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1 | 00:00:00,868 | 00:00:02,412 | Previously on "The Path"... | Previously on "The Path"... |
2 | 00:00:02,436 | 00:00:04,448 | - The only experience I've had is with one other | - The only experience I've had is with one other |
3 | 00:00:04,472 | 00:00:06,683 | super-closeted guy at the church. | super-closeted guy at the church. |
4 | 00:00:06,707 | 00:00:08,485 | - Is it Arnie Phillips? | - Is it Arnie Phillips? |
5 | 00:00:08,509 | 00:00:12,222 | - Tonight I want to introduce the Guardian | - Tonight I want to introduce the Guardian |
6 | 00:00:12,246 | 00:00:16,426 | who will tend this corner of the world, Felicia Pickard. | who will tend this corner of the world, Felicia Pickard. |
7 | 00:00:16,450 | 00:00:18,495 | - You should've left him in the ground. | - You should've left him in the ground. |
8 | 00:00:18,519 | 00:00:21,431 | - I need you to find your way back. | - I need you to find your way back. |
9 | 00:00:21,455 | 00:00:23,700 | - You have to tell Eddie the truth about Steve. | - You have to tell Eddie the truth about Steve. |
10 | 00:00:23,724 | 00:00:27,537 | - Vera has found some old diaries of Steve's, | - Vera has found some old diaries of Steve's, |
11 | 00:00:27,561 | 00:00:30,374 | and she thinks you wrote "The Ladder," or part of it. | and she thinks you wrote "The Ladder," or part of it. |
12 | 00:00:30,398 | 00:00:32,809 | - She claims Steve stole the religion from her, | - She claims Steve stole the religion from her, |
13 | 00:00:32,833 | 00:00:35,345 | but that's not what made us cut her off. | but that's not what made us cut her off. |
14 | 00:00:35,369 | 00:00:37,247 | It was when she hurt her child. | It was when she hurt her child. |
15 | 00:00:37,271 | 00:00:38,782 | The poor girl is probably scarred for life. | The poor girl is probably scarred for life. |
16 | 00:00:38,806 | 00:00:42,286 | - I don't need a secular liaison. | - I don't need a secular liaison. |
17 | 00:00:42,310 | 00:00:45,689 | - Are you firing me? - I guess I am. | - Are you firing me? - I guess I am. |
18 | 00:00:45,713 | 00:00:49,093 | - He loves me. The answer is to find more JPs, | - He loves me. The answer is to find more JPs, |
19 | 00:00:49,117 | 00:00:52,462 | make them my followers, and then take them with me. | make them my followers, and then take them with me. |
20 | 00:00:55,489 | 00:01:02,559 | ♪ | ♪ |
21 | 00:01:15,876 | 00:01:23,316 | ♪ | ♪ |
22 | 00:01:33,527 | 00:01:37,474 | - We have grown tenfold in the last eight months. | - We have grown tenfold in the last eight months. |
23 | 00:01:37,498 | 00:01:39,543 | Expanded into other countries. | Expanded into other countries. |
24 | 00:01:39,567 | 00:01:41,878 | Our message has spread digitally | Our message has spread digitally |
25 | 00:01:41,902 | 00:01:45,382 | all over the world. | all over the world. |
26 | 00:01:45,406 | 00:01:49,353 | And all that sounds great. | And all that sounds great. |
27 | 00:01:49,377 | 00:01:51,688 | And it is! | And it is! |
28 | 00:01:51,712 | 00:01:54,924 | It's an opportunity to do more, | It's an opportunity to do more, |
29 | 00:01:54,948 | 00:01:59,496 | to make a bigger impact. | to make a bigger impact. |
30 | 00:01:59,520 | 00:02:03,767 | But growth can be a distraction. | But growth can be a distraction. |
31 | 00:02:03,791 | 00:02:08,905 | It can distract you from the growth that really matters. | It can distract you from the growth that really matters. |
