488 | so that... That always stays with me, | so that... That always stays with me, |
| 552 | 00:54:50,579 | 00:54:55,198 | and I just don't want that to happen again, and I'm... | and I just don't want that to happen again, and I'm... |
| 553 | 00:54:55,292 | 00:54:57,374 | I'm happy about a lot of things. | I'm happy about a lot of things. |
| 554 | 00:54:57,461 | 00:55:00,453 | I'm happy that I'm sober, but, uh, | I'm happy that I'm sober, but, uh, |
| 555 | 00:55:00,547 | 00:55:03,289 | this is something that I'm dealing with right now. | this is something that I'm dealing with right now. |
| 556 | 00:55:03,383 | 00:55:04,964 | - Thanks, Tommy. - Thanks, Tommy. | - Thanks, Tommy. - Thanks, Tommy. |
| 557 | 00:55:06,762 | 00:55:08,548 | Yeah, I'm Diedre, an addict. | Yeah, I'm Diedre, an addict. |
| 558 | 00:55:08,639 | 00:55:10,550 | - Hi, Diedre. - Hi, Diedre. | - Hi, Diedre. - Hi, Diedre. |
| 559 | 00:55:10,641 | 00:55:14,930 | Uh, related a lot to what I just heard. | Uh, related a lot to what I just heard. |
| 560 | 00:55:15,020 | 00:55:17,932 | I feel like being in a partnership | I feel like being in a partnership |
| 561 | 00:55:18,023 | 00:55:22,608 | and parenting in a partnership can be so challenging for me. | and parenting in a partnership can be so challenging for me. |
| 562 | 00:55:22,694 | 00:55:26,278 | Um, I mean, it says in our literature, | Um, I mean, it says in our literature, |
| 563 | 00:55:26,365 | 00:55:30,278 | it is, like, impossible for us | it is, like, impossible for us |
| 564 | 00:55:30,369 | 00:55:33,156 | to form a true partnership with another human being. | to form a true partnership with another human being. |
| 565 | 00:55:33,247 | 00:55:36,330 | I mean, that says it all. | I mean, that says it all. |
| 566 | 00:55:36,416 | 00:55:38,748 | Um... | Um... |
| 567 | 00:55:38,836 | 00:55:40,747 | Because, like, I've, you know... | Because, like, I've, you know... |
| 568 | 00:55:40,838 | 00:55:42,829 | Like, we don't have relationships, | Like, we don't have relationships, |
| 569 | 00:55:42,923 | 00:55:44,504 | we take hostages, right? | we take hostages, right? |
| 570 | 00:55:44,591 | 00:55:45,591 | So like... | So like... |
| 571 | 00:55:46,927 | 00:55:49,259 | Like, we're either, like, dominating | Like, we're either, like, dominating |
| 572 | 00:55:49,346 | 00:55:51,007 | or we're completely underneath. | or we're completely underneath. |
| 573 | 00:55:51,098 | 00:55:54,716 | Like, there's not the, just, the equality, | Like, there's not the, just, the equality, |
| 574 | 00:55:54,810 | 00:55:56,766 | you know, and I... | you know, and I... |
| 575 | 00:55:56,854 | 00:55:58,936 | I always... I always know | I always... I always know |
| 576 | 00:55:59,022 | 00:56:02,185 | my partner's inventory better than he does. | my partner's inventory better than he does. |
| 577 | 00:56:02,276 | 00:56:05,518 | Like, I always know exactly what's wrong with him, | Like, I always know exactly what's wrong with him, |
| 578 | 00:56:05,612 | 00:56:09,446 | what he's gotta do, his past, his psychology, everything, | what he's gotta do, his past, his psychology, everything, |
| 579 | 00:56:09,533 | 00:56:11,694 | you know what I mean, and the thing is is that | you know what I mean, and the thing is is that |
| 580 | 00:56:11,785 | 00:56:14,117 | this program teaches me to, | this program teaches me to, |
| 581 | 00:56:14,204 | 00:56:16,160 | like, stick to my side of the street. | like, stick to my side of the street. |
| 582 | 00:56:16,248 | 00:56:19,615 | I have to look at what my part is, | I have to look at what my part is, |
| 583 | 00:56:19,710 | 00:56:22,417 | what I do, and, you know, | what I do, and, you know, |
| 584 | 00:56:22,504 | 00:56:24,790 | as soon as I'm pointing a finger, | as soon as I'm pointing a finger, |
| 585 | 00:56:24,882 | 00:56:28,124 | like, it's... I've gotta look at myself. | like, it's... I've gotta look at myself. |
| 586 | 00:56:28,218 | 00:56:30,755 | So, anyway, I'm super grateful. | So, anyway, I'm super grateful. |
| 587 | 00:56:30,846 | 00:56:31,961 | I pass. | I pass. |
| 588 | 00:56:32,055 | 00:56:34,296 | Thanks, Diedre. | Thanks, Diedre. |
| 589 | 00:56:41,148 | 00:56:42,763 | All the best. | All the best. |
| 590 | 00:56:42,858 | 00:56:44,143 | Take it easy, guys. | Take it easy, guys. |
| 591 | 00:56:44,234 | 00:56:46,190 | Okay, guys, I'm off, I'm really hungry. | Okay, guys, I'm off, I'm really hungry. |
| 592 | 00:56:46,278 | 00:56:48,298 | I have to get something to eat, so I'll see you later. | I have to get something to eat, so I'll see you later. |
| 593 | 00:56:48,322 | 00:56:50,108 | All right, all the best. Ciao. Take it easy. | All right, all the best. Ciao. Take it easy. |
| 594 | 00:56:50,198 | 00:56:51,404 | - Bye. - All the best. Ciao. | - Bye. - All the best. Ciao. |
| 595 | 00:56:51,491 | 00:56:52,776 | Ciao. I'm giving you two. | Ciao. I'm giving you two. |
| 596 | 00:56:52,868 | 00:56:54,608 | Yeah, I should probably get going too. | Yeah, I should probably get going too. |
| 597 | 00:56:54,703 | 00:56:55,943 | Okay, yeah, all right. | Okay, yeah, all right. |
| 598 | 00:56:56,038 | 00:56:57,198 | - Love you. - Goodnight. | - Love you. - Goodnight. |
| 599 | 00:56:57,289 | 00:56:58,825 | - Okay, love you, sweetie. - Bye. | - Okay, love you, sweetie. - Bye. |
| 600 | 00:56:58,916 | 00:57:00,656 | - Great to see you. - Yeah, same. | - Great to see you. - Yeah, same. |
| 601 | 00:57:00,751 | 00:57:01,769 | - We'll talk later. - Okay. | - We'll talk later. - Okay. |
| 602 | 00:57:01,793 | 00:57:03,283 | - Bye. - Ciao. | - Bye. - Ciao. |
| 603 | 00:57:04,463 | 00:57:06,795 | Hmm, all right, I'm... | Hmm, all right, I'm... |
| 604 | 00:57:06,882 | 00:57:08,463 | Yeah, I walk that way. | Yeah, I walk that way. |
| 605 | 00:57:08,550 | 00:57:09,756 | Oh. | Oh. |
| 606 | 00:57:17,017 | 00:57:18,473 | So... | So... |
| 607 | 00:57:20,354 | 00:57:22,265 | Are you around for a while? | Are you around for a while? |
| 608 | 00:57:22,356 | 00:57:23,846 | Yeah, I'm here for the summer. | Yeah, I'm here for the summer. |
| 609 | 00:57:23,941 | 00:57:25,397 | You are, you're not going anywhere? | You are, you're not going anywhere? |
| 610 | 00:57:25,484 | 00:57:27,099 | No. Yeah? | No. Yeah? |
| 611 | 00:57:27,194 | 00:57:30,106 | No, I usually like to travel when it's not so crowded. | No, I usually like to travel when it's not so crowded. |
| 612 | 00:57:30,197 | 00:57:31,858 | - Smart idea. - Yeah. | - Smart idea. - Yeah. |
| 613 | 00:57:31,949 | 00:57:35,032 | I don't get this Italian thing of everybody leaving at... | I don't get this Italian thing of everybody leaving at... |
| 614 | 00:57:35,118 | 00:57:38,406 | Yeah, exactly, and being, like, all packed on the beach. | Yeah, exactly, and being, like, all packed on the beach. |
| 615 | 00:57:38,497 | 00:57:39,497 | I get it, but... | I get it, but... |
| 616 | 00:57:39,581 | 00:57:40,901 | - I don't get it. - What a drag. | - I don't get it. - What a drag. |
| 617 | 00:57:40,958 | 00:57:42,289 | I mean, I get how it happens. | I mean, I get how it happens. |
| 618 | 00:57:42,376 | 00:57:44,241 | Right, right, right, yeah, yeah. | Right, right, right, yeah, yeah. |
| 619 | 00:57:44,336 | 00:57:46,327 | School holidays, whatever. | School holidays, whatever. |
| 620 | 00:57:46,421 | 00:57:50,539 | No, I have the luxury of traveling off-season, | No, I have the luxury of traveling off-season, |
| 621 | 00:57:50,634 | 00:57:52,875 | so I usually take advantage of that. | so I usually take advantage of that. |
| 622 | 00:57:52,970 | 00:57:54,835 | Do you usually go by yourself? | Do you usually go by yourself? |
| 623 | 00:57:54,930 | 00:57:56,295 | Um, it depends, actually... | Um, it depends, actually... |
| 624 | 00:57:56,390 | 00:57:59,382 | - With friends? - No, I usually go by myself. | - With friends? - No, I usually go by myself. |
| 625 | 00:57:59,476 | 00:58:01,307 | You were with that guy for a little while. | You were with that guy for a little while. |