32 | 00:02:08,929 | 00:02:12,876 | The growth within. | The growth within. |
33 | 00:02:12,900 | 00:02:16,880 | You see, that is what I'm afraid is happening | You see, that is what I'm afraid is happening |
34 | 00:02:16,904 | 00:02:18,915 | here with us right now. | here with us right now. |
35 | 00:02:18,939 | 00:02:21,485 | All of us. | All of us. |
36 | 00:02:21,509 | 00:02:27,791 | So this is what I want you to share with everyone, okay? | So this is what I want you to share with everyone, okay? |
37 | 00:02:27,815 | 00:02:31,895 | Our new decree: | Our new decree: |
38 | 00:02:31,919 | 00:02:34,964 | Refinement. | Refinement. |
39 | 00:02:34,988 | 00:02:37,201 | At the beginning of next week, | At the beginning of next week, |
40 | 00:02:37,225 | 00:02:40,504 | each and every one of us, all of us, | each and every one of us, all of us, |
41 | 00:02:40,528 | 00:02:45,942 | are going to extract something harmful from our lives, | are going to extract something harmful from our lives, |
42 | 00:02:45,966 | 00:02:49,446 | and lay it before the light. | and lay it before the light. |
43 | 00:02:49,470 | 00:02:52,816 | I'm not talking about giving up gin in favor of vodka. | I'm not talking about giving up gin in favor of vodka. |
44 | 00:02:52,840 | 00:02:56,453 | I'm asking you to dig deep. | I'm asking you to dig deep. |
45 | 00:02:56,477 | 00:02:59,756 | What is in your life that just doesn't need to be? | What is in your life that just doesn't need to be? |
46 | 00:02:59,780 | 00:03:01,925 | That should not be? | That should not be? |
47 | 00:03:01,949 | 00:03:06,796 | It could be a thing, a habit, a relationship. | It could be a thing, a habit, a relationship. |
48 | 00:03:06,820 | 00:03:09,866 | Look, you are all here because you are the ones | Look, you are all here because you are the ones |
49 | 00:03:09,890 | 00:03:15,872 | that everyone here looks up to, okay? | that everyone here looks up to, okay? |
50 | 00:03:15,896 | 00:03:19,443 | So I need you to get the word out. | So I need you to get the word out. |
51 | 00:03:19,467 | 00:03:22,946 | Lead by example. | Lead by example. |
52 | 00:03:22,970 | 00:03:27,684 | Okay? Dig deep. | Okay? Dig deep. |
53 | 00:03:27,708 | 00:03:31,721 | Because I am telling you if we do this, | Because I am telling you if we do this, |
54 | 00:03:31,745 | 00:03:35,459 | The Light will shine so bright | The Light will shine so bright |
55 | 00:03:35,483 | 00:03:39,829 | that not a soul can deny it. | that not a soul can deny it. |
56 | 00:03:39,853 | 00:03:43,667 | And all of those who are lost | And all of those who are lost |
57 | 00:03:43,691 | 00:03:48,472 | will find their way back home. | will find their way back home. |
58 | 00:03:48,496 | 00:03:51,040 | Thank you all. | Thank you all. |
59 | 00:03:54,067 | 00:04:01,237 | ♪ | ♪ |
60 | 00:04:04,312 | 00:04:06,022 | - You definitely made your point. | - You definitely made your point. |
61 | 00:04:06,046 | 00:04:07,957 | - In a good way, or... - No, in the best way possible. | - In a good way, or... - No, in the best way possible. |
62 | 00:04:07,981 | 00:04:09,926 | They weren't just listening to you, they heard you. | They weren't just listening to you, they heard you. |
63 | 00:04:09,950 | 00:04:13,730 | - Yeah, well, you know, I'm convinced that we need this. | - Yeah, well, you know, I'm convinced that we need this. |
64 | 00:04:13,754 | 00:04:14,798 | - Well, message received. | - Well, message received. |
65 | 00:04:14,822 | 00:04:16,733 | Seriously. | Seriously. |
66 | 00:04:16,757 | 00:04:21,305 | Bold action will recalibrate, unify our membership. | Bold action will recalibrate, unify our membership. |
67 | 00:04:21,329 | 00:04:23,873 | - It felt good, it feels right. | - It felt good, it feels right. |
68 | 00:04:23,897 | 00:04:25,809 | They'll get the message out to the membership. | They'll get the message out to the membership. |
69 | 00:04:25,833 | 00:04:30,714 | - Yeah, they will. We will. | - Yeah, they will. We will. |
70 | 00:04:30,738 | 00:04:33,783 | I couldn't help notice, um... | I couldn't help notice, um... |
71 | 00:04:33,807 | 00:04:36,637 | Sarah wasn't... wasn't there. | Sarah wasn't... wasn't there. |
72 | 00:04:38,011 | 00:04:42,826 | - Yeah, um... Sarah. | - Yeah, um... Sarah. |
73 | 00:04:42,850 | 00:04:45,829 | She is on her own personal journey right now. | She is on her own personal journey right now. |
74 | 00:04:45,853 | 00:04:49,766 | I don't know why or where, or if it's even personal, but... | I don't know why or where, or if it's even personal, but... |
75 | 00:04:49,790 | 00:04:51,901 | You know, I just don't have time to think about it. | You know, I just don't have time to think about it. |
76 | 00:04:51,925 | 00:04:54,738 | You know? About her. | You know? About her. |
77 | 00:04:54,762 | 00:04:56,873 | Look she... | Look she... |
78 | 00:04:56,897 | 00:04:59,543 | "The Yellow Birch Inn," this is all she left me | "The Yellow Birch Inn," this is all she left me |
79 | 00:04:59,567 | 00:05:03,647 | in case of emergency with the kids. | in case of emergency with the kids. |
80 | 00:05:08,942 | 00:05:11,788 | - Look... if there's anything you need... | - Look... if there's anything you need... |
81 | 00:05:11,812 | 00:05:14,023 | - It'll work itself out one way or another, | - It'll work itself out one way or another, |
82 | 00:05:14,047 | 00:05:18,061 | but thank you though. | but thank you though. |
83 | 00:05:18,085 | 00:05:19,963 | Hey, what are you guys doing tonight? | Hey, what are you guys doing tonight? |
84 | 00:05:19,987 | 00:05:22,366 | If you're free, you want to come to my house, | If you're free, you want to come to my house, |
85 | 00:05:22,390 | 00:05:23,733 | have a family dinner with us? | have a family dinner with us? |
86 | 00:05:23,757 | 00:05:25,669 | - Yeah. Yeah, that'd be great. | - Yeah. Yeah, that'd be great. |
87 | 00:05:25,693 | 00:05:28,137 | - Great. 7:00? - Yeah. | - Great. 7:00? - Yeah. |
88 | 00:05:28,161 | 00:05:29,831 | - All right. | - All right. |
89 | 00:05:33,601 | 00:05:35,379 | Hey. | Hey. |
90 | 00:05:35,403 | 00:05:36,946 | - I'll be out of here in just a moment. | - I'll be out of here in just a moment. |
91 | 00:05:36,970 | 00:05:39,383 | Just had a few things of mine to collect. | Just had a few things of mine to collect. |
92 | 00:05:39,407 | 00:05:44,688 | - Look, I'm not trying to rush you, I just... | - Look, I'm not trying to rush you, I just... |
93 | 00:05:44,712 | 00:05:48,157 | I just never got a chance to apologize. | I just never got a chance to apologize. |
94 | 00:05:48,181 | 00:05:52,696 | And I wish things could've gone down differently. | And I wish things could've gone down differently. |
95 | 00:05:52,720 | 00:05:54,398 | - Don't be silly, it's, um... | - Don't be silly, it's, um... |