| 626 | 00:58:01,395 | 00:58:03,135 | Are you still with him? Mmm... | Are you still with him? Mmm... |
| 627 | 00:58:03,230 | 00:58:04,310 | No, no? | No, no? |
| 628 | 00:58:06,483 | 00:58:08,144 | Um... no. | Um... no. |
| 629 | 00:58:08,235 | 00:58:09,395 | No, that's finished. | No, that's finished. |
| 630 | 00:58:09,486 | 00:58:10,896 | How long ago was that? | How long ago was that? |
| 631 | 00:58:10,988 | 00:58:12,899 | Well, it was on and off for like six years, | Well, it was on and off for like six years, |
| 632 | 00:58:12,990 | 00:58:16,198 | but finally finished like about a year and a half ago. | but finally finished like about a year and a half ago. |
| 633 | 00:58:16,284 | 00:58:18,320 | I'll... I'll walk you. | I'll... I'll walk you. |
| 634 | 00:58:18,412 | 00:58:19,618 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 635 | 00:58:19,705 | 00:58:21,161 | - Okay? - Yeah. | - Okay? - Yeah. |
| 636 | 00:58:21,248 | 00:58:22,408 | Thanks. | Thanks. |
| 637 | 00:58:23,709 | 00:58:25,040 | How long ago? | How long ago? |
| 638 | 00:58:25,127 | 00:58:27,584 | - About a year and a half ago. - Oh, okay. | - About a year and a half ago. - Oh, okay. |
| 639 | 00:58:30,966 | 00:58:34,049 | And how has that been, like, being alone again? | And how has that been, like, being alone again? |
| 640 | 00:58:34,136 | 00:58:35,251 | Good? | Good? |
| 641 | 00:58:35,345 | 00:58:36,835 | Hmm, yes. | Hmm, yes. |
| 642 | 00:58:36,930 | 00:58:39,262 | - Do you like being alone? - Actually, yes. | - Do you like being alone? - Actually, yes. |
| 643 | 00:58:39,349 | 00:58:40,634 | Yeah? | Yeah? |
| 644 | 00:58:40,726 | 00:58:43,809 | At first it was, you know... | At first it was, you know... |
| 645 | 00:58:43,895 | 00:58:47,058 | Well, at first I was just bummed out | Well, at first I was just bummed out |
| 646 | 00:58:47,149 | 00:58:49,105 | because we tried on and off for so long, | because we tried on and off for so long, |
| 647 | 00:58:49,192 | 00:58:53,105 | but now I'm pretty happily single, you know. | but now I'm pretty happily single, you know. |
| 648 | 00:58:53,196 | 00:58:55,812 | In fact, I was just talking to a friend of mine | In fact, I was just talking to a friend of mine |
| 649 | 00:58:55,907 | 00:58:58,239 | about how much I love sleeping alone. | about how much I love sleeping alone. |
| 650 | 00:58:58,326 | 00:59:00,533 | It's like heaven. | It's like heaven. |
| 651 | 00:59:00,620 | 00:59:03,362 | - A whole bed to myself. - Oh, god! | - A whole bed to myself. - Oh, god! |
| 652 | 00:59:03,457 | 00:59:06,073 | Not me, I think I've always been with someone. | Not me, I think I've always been with someone. |
| 653 | 00:59:06,168 | 00:59:08,534 | - Oh, really? - Yeah, yeah. | - Oh, really? - Yeah, yeah. |
| 654 | 00:59:08,628 | 00:59:11,791 | But, I don't know, I never had the opportunity to sleep alone, | But, I don't know, I never had the opportunity to sleep alone, |
| 655 | 00:59:11,882 | 00:59:16,672 | I think, so this is my... My first big run of... | I think, so this is my... My first big run of... |
| 656 | 00:59:16,762 | 00:59:18,593 | - Enjoying yourself. - Hogging the bed. | - Enjoying yourself. - Hogging the bed. |
| 657 | 00:59:20,557 | 00:59:23,720 | You just need a big bed so you have some choices. | You just need a big bed so you have some choices. |
| 658 | 00:59:25,145 | 00:59:26,555 | You know. | You know. |
| 659 | 00:59:26,646 | 00:59:29,228 | - Right? - Uh, yeah. | - Right? - Uh, yeah. |
| 660 | 00:59:29,316 | 00:59:31,398 | That's what I like. I like a nice, big bed. | That's what I like. I like a nice, big bed. |
| 661 | 00:59:31,485 | 00:59:33,726 | We're gonna need a bigger bed, it's like... | We're gonna need a bigger bed, it's like... |
| 662 | 00:59:37,908 | 00:59:39,864 | Hmm. | Hmm. |
| 663 | 00:59:39,951 | 00:59:42,033 | Well... - Okay, um... | Well... - Okay, um... |
| 664 | 00:59:42,120 | 00:59:44,702 | - This is me. - Yeah, I know, I know. | - This is me. - Yeah, I know, I know. |
| 665 | 00:59:44,790 | 00:59:46,621 | Okay, well, have a good night, huh? | Okay, well, have a good night, huh? |
| 666 | 00:59:46,708 | 00:59:48,573 | Thank you. You too. | Thank you. You too. |
| 667 | 00:59:48,668 | 00:59:50,909 | Thanks for walking me home, and, um, | Thanks for walking me home, and, um, |
| 668 | 00:59:51,004 | 00:59:53,461 | happy six years. | happy six years. |
| 669 | 00:59:53,548 | 00:59:54,833 | - Thank you. - That's awesome. | - Thank you. - That's awesome. |
| 670 | 00:59:54,925 | 00:59:56,381 | - Thank you. - Yeah, okay. | - Thank you. - Yeah, okay. |
| 671 | 00:59:56,468 | 00:59:58,174 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 672 | 00:59:58,261 | 01:00:01,628 | - Make sure you get in. - Thank you. | - Make sure you get in. - Thank you. |
| 673 | 01:00:02,974 | 01:00:04,680 | - Okay, yeah, goodnight. - Goodnight. | - Okay, yeah, goodnight. - Goodnight. |
| 674 | 01:00:04,768 | 01:00:07,100 | Sleep well. You too. Thanks. | Sleep well. You too. Thanks. |
| 675 | 01:01:43,783 | 01:01:45,193 | Oh! | Oh! |
| 676 | 01:01:49,581 | 01:01:51,287 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 677 | 01:01:56,546 | 01:01:57,546 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 678 | 01:01:58,798 | 01:02:00,004 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 679 | 01:02:00,091 | 01:02:02,002 | - How are you? - Hey. | - How are you? - Hey. |
| 680 | 01:02:02,093 | 01:02:05,210 | Good? Yeah? Was it fun? | Good? Yeah? Was it fun? |
| 681 | 01:02:05,305 | 01:02:07,842 | Yeah, it's... it's fun. | Yeah, it's... it's fun. |
| 682 | 01:02:07,933 | 01:02:09,673 | I missed you guys. | I missed you guys. |
| 683 | 01:02:11,311 | 01:02:14,053 | - Okay? - Yes. | - Okay? - Yes. |
| 684 | 01:02:15,815 | 01:02:19,307 | We had a great time. | We had a great time. |
| 685 | 01:02:19,402 | 01:02:22,235 | Umbrella? Yeah, take the umbrella. | Umbrella? Yeah, take the umbrella. |
| 686 | 01:02:22,322 | 01:02:25,780 | Take the other shoe. Okay, honey. | Take the other shoe. Okay, honey. |
| 687 | 01:02:25,867 | 01:02:27,403 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 688 | 01:02:28,662 | 01:02:30,402 | But it was good? | But it was good? |
| 689 | 01:02:30,497 | 01:02:33,455 | You know, it's always good, you know. | You know, it's always good, you know. |
| 690 | 01:02:33,541 | 01:02:36,829 | She has this big garden, big things, | She has this big garden, big things, |
| 691 | 01:02:36,920 | 01:02:41,380 | and she plays with it, and it's really nice. | and she plays with it, and it's really nice. |
| 692 | 01:02:41,466 | 01:02:43,002 | I missed you, huh? | I missed you, huh? |
| 693 | 01:02:47,639 | 01:02:48,970 | Really? | Really? |
| 694 | 01:02:49,057 | 01:02:50,888 | Yeah. | Yeah. |
| 695 | 01:02:50,976 | 01:02:54,434 | - Really? - Yeah, yeah! | - Really? - Yeah, yeah! |
| 696 | 01:02:54,521 | 01:02:56,261 | Well, I don't believe it. | Well, I don't believe it. |
| 697 | 01:02:56,356 | 01:02:57,812 | - You don't? - No. | - You don't? - No. |
| 698 | 01:02:57,899 | 01:03:00,436 | - Okay. - You look too good to miss me. | - Okay. - You look too good to miss me. |
| 699 | 01:03:02,487 | 01:03:03,818 | Okay? | Okay? |
| 700 | 01:03:05,115 | 01:03:07,231 | So, what's going on here? | So, what's going on here? |
| 701 | 01:03:07,325 | 01:03:08,690 | I've just been working. | I've just been working. |
| 702 | 01:03:08,785 | 01:03:10,992 | I've just been working, you know? | I've just been working, you know? |
| 703 | 01:03:11,079 | 01:03:12,910 | I'm trying to do this crazy thing | I'm trying to do this crazy thing |
| 704 | 01:03:12,998 | 01:03:15,910 | about these, um, scenes with the bear. | about these, um, scenes with the bear. |
| 705 | 01:03:16,001 | 01:03:18,117 | And? | And? |
| 706 | 01:03:18,211 | 01:03:20,623 | I don't know, 'cause you don't want it to be, like, | I don't know, 'cause you don't want it to be, like, |
| 707 | 01:03:20,714 | 01:03:22,545 | you know, like a big special effects thing, | you know, like a big special effects thing, |
| 708 | 01:03:22,632 | 01:03:25,920 | but I want the scariness of the bear in there, so... | but I want the scariness of the bear in there, so... |
| 709 | 01:03:30,223 | 01:03:31,884 | Clint puts down bar rag | Clint puts down bar rag |
| 710 | 01:03:31,975 | 01:03:34,591 | and comes around bar to get a closer look. | and comes around bar to get a closer look. |
| 711 | 01:03:34,686 | 01:03:37,302 | Numbers stop, and again, it's a loss. | Numbers stop, and again, it's a loss. |
| 712 | 01:03:37,397 | 01:03:39,638 | Woodsman turns to Clint, only this time, | Woodsman turns to Clint, only this time, |
| 713 | 01:03:39,733 | 01:03:43,396 | it is the head of a bear in the clothes of the woodsman. | it is the head of a bear in the clothes of the woodsman. |
| 714 | 01:03:43,486 | 01:03:45,647 | Clint, with no Mitchell in sight, | Clint, with no Mitchell in sight, |
| 715 | 01:03:45,739 | 01:03:49,527 | is in bloody, violent, and extended fight for his life. | is in bloody, violent, and extended fight for his life. |
| 716 | 01:03:50,952 | 01:03:53,113 | Dogs outside going wild. | Dogs outside going wild. |
| 717 | 01:04:59,604 | 01:05:02,016 | - You're eating? - Yes. | - You're eating? - Yes. |
| 718 | 01:05:02,107 | 01:05:04,348 | Why didn't you call me? | Why didn't you call me? |
| 719 | 01:05:04,442 | 01:05:07,229 | I thought... I thought you already ate. | I thought... I thought you already ate. |
| 720 | 01:05:07,320 | 01:05:08,480 | No. | No. |
| 721 | 01:05:08,571 | 01:05:10,061 | - No? - No. | - No? - No. |
| 722 | 01:05:10,156 | 01:05:12,192 | - Why? - Why didn't you call me? | - Why? - Why didn't you call me? |
| 723 | 01:05:12,283 | 01:05:14,569 | But why you didn't eat yet? | But why you didn't eat yet? |
| 724 | 01:05:14,661 | 01:05:18,153 | You know, it's fucking... It's thoughtless. | You know, it's fucking... It's thoughtless. |
| 725 | 01:05:18,248 | 01:05:20,785 | Come on, I waited... You know, I... | Come on, I waited... You know, I... |
| 726 | 01:05:20,875 | 01:05:23,332 | I missed... I sat around all yesterday, | I missed... I sat around all yesterday, |
| 727 | 01:05:23,420 | 01:05:25,832 | and I made my own dinner, then you make food, | and I made my own dinner, then you make food, |
| 728 | 01:05:25,922 | 01:05:27,412 | you don't even call me. | you don't even call me. |
| 729 | 01:05:27,507 | 01:05:29,168 | I've been waiting to have lunch. | I've been waiting to have lunch. |
| 730 | 01:05:29,259 | 01:05:31,170 | Why you... Why you gotta wait for me? | Why you... Why you gotta wait for me? |
| 731 | 01:05:31,261 | 01:05:32,671 | Why you gotta wait for me? | Why you gotta wait for me? |
| 732 | 01:05:32,762 | 01:05:34,468 | You can cook, you are an adult. | You can cook, you are an adult. |
| 733 | 01:05:34,556 | 01:05:37,093 | I know, okay, okay, I can cook and I will cook. | I know, okay, okay, I can cook and I will cook. |
| 734 | 01:05:37,183 | 01:05:38,593 | I'll cook my own stuff. | I'll cook my own stuff. |
| 735 | 01:05:38,685 | 01:05:42,598 | Jesus Christ, do you know, I waited for you. | Jesus Christ, do you know, I waited for you. |
| 736 | 01:05:42,689 | 01:05:46,181 | - You know, I wait for you... - No, no, come on... | - You know, I wait for you... - No, no, come on... |
| 737 | 01:05:46,276 | 01:05:49,313 | No, it just bugs me because it's inconsiderate. | No, it just bugs me because it's inconsiderate. |
| 738 | 01:05:49,404 | 01:05:52,111 | I like to eat with you and the baby. | I like to eat with you and the baby. |
| 739 | 01:05:52,198 | 01:05:53,358 | Oh, come on. | Oh, come on. |
| 740 | 01:05:53,450 | 01:05:56,442 | What do you mean, "oh, come on"? | What do you mean, "oh, come on"? |
| 741 | 01:05:56,536 | 01:05:57,696 | What do you mean? | What do you mean? |
| 742 | 01:05:58,872 | 01:06:00,112 | Yeah, laugh, you know, | Yeah, laugh, you know, |
| 743 | 01:06:00,206 | 01:06:02,117 | you laugh when you know you're full of shit. | you laugh when you know you're full of shit. |
| 744 | 01:06:02,208 | 01:06:04,950 | That's what happens. Can I have at least the freedom | That's what happens. Can I have at least the freedom |
| 745 | 01:06:05,044 | 01:06:08,787 | to eat when I want and with who I want | to eat when I want and with who I want |
| 746 | 01:06:08,882 | 01:06:11,749 | and without busting my balls and blah-blah-blah? | and without busting my balls and blah-blah-blah? |
| 747 | 01:06:11,843 | 01:06:14,755 | Okay, I don't mean to bust your balls, believe me. | Okay, I don't mean to bust your balls, believe me. |
| 748 | 01:06:14,846 | 01:06:18,088 | I just try to take care, it's all a little silly, you know? | I just try to take care, it's all a little silly, you know? |
| 749 | 01:06:18,183 | 01:06:21,095 | You talk a lot of shit, you know, you talk a lot of... | You talk a lot of shit, you know, you talk a lot of... |
| 750 | 01:06:22,437 | 01:06:24,894 | Hippie shit. | Hippie shit. |
| 751 | 01:06:24,981 | 01:06:27,393 | - Oh my god. - Why don't you make it for me? | - Oh my god. - Why don't you make it for me? |
| 752 | 01:06:27,484 | 01:06:29,600 | I mean, I'm trying to work. | I mean, I'm trying to work. |
| 753 | 01:06:29,694 | 01:06:31,150 | - Really? - I make it for you. | - Really? - I make it for you. |
| 754 | 01:06:31,237 | 01:06:33,523 | It's just... it's just common consideration. | It's just... it's just common consideration. |
| 755 | 01:06:33,615 | 01:06:35,276 | Really, I thought you already had. | Really, I thought you already had. |
| 756 | 01:06:35,366 | 01:06:38,733 | Being a family, being a couple, you know, | Being a family, being a couple, you know, |
| 757 | 01:06:38,828 | 01:06:40,819 | loving someone is being present. | loving someone is being present. |
| 758 | 01:06:40,914 | 01:06:42,620 | It's about... It's about attention, | It's about... It's about attention, |
| 759 | 01:06:42,707 | 01:06:46,370 | it's about... it's about, you know, taking care. | it's about... it's about, you know, taking care. |
| 760 | 01:06:46,461 | 01:06:48,543 | I'm trying to do my thing. | I'm trying to do my thing. |
| 761 | 01:06:49,964 | 01:06:51,579 | - And... - What is your thing? | - And... - What is your thing? |
| 762 | 01:06:51,674 | 01:06:53,585 | - My thing? - Yeah, what is your thing? | - My thing? - Yeah, what is your thing? |
| 763 | 01:06:55,094 | 01:06:57,085 | "It's your thing, do what you wanna do, | "It's your thing, do what you wanna do, |
| 764 | 01:06:57,180 | 01:07:00,217 | I can't tell you who to sock it to." | I can't tell you who to sock it to." |
| 765 | 01:07:00,308 | 01:07:04,301 | Oh, come on. To do what I want, when I want, | Oh, come on. To do what I want, when I want, |
| 766 | 01:07:04,395 | 01:07:09,059 | everything that I really want, without explaining to somebody... | everything that I really want, without explaining to somebody... |
| 767 | 01:07:09,150 | 01:07:11,812 | So I have two children now? | So I have two children now? |
| 768 | 01:08:36,362 | 01:08:38,102 | Start your story. | Start your story. |
| 769 | 01:08:42,368 | 01:08:44,734 | Once I met a boy. | Once I met a boy. |
| 770 | 01:08:46,372 | 01:08:48,579 | I liked his eyes. | I liked his eyes. |
| 771 | 01:08:51,544 | 01:08:54,536 | His eyes and his mouth. | His eyes and his mouth. |
| 772 | 01:08:56,799 | 01:08:59,506 | I liked his mouth, it was big. | I liked his mouth, it was big. |
| 773 | 01:09:00,845 | 01:09:02,301 | Beautiful. | Beautiful. |
| 774 | 01:09:04,557 | 01:09:08,470 | I remember he started hugging and kissing me. | I remember he started hugging and kissing me. |
| 775 | 01:09:10,897 | 01:09:12,933 | I fell in love immediately. | I fell in love immediately. |
| 776 | 01:09:19,155 | 01:09:22,989 | I liked his eyes, his smell... | I liked his eyes, his smell... |
| 777 | 01:10:50,872 | 01:10:53,238 | Okay? Don't worry. | Okay? Don't worry. |
| 778 | 01:10:56,294 | 01:10:57,329 | Mama? | Mama? |
| 779 | 01:11:02,550 | 01:11:03,915 | Mama, mama? | Mama, mama? |