96 | 00:05:54,422 | 00:05:56,065 | It's just the business. | It's just the business. |
97 | 00:05:56,089 | 00:05:57,767 | It's not meant to be nice. | It's not meant to be nice. |
98 | 00:05:57,791 | 00:06:00,404 | - You are incredible at what you do. | - You are incredible at what you do. |
99 | 00:06:00,428 | 00:06:02,639 | - I really don't need a bunch of smoke blown... | - I really don't need a bunch of smoke blown... |
100 | 00:06:02,663 | 00:06:04,841 | - I mean... I mean this. | - I mean... I mean this. |
101 | 00:06:04,865 | 00:06:06,776 | You are a visionary. | You are a visionary. |
102 | 00:06:06,800 | 00:06:08,712 | You've helped us grow. | You've helped us grow. |
103 | 00:06:08,736 | 00:06:12,015 | You took us to that next level, and, Vera, | You took us to that next level, and, Vera, |
104 | 00:06:12,039 | 00:06:15,752 | I'm incredibly grateful for that. | I'm incredibly grateful for that. |
105 | 00:06:15,776 | 00:06:18,688 | I've just come to realize that your outlook, | I've just come to realize that your outlook, |
106 | 00:06:18,712 | 00:06:23,827 | your entire secular approach is just not a match for us, | your entire secular approach is just not a match for us, |
107 | 00:06:23,851 | 00:06:26,195 | for Meyerism. | for Meyerism. |
108 | 00:06:26,219 | 00:06:28,164 | - Yeah, I um... | - Yeah, I um... |
109 | 00:06:28,188 | 00:06:32,669 | I think you're right about that. | I think you're right about that. |
110 | 00:06:32,693 | 00:06:34,763 | More than you know. | More than you know. |
111 | 00:06:42,736 | 00:06:44,147 | Oh my God, you have to see this. | Oh my God, you have to see this. |
112 | 00:06:44,171 | 00:06:45,715 | This is amazing. | This is amazing. |
113 | 00:06:45,739 | 00:06:47,451 | - If it's another video, I don't... | - If it's another video, I don't... |
114 | 00:06:47,475 | 00:06:49,185 | No, it's an e-mail from JP, | No, it's an e-mail from JP, |
115 | 00:06:49,209 | 00:06:52,021 | and he says that he owes us a great debt of gratitude | and he says that he owes us a great debt of gratitude |
116 | 00:06:52,045 | 00:06:54,875 | for your wisdom and insight. | for your wisdom and insight. |
117 | 00:06:56,717 | 00:06:58,194 | - That's very kind of him. | - That's very kind of him. |
118 | 00:06:58,218 | 00:06:59,996 | - Yeah, and he says that we should be receiving soon | - Yeah, and he says that we should be receiving soon |
119 | 00:07:00,020 | 00:07:01,465 | a token of his esteem. | a token of his esteem. |
120 | 00:07:01,489 | 00:07:03,467 | What do you think it is? | What do you think it is? |
121 | 00:07:03,491 | 00:07:05,935 | - Whatever it is, we need to be discreet about it. | - Whatever it is, we need to be discreet about it. |
122 | 00:07:05,959 | 00:07:08,071 | Eddie's showing me a lot of trust these days, | Eddie's showing me a lot of trust these days, |
123 | 00:07:08,095 | 00:07:10,974 | and cultivating my own patrons could threaten that... | and cultivating my own patrons could threaten that... |
124 | 00:07:10,998 | 00:07:14,210 | - I don't know about Eddie's trust. | - I don't know about Eddie's trust. |
125 | 00:07:14,234 | 00:07:16,179 | - He invited us to this dinner. | - He invited us to this dinner. |
126 | 00:07:16,203 | 00:07:18,982 | It's symbolic, I know... - Yeah, dinner at the Lane's. | It's symbolic, I know... - Yeah, dinner at the Lane's. |