| 780 | 01:11:04,010 | 01:11:06,217 | You know what, I'm gonna go down there. | You know what, I'm gonna go down there. |
| 781 | 01:11:06,304 | 01:11:09,171 | - Okay? - It's okay, it's okay. | - Okay? - It's okay, it's okay. |
| 782 | 01:11:09,265 | 01:11:11,972 | Everything gonna be okay. | Everything gonna be okay. |
| 783 | 01:11:24,322 | 01:11:28,031 | Shut up! You're making us crazy. | Shut up! You're making us crazy. |
| 784 | 01:11:32,246 | 01:11:35,488 | Somebody call the police! | Somebody call the police! |
| 785 | 01:11:38,503 | 01:11:41,916 | If you don't stop, I'll come and punch you. | If you don't stop, I'll come and punch you. |
| 786 | 01:11:46,844 | 01:11:49,176 | You know, he's freaking out the baby. | You know, he's freaking out the baby. |
| 787 | 01:11:49,263 | 01:11:51,345 | I know, I know, I know, I know. | I know, I know, I know, I know. |
| 788 | 01:11:51,432 | 01:11:53,343 | Just... yeah, but just be careful. | Just... yeah, but just be careful. |
| 789 | 01:11:53,434 | 01:11:55,114 | - Listen, be careful. - Yeah, yeah, I know. | - Listen, be careful. - Yeah, yeah, I know. |
| 790 | 01:11:55,144 | 01:11:57,351 | You know, with these guys, you never know. | You know, with these guys, you never know. |
| 791 | 01:12:25,550 | 01:12:26,630 | Yo! | Yo! |
| 792 | 01:12:29,512 | 01:12:30,843 | Stop it! | Stop it! |
| 793 | 01:12:36,727 | 01:12:39,639 | You are scaring my baby! | You are scaring my baby! |
| 794 | 01:12:41,065 | 01:12:43,522 | Stop it! Shut up! | Stop it! Shut up! |
| 795 | 01:12:43,609 | 01:12:46,225 | - Motherfucker. - Get outta here! | - Motherfucker. - Get outta here! |
| 796 | 01:12:46,320 | 01:12:49,608 | - You speak English? - I don't speak English but I... | - You speak English? - I don't speak English but I... |
| 797 | 01:12:51,158 | 01:12:53,615 | Get the fuck outta here, get the fuck outta here. | Get the fuck outta here, get the fuck outta here. |
| 798 | 01:12:53,703 | 01:12:55,409 | Get outta here! | Get outta here! |
| 799 | 01:12:56,581 | 01:12:57,991 | Fucking bloody... | Fucking bloody... |
| 800 | 01:12:58,082 | 01:13:01,916 | Get your shit outta here, come on, go! | Get your shit outta here, come on, go! |
| 801 | 01:13:03,754 | 01:13:05,357 | - I'll destroy you. - Yeah, okay, okay, okay. | - I'll destroy you. - Yeah, okay, okay, okay. |
| 802 | 01:13:05,381 | 01:13:08,589 | Yeah, you're gonna do it? Get outta here, get outta here. | Yeah, you're gonna do it? Get outta here, get outta here. |
| 803 | 01:13:08,676 | 01:13:10,212 | Just get out. | Just get out. |
| 804 | 01:13:10,303 | 01:13:12,009 | Beat it, beat it. | Beat it, beat it. |
| 805 | 01:13:12,096 | 01:13:14,212 | Come on, be on your way. | Come on, be on your way. |
| 806 | 01:13:14,307 | 01:13:17,049 | Take your food with you. Go. | Take your food with you. Go. |
| 807 | 01:13:17,143 | 01:13:18,883 | Oh, my baby, she can't sleep, | Oh, my baby, she can't sleep, |
| 808 | 01:13:18,978 | 01:13:20,809 | you're scaring the shit out of her. | you're scaring the shit out of her. |
| 809 | 01:13:20,897 | 01:13:22,762 | Where is it? | Where is it? |
| 810 | 01:13:22,857 | 01:13:24,563 | Your baby is sleeping? | Your baby is sleeping? |
| 811 | 01:13:24,650 | 01:13:26,481 | Upstairs, upstairs. | Upstairs, upstairs. |
| 812 | 01:13:26,569 | 01:13:28,434 | So I'm making bothering with you? | So I'm making bothering with you? |
| 813 | 01:13:28,529 | 01:13:30,235 | You're bothering me. | You're bothering me. |
| 814 | 01:13:30,323 | 01:13:32,985 | - It's true? - Yeah, it's true, it's true. | - It's true? - Yeah, it's true, it's true. |
| 815 | 01:13:33,075 | 01:13:34,565 | Keeping... | Keeping... |
| 816 | 01:13:34,660 | 01:13:36,070 | - Yeah. - No anything. | - Yeah. - No anything. |
| 817 | 01:13:36,162 | 01:13:37,197 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 818 | 01:13:38,623 | 01:13:40,363 | We maybe compromises. | We maybe compromises. |
| 819 | 01:13:40,458 | 01:13:44,167 | Okay, you can sit down, but no more, okay? | Okay, you can sit down, but no more, okay? |
| 820 | 01:13:44,253 | 01:13:45,584 | Yeah. | Yeah. |
| 821 | 01:13:45,671 | 01:13:47,912 | I don't want to bother you. | I don't want to bother you. |
| 822 | 01:13:48,007 | 01:13:49,372 | Good. | Good. |
| 823 | 01:13:49,467 | 01:13:52,004 | You're a nice person, give me some coins? | You're a nice person, give me some coins? |
| 824 | 01:13:53,471 | 01:13:55,382 | Yeah, I can give you some coins. | Yeah, I can give you some coins. |
| 825 | 01:13:56,933 | 01:13:59,720 | Where you come from? | Where you come from? |
| 826 | 01:13:59,810 | 01:14:01,346 | The states. | The states. |
| 827 | 01:14:01,437 | 01:14:03,678 | Which part of states? | Which part of states? |
| 828 | 01:14:03,773 | 01:14:05,013 | New York. | New York. |
| 829 | 01:14:05,107 | 01:14:06,847 | - New York. - How about you? | - New York. - How about you? |
| 830 | 01:14:06,943 | 01:14:11,733 | All of my friends live in here, here, just near here. | All of my friends live in here, here, just near here. |
| 831 | 01:14:11,822 | 01:14:13,153 | They came from New York. | They came from New York. |
| 832 | 01:14:13,240 | 01:14:15,196 | Where are you from? | Where are you from? |
| 833 | 01:14:15,284 | 01:14:17,275 | Pakistan. Pakistan? | Pakistan. Pakistan? |
| 834 | 01:14:17,370 | 01:14:18,655 | You know where it is? | You know where it is? |
| 835 | 01:14:18,746 | 01:14:20,202 | I've heard of it. | I've heard of it. |
| 836 | 01:14:23,459 | 01:14:25,199 | They are all bullshit. | They are all bullshit. |
| 837 | 01:14:26,963 | 01:14:28,453 | I know, I know, I know. | I know, I know, I know. |
| 838 | 01:14:38,724 | 01:14:40,715 | Okay, okay, okay. | Okay, okay, okay. |
| 839 | 01:14:42,478 | 01:14:44,139 | Fuckin' hell. | Fuckin' hell. |
| 840 | 01:14:49,276 | 01:14:52,768 | That's... that stuff's poison, you know that. | That's... that stuff's poison, you know that. |
| 841 | 01:14:54,156 | 01:14:55,942 | - Enjoy yourself. - Okay. | - Enjoy yourself. - Okay. |
| 842 | 01:14:56,033 | 01:14:58,570 | - Have a good night. - Yes, to you. | - Have a good night. - Yes, to you. |
| 843 | 01:14:59,453 | 01:15:01,159 | See you the next time. | See you the next time. |
| 844 | 01:15:01,247 | 01:15:03,112 | Okay, good luck. | Okay, good luck. |
| 845 | 01:15:05,042 | 01:15:06,248 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 846 | 01:15:10,464 | 01:15:11,795 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 847 | 01:15:14,719 | 01:15:16,004 | Goodnight. | Goodnight. |
| 848 | 01:15:19,140 | 01:15:20,505 | Just go. | Just go. |
| 849 | 01:15:20,599 | 01:15:22,214 | You're good. | You're good. |
| 850 | 01:18:05,973 | 01:18:07,463 | Deedee! | Deedee! |
| 851 | 01:19:21,423 | 01:19:25,587 | Anybody have a story? Raise your hand if you do. | Anybody have a story? Raise your hand if you do. |
| 852 | 01:19:27,972 | 01:19:29,963 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 853 | 01:19:30,057 | 01:19:33,675 | I left home when I was 19 | I left home when I was 19 |
| 854 | 01:19:34,895 | 01:19:38,137 | and I moved abroad. | and I moved abroad. |
| 855 | 01:19:39,942 | 01:19:42,604 | Where? - Dubai, in the Emirates. | Where? - Dubai, in the Emirates. |
| 856 | 01:19:43,529 | 01:19:46,020 | Good, do it again. | Good, do it again. |
| 857 | 01:19:47,324 | 01:19:50,157 | Do the same movements, | Do the same movements, |
| 858 | 01:19:50,244 | 01:19:54,362 | but this time tell the whole story. | but this time tell the whole story. |
| 859 | 01:19:54,456 | 01:19:56,868 | Now I'm going, I don't care where, | Now I'm going, I don't care where, |
| 860 | 01:19:56,959 | 01:20:00,998 | the important thing is that I go far from my family. | the important thing is that I go far from my family. |
| 861 | 01:20:02,589 | 01:20:06,332 | I will choose the first place that wants me | I will choose the first place that wants me |
| 862 | 01:20:06,427 | 01:20:07,883 | and I'll go there. | and I'll go there. |
| 863 | 01:20:08,887 | 01:20:11,754 | I'm here, I'm here in Dubai. | I'm here, I'm here in Dubai. |