127 | 00:07:19,006 | 00:07:21,785 | We've finally arrived. | We've finally arrived. |
128 | 00:07:21,809 | 00:07:23,953 | Maybe they're just looking to fill some chairs. | Maybe they're just looking to fill some chairs. |
129 | 00:07:23,977 | 00:07:26,122 | Vera's gone. Sarah wasn't around today. | Vera's gone. Sarah wasn't around today. |
130 | 00:07:26,146 | 00:07:28,216 | Did you notice that? | Did you notice that? |
131 | 00:07:31,885 | 00:07:34,030 | "Yellow Birch Inn." - Uh-huh. | "Yellow Birch Inn." - Uh-huh. |
132 | 00:07:34,054 | 00:07:36,800 | It's where Sarah is with, well... | It's where Sarah is with, well... |
133 | 00:07:36,824 | 00:07:38,935 | Whoever she is with. | Whoever she is with. |
134 | 00:07:38,959 | 00:07:40,937 | He pretended it didn't bother him, but... | He pretended it didn't bother him, but... |
135 | 00:07:42,830 | 00:07:45,208 | - "A bucolic bed and breakfast in the Amish country | - "A bucolic bed and breakfast in the Amish country |
136 | 00:07:45,232 | 00:07:47,076 | "well-regarded by bird lovers | "well-regarded by bird lovers |
137 | 00:07:47,100 | 00:07:50,680 | and those looking for a romantic escape." | and those looking for a romantic escape." |
138 | 00:07:50,704 | 00:07:53,774 | - Uh-huh. | - Uh-huh. |
139 | 00:07:55,242 | 00:07:57,086 | So this guy that we're driving | So this guy that we're driving |
140 | 00:07:57,110 | 00:07:59,222 | - to Pennsylvania to find now... - John Kordjak. | - to Pennsylvania to find now... - John Kordjak. |
141 | 00:07:59,246 | 00:08:01,791 | Yeah, him. | Yeah, him. |
142 | 00:08:01,815 | 00:08:03,827 | You saw his name in one of Lilith's journals? That's all? | You saw his name in one of Lilith's journals? That's all? |
143 | 00:08:03,851 | 00:08:06,162 | - I know how it sounds. - Oh, I don't think you do. | - I know how it sounds. - Oh, I don't think you do. |
144 | 00:08:06,186 | 00:08:07,897 | - You think I'm on a wild goose chase. | - You think I'm on a wild goose chase. |
145 | 00:08:07,921 | 00:08:09,966 | - No, I'm not. I don't. I'm with you. | - No, I'm not. I don't. I'm with you. |
146 | 00:08:09,990 | 00:08:11,735 | I just need a little guidance, | I just need a little guidance, |
147 | 00:08:11,759 | 00:08:15,271 | like a GPS to the inside of your brain. | like a GPS to the inside of your brain. |
148 | 00:08:15,295 | 00:08:17,807 | - I saw his name on the diaries | - I saw his name on the diaries |
149 | 00:08:17,831 | 00:08:19,709 | that Steve and Lilith were working on together. | that Steve and Lilith were working on together. |
150 | 00:08:19,733 | 00:08:23,847 | And it just spoke to me, so... - The name? It spoke? | And it just spoke to me, so... - The name? It spoke? |
151 | 00:08:23,871 | 00:08:26,082 | - See, now it doesn't sound like you're with me. | - See, now it doesn't sound like you're with me. |
152 | 00:08:26,106 | 00:08:28,117 | - I am. I am, I swear. | - I am. I am, I swear. |
153 | 00:08:28,141 | 00:08:31,020 | - It resonated, and somehow I feel like he's got the answers | - It resonated, and somehow I feel like he's got the answers |
154 | 00:08:31,044 | 00:08:33,256 | that I'm looking for, so I looked him up. | that I'm looking for, so I looked him up. |
155 | 00:08:33,280 | 00:08:34,958 | And he works at a hospital nearby, so... | And he works at a hospital nearby, so... |
156 | 00:08:34,982 | 00:08:36,259 | - Oh. | - Oh. |
157 | 00:08:36,283 | 00:08:38,094 | - I'll never be right. | - I'll never be right. |