| 864 | 01:20:14,351 | 01:20:19,141 | I really wanted to come here because I thought | I really wanted to come here because I thought |
| 865 | 01:20:19,231 | 01:20:23,224 | I could find something here that I couldn't find there. | I could find something here that I couldn't find there. |
| 866 | 01:20:23,319 | 01:20:25,605 | But here there's nothing at all. | But here there's nothing at all. |
| 867 | 01:20:26,530 | 01:20:28,395 | So where is he now? | So where is he now? |
| 868 | 01:20:30,117 | 01:20:32,358 | I don't know. | I don't know. |
| 869 | 01:20:32,453 | 01:20:35,411 | You don't... But he just wrote you, right? | You don't... But he just wrote you, right? |
| 870 | 01:20:37,958 | 01:20:40,199 | He sent you an email. | He sent you an email. |
| 871 | 01:20:40,294 | 01:20:45,004 | Yeah, he sent me some emails during those three years... | Yeah, he sent me some emails during those three years... |
| 872 | 01:20:45,090 | 01:20:49,174 | Only... ahh, see, I thought he just sent you recently. | Only... ahh, see, I thought he just sent you recently. |
| 873 | 01:20:49,261 | 01:20:51,377 | - No. - No? Oh. | - No. - No? Oh. |
| 874 | 01:20:51,472 | 01:20:56,432 | No, like, a few emails in three years... | No, like, a few emails in three years... |
| 875 | 01:20:56,518 | 01:21:00,010 | - Oh, that's terrible. - Are not enough for a father. | - Oh, that's terrible. - Are not enough for a father. |
| 876 | 01:21:02,399 | 01:21:05,562 | So you're, you know, so you basically cut him off, | So you're, you know, so you basically cut him off, |
| 877 | 01:21:05,652 | 01:21:06,892 | you're angry because he... | you're angry because he... |
| 878 | 01:21:06,987 | 01:21:09,399 | - Of course I am. - Yeah. | - Of course I am. - Yeah. |
| 879 | 01:21:09,490 | 01:21:12,607 | He... he was everything for me. | He... he was everything for me. |
| 880 | 01:21:12,701 | 01:21:15,283 | So he disappointed you. | So he disappointed you. |
| 881 | 01:21:15,371 | 01:21:18,158 | He... | He... |
| 882 | 01:21:18,248 | 01:21:23,663 | He was teaching me to believe in some values. | He was teaching me to believe in some values. |
| 883 | 01:21:23,754 | 01:21:25,369 | Mm-hmm. | Mm-hmm. |
| 884 | 01:21:25,464 | 01:21:29,457 | And he showed me that those values | And he showed me that those values |
| 885 | 01:21:29,551 | 01:21:30,791 | don't exist. | don't exist. |
| 886 | 01:21:30,886 | 01:21:33,878 | - Okay. - He destroyed my world. | - Okay. - He destroyed my world. |
| 887 | 01:21:33,972 | 01:21:39,183 | He destroyed my hope, everything. | He destroyed my hope, everything. |
| 888 | 01:21:39,269 | 01:21:40,475 | Right. | Right. |
| 889 | 01:21:40,562 | 01:21:41,562 | So... | So... |
| 890 | 01:21:43,399 | 01:21:47,062 | How can it be possible, like, for a father? | How can it be possible, like, for a father? |
| 891 | 01:21:49,113 | 01:21:50,694 | I don't know. | I don't know. |
| 892 | 01:21:50,781 | 01:21:53,397 | I mean, we are... | I mean, we are... |
| 893 | 01:21:53,492 | 01:21:55,198 | He made me. | He made me. |
| 894 | 01:21:56,912 | 01:21:59,824 | He's supposed to love me, to stay with me, | He's supposed to love me, to stay with me, |
| 895 | 01:21:59,915 | 01:22:02,907 | to take care of me, but he doesn't. | to take care of me, but he doesn't. |
| 896 | 01:22:03,001 | 01:22:06,368 | He's completely focused on other stupid stuff. | He's completely focused on other stupid stuff. |
| 897 | 01:22:06,463 | 01:22:08,124 | Right. | Right. |
| 898 | 01:22:10,300 | 01:22:13,258 | I don't... I don't know what to say. | I don't... I don't know what to say. |
| 899 | 01:22:13,345 | 01:22:15,802 | - Anyway... - I mean... yeah. | - Anyway... - I mean... yeah. |
| 900 | 01:22:15,889 | 01:22:17,754 | Let's speak about something more. | Let's speak about something more. |
| 901 | 01:22:17,850 | 01:22:19,465 | Okay, something else. | Okay, something else. |
| 902 | 01:22:19,560 | 01:22:21,892 | What about your baby? | What about your baby? |
| 903 | 01:22:21,979 | 01:22:25,142 | She's good, I mean, you know, every day is a little miracle. | She's good, I mean, you know, every day is a little miracle. |
| 904 | 01:22:25,232 | 01:22:29,441 | She learns lots of stuff, she's talking a lot more. | She learns lots of stuff, she's talking a lot more. |
| 905 | 01:22:29,528 | 01:22:32,361 | Um, you know, I love taking her to the park. | Um, you know, I love taking her to the park. |
| 906 | 01:22:32,448 | 01:22:36,532 | I've got some stuff with her mother, but, um, | I've got some stuff with her mother, but, um, |
| 907 | 01:22:36,618 | 01:22:37,824 | you know about that. | you know about that. |
| 908 | 01:22:39,580 | 01:22:42,697 | So, it's hard, you know? | So, it's hard, you know? |
| 909 | 01:22:42,791 | 01:22:46,204 | But I'm dealing with it, and, um, you know, | But I'm dealing with it, and, um, you know, |
| 910 | 01:22:46,295 | 01:22:49,002 | making work and... | making work and... |
| 911 | 01:22:49,089 | 01:22:50,829 | I get to talk to you. | I get to talk to you. |
| 912 | 01:22:53,177 | 01:22:54,667 | Class was good, huh? | Class was good, huh? |
| 913 | 01:22:54,761 | 01:22:57,377 | Yeah, today was amazing. | Yeah, today was amazing. |
| 914 | 01:22:57,473 | 01:23:01,466 | Yeah, I love having you in class. | Yeah, I love having you in class. |
| 915 | 01:23:01,560 | 01:23:03,050 | - Thanks. - No, it's nice, | - Thanks. - No, it's nice, |
| 916 | 01:23:03,145 | 01:23:05,636 | and I'm always happy to see you. | and I'm always happy to see you. |
| 917 | 01:23:07,024 | 01:23:10,357 | Okay, so, maybe I should go. | Okay, so, maybe I should go. |
| 918 | 01:23:10,444 | 01:23:13,186 | Yeah, what are you up to? | Yeah, what are you up to? |
| 919 | 01:23:13,280 | 01:23:15,145 | I don't know. | I don't know. |
| 920 | 01:23:15,240 | 01:23:16,855 | You gotta go? | You gotta go? |
| 921 | 01:23:16,950 | 01:23:18,406 | - Maybe, yeah. - Yeah, okay. | - Maybe, yeah. - Yeah, okay. |
| 922 | 01:23:18,494 | 01:23:20,735 | Okay, all right, ciao. | Okay, all right, ciao. |
| 923 | 01:24:03,330 | 01:24:05,036 | Okay, I gotta go. | Okay, I gotta go. |
| 924 | 01:24:05,791 | 01:24:07,247 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 925 | 01:26:27,766 | 01:26:29,927 | When you touch the fundamental nature | When you touch the fundamental nature |
| 926 | 01:26:30,018 | 01:26:33,431 | of the ultimate reality of any phenomenon whatsoever, | of the ultimate reality of any phenomenon whatsoever, |
| 927 | 01:26:33,522 | 01:26:35,308 | there is pleasure. | there is pleasure. |
| 928 | 01:26:35,399 | 01:26:37,890 | Everything that exists is capable | Everything that exists is capable |
| 929 | 01:26:37,984 | 01:26:41,226 | of eliciting pleasure in your mind, | of eliciting pleasure in your mind, |
| 930 | 01:26:41,321 | 01:26:42,686 | but you are narrow. | but you are narrow. |
| 931 | 01:26:42,781 | 01:26:44,817 | Your mind has neurotic obsessions | Your mind has neurotic obsessions |
| 932 | 01:26:44,908 | 01:26:49,368 | such as, "I only like things that are purple." | such as, "I only like things that are purple." |
| 933 | 01:26:49,454 | 01:26:53,242 | For you, only purple things are beautiful. | For you, only purple things are beautiful. |
| 934 | 01:26:53,333 | 01:26:55,540 | This sort of neurotic, dualistic, | This sort of neurotic, dualistic, |
| 935 | 01:26:55,627 | 01:26:59,245 | unrealistic way of thinking only gets you into trouble, | unrealistic way of thinking only gets you into trouble, |
| 936 | 01:26:59,339 | 01:27:02,206 | but we do it all the time, don't we? | but we do it all the time, don't we? |
| 937 | 01:27:26,616 | 01:27:28,231 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 938 | 01:27:32,956 | 01:27:34,742 | What's happening? | What's happening? |
| 939 | 01:27:34,833 | 01:27:36,824 | How come you came here? | How come you came here? |
| 940 | 01:27:36,918 | 01:27:38,909 | What's with this surprise? | What's with this surprise? |
| 941 | 01:27:39,004 | 01:27:40,335 | What is this surprise? | What is this surprise? |
| 942 | 01:27:45,927 | 01:27:47,258 | Okay, so... | Okay, so... |
| 943 | 01:28:01,568 | 01:28:03,058 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 944 | 01:28:06,615 | 01:28:07,730 | Ciao! | Ciao! |
| 945 | 01:28:09,367 | 01:28:10,607 | Hey, Lisa. | Hey, Lisa. |
| 946 | 01:28:10,702 | 01:28:11,702 | Oh! | Oh! |
| 947 | 01:28:13,038 | 01:28:14,323 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 948 | 01:28:15,207 | 01:28:16,788 | Oh! | Oh! |
| 949 | 01:28:21,838 | 01:28:24,375 | They're having fun, they're playing. | They're having fun, they're playing. |
| 950 | 01:28:24,466 | 01:28:28,425 | I've been all over the park running after them. | I've been all over the park running after them. |
| 951 | 01:28:45,362 | 01:28:48,149 | My name's Danny, and I'm an alcoholic. | My name's Danny, and I'm an alcoholic. |
| 952 | 01:28:48,240 | 01:28:49,650 | - Hi, Danny. - Hi, Danny. | - Hi, Danny. - Hi, Danny. |
| 953 | 01:28:49,741 | 01:28:52,107 | I've enjoyed the meeting, you know, | I've enjoyed the meeting, you know, |
| 954 | 01:28:52,202 | 01:28:55,194 | and I'm listening to the stories around the room | and I'm listening to the stories around the room |
| 955 | 01:28:55,288 | 01:28:58,405 | and just thinking about, you know, | and just thinking about, you know, |
| 956 | 01:28:58,500 | 01:29:02,368 | often when I come here, I'm afraid, you know. | often when I come here, I'm afraid, you know. |
| 957 | 01:29:02,462 | 01:29:04,418 | The thing that's in my mind most | The thing that's in my mind most |
| 958 | 01:29:04,506 | 01:29:05,871 | is feeling sorry for myself | is feeling sorry for myself |
| 959 | 01:29:05,966 | 01:29:08,252 | because everybody else is going to the pub, | because everybody else is going to the pub, |
| 960 | 01:29:08,343 | 01:29:12,507 | and I have to fucking come here and listen to people talking | and I have to fucking come here and listen to people talking |
| 961 | 01:29:15,517 | 01:29:17,428 | and I think about the way it was, | and I think about the way it was, |
| 962 | 01:29:17,519 | 01:29:19,601 | like, going to the pub with a pint in the hand, | like, going to the pub with a pint in the hand, |
| 963 | 01:29:19,688 | 01:29:22,179 | cracking the jokes, and all the rest of it. | cracking the jokes, and all the rest of it. |
| 964 | 01:29:22,274 | 01:29:25,061 | So I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself, | So I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself, |
| 965 | 01:29:25,151 | 01:29:28,063 | but I'm quickly reminded of, you know, | but I'm quickly reminded of, you know, |
| 966 | 01:29:28,154 | 01:29:32,147 | how good it is to be sober and, you know, | how good it is to be sober and, you know, |
| 967 | 01:29:32,242 | 01:29:34,528 | I'm grateful because this week, as you all know, | I'm grateful because this week, as you all know, |
| 968 | 01:29:34,619 | 01:29:38,612 | Noemi has been going through, you know, she has cancer, | Noemi has been going through, you know, she has cancer, |
| 969 | 01:29:38,707 | 01:29:41,574 | and, um, she did treatment already | and, um, she did treatment already |
| 970 | 01:29:41,668 | 01:29:44,034 | and things have been going really well, | and things have been going really well, |
| 971 | 01:29:44,129 | 01:29:48,964 | but, um, you know, we're going for a routine test this week, | but, um, you know, we're going for a routine test this week, |
| 972 | 01:29:49,050 | 01:29:52,383 | and unfortunately, the fucking thing's come back, | and unfortunately, the fucking thing's come back, |
| 973 | 01:29:52,470 | 01:29:56,088 | you know, and it's not life-threatening, you know, | you know, and it's not life-threatening, you know, |
| 974 | 01:29:56,182 | 01:29:59,845 | by no means are we looking at death or anything like that, | by no means are we looking at death or anything like that, |
| 975 | 01:29:59,936 | 01:30:04,225 | but when I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself | but when I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself |
| 976 | 01:30:04,316 | 01:30:07,558 | because I have to sit here and listen to people, | because I have to sit here and listen to people, |
| 977 | 01:30:07,652 | 01:30:09,392 | and then I think about the reality | and then I think about the reality |
| 978 | 01:30:09,487 | 01:30:12,945 | that, you know, my future wife is facing, | that, you know, my future wife is facing, |
| 979 | 01:30:13,033 | 01:30:17,367 | it brings in the sharp focus, the, you know, | it brings in the sharp focus, the, you know, |
| 980 | 01:30:17,454 | 01:30:19,445 | the selfish, self-centered nature | the selfish, self-centered nature |
| 981 | 01:30:19,539 | 01:30:21,621 | of what it is that I suffer from, | of what it is that I suffer from, |
| 982 | 01:30:21,708 | 01:30:29,126 | and it reminds me of how lucky I am to be here, you know. | and it reminds me of how lucky I am to be here, you know. |
| 983 | 01:30:29,215 | 01:30:30,751 | That's all I've got for this evening. | That's all I've got for this evening. |
| 984 | 01:30:30,842 | 01:30:31,877 | Thanks very much. | Thanks very much. |
| 985 | 01:30:31,968 | 01:30:34,835 | - Thanks, Danny. - Thanks, Danny. | - Thanks, Danny. - Thanks, Danny. |
| 986 | 01:30:34,930 | 01:30:36,886 | My name is Souten, I'm an alcoholic. | My name is Souten, I'm an alcoholic. |
| 987 | 01:30:36,973 | 01:30:38,338 | - Hi, Souten. - Hi, Souten. | - Hi, Souten. - Hi, Souten. |
| 988 | 01:30:38,433 | 01:30:40,344 | When I was about 19 years old, | When I was about 19 years old, |
| 989 | 01:30:40,435 | 01:30:44,098 | I was already 13 years drinking and doing drugs. | I was already 13 years drinking and doing drugs. |
| 990 | 01:30:44,189 | 01:30:48,057 | I rock bottom big time. | I rock bottom big time. |
| 991 | 01:30:48,151 | 01:30:50,813 | I came in AA, somebody helped me, | I came in AA, somebody helped me, |
| 992 | 01:30:50,904 | 01:30:53,691 | and I stayed in the program for eight years, | and I stayed in the program for eight years, |
| 993 | 01:30:53,782 | 01:30:58,617 | and then it stopped, and I picked up one drink, | and then it stopped, and I picked up one drink, |
| 994 | 01:30:58,703 | 01:31:02,571 | and I was fucked again for another 18 years. | and I was fucked again for another 18 years. |
| 995 | 01:31:02,666 | 01:31:04,748 | Four years ago, I rock bottom | Four years ago, I rock bottom |
| 996 | 01:31:04,834 | 01:31:07,541 | a little different than the first time I rock bottom. | a little different than the first time I rock bottom. |
| 997 | 01:31:07,629 | 01:31:09,210 | I was in my house, | I was in my house, |
| 998 | 01:31:09,297 | 01:31:12,460 | and there were all people I don't know in my house. | and there were all people I don't know in my house. |
| 999 | 01:31:12,550 | 01:31:16,919 | Everywhere were bottles with booze on the floors, | Everywhere were bottles with booze on the floors, |
| 1000 | 01:31:17,013 | 01:31:19,675 | and cocaine on the table, | and cocaine on the table, |
| 1001 | 01:31:19,766 | 01:31:23,350 | and women in my bed who I don't know. | and women in my bed who I don't know. |
| 1002 | 01:31:23,436 | 01:31:25,552 | And the worst thing is that my wife, | And the worst thing is that my wife, |
| 1003 | 01:31:25,647 | 01:31:31,062 | she was in the airplane coming from Amsterdam back home, | she was in the airplane coming from Amsterdam back home, |
| 1004 | 01:31:31,152 | 01:31:33,894 | and I kick everybody out of my house, | and I kick everybody out of my house, |
| 1005 | 01:31:33,989 | 01:31:37,322 | I clean my house, and when I put the last bottle | I clean my house, and when I put the last bottle |
| 1006 | 01:31:37,409 | 01:31:40,446 | in the busta nero, in the trash bag, | in the busta nero, in the trash bag, |
| 1007 | 01:31:40,537 | 01:31:45,076 | the taxi came up with my wife, and I run to the bathroom, | the taxi came up with my wife, and I run to the bathroom, |
| 1008 | 01:31:45,166 | 01:31:48,750 | and I had this mirror moment, I looked in the mirror | and I had this mirror moment, I looked in the mirror |