158 | 00:08:38,118 | 00:08:42,832 | - What? I'm breathing. I needed to breathe. | - What? I'm breathing. I needed to breathe. |
159 | 00:08:42,856 | 00:08:44,067 | I'm here, aren't I? | I'm here, aren't I? |
160 | 00:08:44,091 | 00:08:45,802 | Can I get some credit for that? | Can I get some credit for that? |
161 | 00:08:45,826 | 00:08:47,003 | - Yes, I'm glad you're here. Thank you. | - Yes, I'm glad you're here. Thank you. |
162 | 00:08:47,027 | 00:08:48,271 | - I'm really glad you asked me. | - I'm really glad you asked me. |
163 | 00:08:48,295 | 00:08:50,974 | I wasn't sure I'd hear from you. | I wasn't sure I'd hear from you. |
164 | 00:08:50,998 | 00:08:52,275 | I mean a trip to France with your ex? | I mean a trip to France with your ex? |
165 | 00:08:52,299 | 00:08:54,043 | That's not the greatest sign. | That's not the greatest sign. |
166 | 00:08:54,067 | 00:08:58,047 | - That was work, all right? That's all. | - That was work, all right? That's all. |
167 | 00:08:58,071 | 00:09:01,017 | - Thank you. | - Thank you. |
168 | 00:09:01,041 | 00:09:03,753 | - Come back. | - Come back. |
169 | 00:09:03,777 | 00:09:06,847 | Push forward. | Push forward. |
170 | 00:09:09,149 | 00:09:12,829 | Come back, breathing in. | Come back, breathing in. |
171 | 00:09:12,853 | 00:09:16,900 | Push forward. | Push forward. |
172 | 00:09:16,924 | 00:09:21,170 | Now turn to center, keeping your knees bent. | Now turn to center, keeping your knees bent. |
173 | 00:09:21,194 | 00:09:24,264 | Turn all the way. | Turn all the way. |
174 | 00:09:29,402 | 00:09:33,817 | Turn, turn, turn. - There's John. | Turn, turn, turn. - There's John. |
175 | 00:09:33,841 | 00:09:36,352 | - And push forward. | - And push forward. |
176 | 00:09:39,379 | 00:09:46,930 | ♪ | ♪ |
177 | 00:09:46,954 | 00:09:49,866 | Come back. | Come back. |
178 | 00:09:49,890 | 00:09:52,290 | Push forward. | Push forward. |
179 | 00:09:57,931 | 00:09:59,342 | - How did you find me? | - How did you find me? |
180 | 00:09:59,366 | 00:10:01,344 | - Well, you didn't make it that difficult. | - Well, you didn't make it that difficult. |
181 | 00:10:01,368 | 00:10:03,079 | You're living under your name you had | You're living under your name you had |
182 | 00:10:03,103 | 00:10:06,950 | before you joined the Movement. | before you joined the Movement. |
183 | 00:10:06,974 | 00:10:09,986 | - I wasn't trying to hide, | - I wasn't trying to hide, |
184 | 00:10:10,010 | 00:10:13,089 | just return to myself. | just return to myself. |
185 | 00:10:13,113 | 00:10:16,323 | The individual I lost when I joined the many. | The individual I lost when I joined the many. |
186 | 00:10:18,385 | 00:10:21,665 | - There's someone I want to learn more about. | - There's someone I want to learn more about. |
187 | 00:10:21,689 | 00:10:23,933 | Someone from the early days of the Movement. | Someone from the early days of the Movement. |
188 | 00:10:23,957 | 00:10:26,002 | Her name is Lilith. | Her name is Lilith. |
189 | 00:10:26,026 | 00:10:30,206 | A patient of Steve's. You know her. | A patient of Steve's. You know her. |
190 | 00:10:30,230 | 00:10:31,975 | Anything that you can tell me about her | Anything that you can tell me about her |
191 | 00:10:31,999 | 00:10:35,069 | would be very helpful. | would be very helpful. |
192 | 00:10:38,405 | 00:10:40,684 | - These kids... | - These kids... |