| 1009 | 01:31:48,837 | 01:31:54,673 | after 18 years and I saw myself totally white with the red eyes. | after 18 years and I saw myself totally white with the red eyes. |
| 1010 | 01:31:54,759 | 01:31:56,750 | And I thought, "Fuck, man, that's not you, | And I thought, "Fuck, man, that's not you, |
| 1011 | 01:31:56,845 | 01:31:59,882 | that's the devil," and there it hit me, | that's the devil," and there it hit me, |
| 1012 | 01:31:59,973 | 01:32:03,340 | the little... something told me in my ears, | the little... something told me in my ears, |
| 1013 | 01:32:03,435 | 01:32:07,428 | "you have to do something about your life, man." | "you have to do something about your life, man." |
| 1014 | 01:32:07,522 | 01:32:09,058 | And I did. | And I did. |
| 1015 | 01:32:09,149 | 01:32:12,312 | So I did a year full, every day a meeting. | So I did a year full, every day a meeting. |
| 1016 | 01:32:12,402 | 01:32:16,862 | That was my first sober year, and it was a miracle. | That was my first sober year, and it was a miracle. |
| 1017 | 01:32:16,948 | 01:32:18,939 | And then miracles started happening. | And then miracles started happening. |
| 1018 | 01:32:19,034 | 01:32:20,274 | - Hey! - Can you give me a lift? | - Hey! - Can you give me a lift? |
| 1019 | 01:32:20,326 | 01:32:21,566 | Yeah, come on. | Yeah, come on. |
| 1020 | 01:32:21,661 | 01:32:22,972 | All right, I'll see ya later on then. | All right, I'll see ya later on then. |
| 1021 | 01:32:22,996 | 01:32:25,282 | Good luck, all the best, take it easy. | Good luck, all the best, take it easy. |
| 1022 | 01:32:25,373 | 01:32:30,288 | I just want to be free, free from all the bullshit. | I just want to be free, free from all the bullshit. |
| 1023 | 01:32:33,965 | 01:32:35,501 | I must... I must be careful. | I must... I must be careful. |
| 1024 | 01:32:35,592 | 01:32:38,174 | Yeah, okay. No, I'll walk you down. | Yeah, okay. No, I'll walk you down. |
| 1025 | 01:32:38,261 | 01:32:40,297 | Oh, no, I'm coming with you. | Oh, no, I'm coming with you. |
| 1026 | 01:32:40,388 | 01:32:42,344 | You're coming... Oh, you're coming. | You're coming... Oh, you're coming. |
| 1027 | 01:32:42,432 | 01:32:44,423 | Watch your step. | Watch your step. |
| 1028 | 01:32:47,896 | 01:32:49,386 | Okay. | Okay. |
| 1029 | 01:32:57,697 | 01:33:01,906 | It's just, uh, becoming more and more a problem, you know, | It's just, uh, becoming more and more a problem, you know, |
| 1030 | 01:33:01,993 | 01:33:06,111 | and I know it, uh, has to do with the baby | and I know it, uh, has to do with the baby |
| 1031 | 01:33:06,206 | 01:33:08,447 | sleeping with us, but I mean, uh... | sleeping with us, but I mean, uh... |
| 1032 | 01:33:08,541 | 01:33:10,372 | But the baby has its own bed, doesn'tit? | But the baby has its own bed, doesn'tit? |
| 1033 | 01:33:10,460 | 01:33:11,540 | No, no. | No, no. |
| 1034 | 01:33:11,628 | 01:33:13,664 | No, she fucking sleeps with us. | No, she fucking sleeps with us. |
| 1035 | 01:33:13,755 | 01:33:15,336 | So she's using the bed? | So she's using the bed? |
| 1036 | 01:33:15,423 | 01:33:17,038 | Well, I mean, you know, | Well, I mean, you know, |
| 1037 | 01:33:17,133 | 01:33:20,625 | ever since... ever since that baby was born, everything changed. | ever since... ever since that baby was born, everything changed. |
| 1038 | 01:33:20,720 | 01:33:24,804 | You know, I don't know, we just don't, uh... | You know, I don't know, we just don't, uh... |
| 1039 | 01:33:24,891 | 01:33:28,258 | Yeah, it changed like overnight. | Yeah, it changed like overnight. |
| 1040 | 01:33:28,353 | 01:33:31,390 | What I think is happening here, I think, | What I think is happening here, I think, |
| 1041 | 01:33:31,481 | 01:33:37,351 | is that she is living out a childhood experience. | is that she is living out a childhood experience. |
| 1042 | 01:33:37,445 | 01:33:41,108 | The scenes which are occurring now between you and her, | The scenes which are occurring now between you and her, |
| 1043 | 01:33:41,199 | 01:33:43,565 | I would think that they probably reflect | I would think that they probably reflect |
| 1044 | 01:33:43,660 | 01:33:46,652 | what was happening in the house when she was a child, | what was happening in the house when she was a child, |
| 1045 | 01:33:46,746 | 01:33:48,702 | and she's provoking that. | and she's provoking that. |
| 1046 | 01:33:48,790 | 01:33:54,330 | She has created this white... White knight in shining armor | She has created this white... White knight in shining armor |
| 1047 | 01:33:54,420 | 01:33:57,708 | that she idolizes, but in a sense, | that she idolizes, but in a sense, |
| 1048 | 01:33:57,799 | 01:34:00,131 | you can't... you should not take away that figure | you can't... you should not take away that figure |
| 1049 | 01:34:00,218 | 01:34:02,004 | because that figure, for the moment, | because that figure, for the moment, |
| 1050 | 01:34:02,095 | 01:34:03,756 | is holding her together. | is holding her together. |
| 1051 | 01:34:07,600 | 01:34:11,058 | The big problem is, I have such fucking rage about this | The big problem is, I have such fucking rage about this |
| 1052 | 01:34:11,146 | 01:34:13,762 | 'cause I know I have no place to, uh... | 'cause I know I have no place to, uh... |
| 1053 | 01:34:13,857 | 01:34:15,393 | To discharge it. | To discharge it. |
| 1054 | 01:34:18,111 | 01:34:20,227 | But that's the number one issue at the moment. | But that's the number one issue at the moment. |
| 1055 | 01:34:20,321 | 01:34:22,687 | Why does that tie up to the anger? | Why does that tie up to the anger? |
| 1056 | 01:34:22,782 | 01:34:27,321 | Because the anger occupies so much space in your life. | Because the anger occupies so much space in your life. |
| 1057 | 01:34:27,412 | 01:34:30,825 | There's very little energy left for anything else, | There's very little energy left for anything else, |
| 1058 | 01:34:30,915 | 01:34:34,658 | so if you create areas of interest | so if you create areas of interest |
| 1059 | 01:34:34,752 | 01:34:36,617 | for you, like empathy for people, | for you, like empathy for people, |
| 1060 | 01:34:36,713 | 01:34:38,249 | you're involved in their lives. | you're involved in their lives. |
| 1061 | 01:34:38,339 | 01:34:41,923 | Energy flows there, so there is less energy for the anger. | Energy flows there, so there is less energy for the anger. |
| 1062 | 01:34:42,010 | 01:34:44,171 | Look, we are like... When we come into AA, | Look, we are like... When we come into AA, |
| 1063 | 01:34:44,262 | 01:34:47,049 | we're like lost souls, lost fucking souls. | we're like lost souls, lost fucking souls. |
| 1064 | 01:34:47,140 | 01:34:49,176 | Your soul is either hanging off the fucking tree | Your soul is either hanging off the fucking tree |
| 1065 | 01:34:49,267 | 01:34:52,304 | or it's over there, and you have to get it back, | or it's over there, and you have to get it back, |
| 1066 | 01:34:52,395 | 01:34:57,105 | and by becoming human, but joining with the other gods, | and by becoming human, but joining with the other gods, |
| 1067 | 01:34:57,192 | 01:35:01,902 | uh, slowly it got accommodated sort of in its own fucking time. | uh, slowly it got accommodated sort of in its own fucking time. |
| 1068 | 01:35:03,406 | 01:35:05,397 | And you have... You become your own self, | And you have... You become your own self, |
| 1069 | 01:35:05,491 | 01:35:08,904 | and you give yourself your dignity, not she. | and you give yourself your dignity, not she. |
| 1070 | 01:35:08,995 | 01:35:13,079 | That's... then the codependency ends there at that stage, | That's... then the codependency ends there at that stage, |
| 1071 | 01:35:13,166 | 01:35:14,201 | you understand? | you understand? |
| 1072 | 01:35:23,051 | 01:35:25,167 | Interior: Cafe, nightfall. | Interior: Cafe, nightfall. |
| 1073 | 01:35:25,261 | 01:35:27,968 | The two enter cafe and make their way to the bar. | The two enter cafe and make their way to the bar. |
| 1074 | 01:35:28,056 | 01:35:31,298 | Clint moves behind bar and prepares them warm drinks, | Clint moves behind bar and prepares them warm drinks, |
| 1075 | 01:35:31,392 | 01:35:33,178 | knowing already what they want. | knowing already what they want. |
| 1076 | 01:35:33,269 | 01:35:35,134 | They speak to each other in Russian, | They speak to each other in Russian, |
| 1077 | 01:35:35,230 | 01:35:37,016 | and whether Clint knows the language, | and whether Clint knows the language, |
| 1078 | 01:35:37,106 | 01:35:39,062 | it is also hard to tell. | it is also hard to tell. |
| 1079 | 01:35:39,150 | 01:35:41,141 | After encouragement from the mother, | After encouragement from the mother, |
| 1080 | 01:35:41,236 | 01:35:43,227 | the girl stands up and opens her clothes | the girl stands up and opens her clothes |
| 1081 | 01:35:43,321 | 01:35:45,152 | to reveal she is pregnant. | to reveal she is pregnant. |
| 1082 | 01:35:45,240 | 01:35:46,855 | Clint's eyes come alive. | Clint's eyes come alive. |
| 1083 | 01:35:46,950 | 01:35:50,067 | The feeling is as if they traversed the galaxy | The feeling is as if they traversed the galaxy |
| 1084 | 01:35:50,161 | 01:35:52,994 | and now were its only two inhabitants. | and now were its only two inhabitants. |
| 1085 | 01:35:53,081 | 01:35:55,663 | On the furs, they begin to make love, | On the furs, they begin to make love, |
| 1086 | 01:35:55,750 | 01:35:58,162 | both breathing in rhythm as one. | both breathing in rhythm as one. |
| 1087 | 01:35:58,253 | 01:36:01,245 | They come together. It sounds like music. | They come together. It sounds like music. |
| 1088 | 01:37:56,996 | 01:37:58,907 | Um, I'm tired. | Um, I'm tired. |
| 1089 | 01:38:14,263 | 01:38:16,299 | I'm... I'm gonna go to sleep. | I'm... I'm gonna go to sleep. |
| 1090 | 01:38:16,391 | 01:38:18,723 | I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. | I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. |
| 1091 | 01:38:42,250 | 01:38:43,410 | Fuck. | Fuck. |
| 1092 | 01:39:36,053 | 01:39:37,293 | Fuck. | Fuck. |
| 1093 | 01:42:11,334 | 01:42:13,871 | Take this. | Take this. |
| 1094 | 01:42:13,961 | 01:42:15,747 | It's all I have. | It's all I have. |
| 1095 | 01:44:33,517 | 01:44:35,599 | Good evening. | Good evening. |
| 1096 | 01:44:35,686 | 01:44:38,018 | A quick coffee, please. | A quick coffee, please. |
| 1097 | 01:44:48,699 | 01:44:50,655 | - Here's your coffee. - Thanks. | - Here's your coffee. - Thanks. |
| 1098 | 01:44:54,121 | 01:44:55,611 | See you, thanks. | See you, thanks. |
| 1099 | 01:45:17,061 | 01:45:18,642 | Yo! | Yo! |
| 1100 | 01:45:18,729 | 01:45:20,185 | Hey! | Hey! |
| 1101 | 01:45:21,357 | 01:45:22,597 | Goddamn it, what are you... | Goddamn it, what are you... |
| 1102 | 01:45:22,691 | 01:45:25,728 | - Just stop it! - Where are you going? | - Just stop it! - Where are you going? |
| 1103 | 01:45:25,820 | 01:45:28,232 | - Why don't you wait for me? - Listen, you stop. | - Why don't you wait for me? - Listen, you stop. |
| 1104 | 01:45:28,322 | 01:45:30,187 | You know damn well I need you! | You know damn well I need you! |
| 1105 | 01:45:30,282 | 01:45:31,897 | I need you to go to the... | I need you to go to the... |
| 1106 | 01:45:35,454 | 01:45:36,454 | What's wrong with you? | What's wrong with you? |
| 1107 | 01:45:36,497 | 01:45:37,907 | Don't scream at her! | Don't scream at her! |
| 1108 | 01:45:39,834 | 01:45:41,119 | Fuck you! | Fuck you! |
| 1109 | 01:45:41,210 | 01:45:42,996 | What? Stop what? Don't touch me! | What? Stop what? Don't touch me! |
| 1110 | 01:45:43,087 | 01:45:44,793 | What are you doing? We just go out... | What are you doing? We just go out... |
| 1111 | 01:45:46,507 | 01:45:48,247 | And you don't even help me with anything! | And you don't even help me with anything! |
| 1112 | 01:45:48,342 | 01:45:49,342 | Stop it! | Stop it! |
| 1113 | 01:45:50,052 | 01:45:51,542 | You're a big problem! | You're a big problem! |
| 1114 | 01:45:51,637 | 01:45:53,252 | I need you, I need you. | I need you, I need you. |
| 1115 | 01:45:53,347 | 01:45:54,803 | Why... why did we go out? | Why... why did we go out? |
| 1116 | 01:45:54,890 | 01:45:56,801 | - To fix the lamp! - Oh my god. | - To fix the lamp! - Oh my god. |
| 1117 | 01:45:56,892 | 01:45:58,803 | What do you? You run off. What the fuck? | What do you? You run off. What the fuck? |
| 1118 | 01:45:58,894 | 01:46:01,226 | This is not about what you do, look at you! | This is not about what you do, look at you! |
| 1119 | 01:46:01,313 | 01:46:02,644 | What? You're the problem! | What? You're the problem! |
| 1120 | 01:46:02,731 | 01:46:04,062 | You're the fucking problem! | You're the fucking problem! |
| 1121 | 01:46:04,149 | 01:46:05,605 | Don't scream at her! | Don't scream at her! |
| 1122 | 01:46:05,693 | 01:46:08,901 | Look at you, you look insane! | Look at you, you look insane! |
| 1123 | 01:46:11,448 | 01:46:13,029 | What happened? | What happened? |
| 1124 | 01:46:13,117 | 01:46:14,402 | He's crazy! | He's crazy! |
| 1125 | 01:46:14,493 | 01:46:15,733 | You are the problem! | You are the problem! |
| 1126 | 01:46:15,828 | 01:46:16,988 | What happened? | What happened? |
| 1127 | 01:46:17,079 | 01:46:18,865 | That's my baby! | That's my baby! |
| 1128 | 01:46:18,956 | 01:46:21,368 | Did they steal your wallet? | Did they steal your wallet? |
| 1129 | 01:46:21,458 | 01:46:24,370 | Nothing! | Nothing! |
| 1130 | 01:46:30,801 | 01:46:32,007 | Fuck. | Fuck. |
| 1131 | 01:46:37,725 | 01:46:39,761 | Fucking shit! | Fucking shit! |
| 1132 | 01:46:44,648 | 01:46:46,309 | Fucking bitch! | Fucking bitch! |
| 1133 | 01:46:48,360 | 01:46:49,770 | What the... | What the... |
| 1134 | 01:46:55,075 | 01:46:56,406 | Shit! | Shit! |
| 1135 | 01:47:11,717 | 01:47:16,177 | If you really check up deeper what you do, | If you really check up deeper what you do, |
| 1136 | 01:47:16,263 | 01:47:19,255 | what you did, since you were born up to now, | what you did, since you were born up to now, |
| 1137 | 01:47:19,350 | 01:47:23,468 | which is really worthwhile to bring the true happiness | which is really worthwhile to bring the true happiness |
| 1138 | 01:47:23,562 | 01:47:25,598 | and the joyful life, what you did? | and the joyful life, what you did? |
| 1139 | 01:47:25,689 | 01:47:26,769 | You check up. | You check up. |
| 1140 | 01:47:30,194 | 01:47:33,061 | You check up. Don't look others. | You check up. Don't look others. |
| 1141 | 01:47:33,155 | 01:47:35,237 | You check up your own action. | You check up your own action. |
| 1142 | 01:47:42,081 | 01:47:45,573 | You have your body, your speech, your mind. | You have your body, your speech, your mind. |
| 1143 | 01:47:45,668 | 01:47:47,533 | These three. | These three. |
| 1144 | 01:47:47,628 | 01:47:51,917 | Okay, these three actions, what you did worthwhile? | Okay, these three actions, what you did worthwhile? |
| 1145 | 01:47:54,343 | 01:47:56,049 | You check up that way. | You check up that way. |
| 1146 | 01:47:56,136 | 01:47:57,876 | It's so simple. | It's so simple. |
| 1147 | 01:49:47,206 | 01:49:48,537 | Look at me. | Look at me. |
| 1148 | 01:49:48,624 | 01:49:53,909 | Look at me! | Look at me! |
| 1149 | 01:49:54,004 | 01:49:56,120 | Oh my god! | Oh my god! |
| 1150 | 01:49:59,718 | 01:50:01,299 | No! | No! |
| 1151 | 01:50:04,932 | 01:50:06,797 | Pull. | Pull. |
| 1152 | 01:50:06,892 | 01:50:08,598 | Pull! | Pull! |
| 1153 | 01:50:08,685 | 01:50:10,266 | Stop it! | Stop it! |
| 1154 | 01:50:11,855 | 01:50:14,096 | Stop it! | Stop it! |
| 1155 | 01:50:16,568 | 01:50:19,981 | You make like you're insane! | You make like you're insane! |
| 1156 | 01:50:20,072 | 01:50:23,280 | I got enough of you! | I got enough of you! |
| 1157 | 01:50:23,367 | 01:50:26,074 | I can't stand youl! | I can't stand youl! |
| 1158 | 01:50:26,161 | 01:50:30,495 | I don't love you, I'm sorry, I don't love you! | I don't love you, I'm sorry, I don't love you! |
| 1159 | 01:53:58,332 | 01:53:59,913 | Bada. | Bada. |