193 | 00:10:40,708 | 00:10:44,220 | They're the poor people of our big, prosperous country. | They're the poor people of our big, prosperous country. |
194 | 00:10:44,244 | 00:10:47,423 | We ship them off to fight our wars, and they end up here. | We ship them off to fight our wars, and they end up here. |
195 | 00:10:47,447 | 00:10:49,158 | Broken. | Broken. |
196 | 00:10:49,182 | 00:10:51,327 | Forgotten. | Forgotten. |
197 | 00:10:51,351 | 00:10:54,397 | I came here to be of service to them. | I came here to be of service to them. |
198 | 00:10:54,421 | 00:10:56,399 | And every day that I'm here, caring for them, | And every day that I'm here, caring for them, |
199 | 00:10:56,423 | 00:11:01,404 | being with them, I know I'm doing good. | being with them, I know I'm doing good. |
200 | 00:11:01,428 | 00:11:04,107 | Sarah, so much of my life was wasted | Sarah, so much of my life was wasted |
201 | 00:11:04,131 | 00:11:07,143 | worshipping someone who turned out to be nothing but a man | worshipping someone who turned out to be nothing but a man |
202 | 00:11:07,167 | 00:11:09,412 | as mortal and as flawed as any of us. | as mortal and as flawed as any of us. |
203 | 00:11:09,436 | 00:11:11,414 | - You really think it was all a waste? | - You really think it was all a waste? |
204 | 00:11:11,438 | 00:11:14,017 | - Don't ask me to go back to those days, Sarah. | - Don't ask me to go back to those days, Sarah. |
205 | 00:11:14,041 | 00:11:16,119 | It's too painful! | It's too painful! |
206 | 00:11:16,143 | 00:11:17,453 | I'm not just here trying to help them, | I'm not just here trying to help them, |
207 | 00:11:17,477 | 00:11:19,222 | I'm trying to heal myself. | I'm trying to heal myself. |
208 | 00:11:19,246 | 00:11:23,159 | I don't want to open up any old wounds. | I don't want to open up any old wounds. |
209 | 00:11:23,183 | 00:11:27,296 | I'm sorry. I can't help you. | I'm sorry. I can't help you. |
210 | 00:11:27,320 | 00:11:30,390 | - I don't know if you heard, but my father passed. | - I don't know if you heard, but my father passed. |
211 | 00:11:36,229 | 00:11:39,175 | - I am so sorry to hear that. | - I am so sorry to hear that. |
212 | 00:11:39,199 | 00:11:42,178 | Hank was one of the good ones. | Hank was one of the good ones. |
213 | 00:11:45,205 | 00:11:52,245 | ♪ | ♪ |
214 | 00:11:54,147 | 00:11:57,217 | May his memory be for a blessing. | May his memory be for a blessing. |
215 | 00:12:01,521 | 00:12:05,501 | And give my regards to your mom. | And give my regards to your mom. |
216 | 00:12:05,525 | 00:12:08,271 | - I'm staying nearby. | - I'm staying nearby. |
217 | 00:12:08,295 | 00:12:10,725 | The Yellow Birch Inn, if you change your mind. | The Yellow Birch Inn, if you change your mind. |
218 | 00:12:27,080 | 00:12:28,457 | - Remy? | - Remy? |
219 | 00:12:28,481 | 00:12:31,094 | Hi. | Hi. |
220 | 00:12:31,118 | 00:12:32,495 | Sorry, it's just, um... | Sorry, it's just, um... |
221 | 00:12:32,519 | 00:12:34,463 | Didn't know where else to... | Didn't know where else to... |
222 | 00:12:34,487 | 00:12:36,499 | I mean, four years of marriage, you never once missed | I mean, four years of marriage, you never once missed |
223 | 00:12:36,523 | 00:12:39,568 | Vinyasa Flow with Bianca. | Vinyasa Flow with Bianca. |
224 | 00:12:39,592 | 00:12:42,005 | - What can I do for you, Vera? | - What can I do for you, Vera? |
225 | 00:12:42,029 | 00:12:43,539 | - It's about my mother. | - It's about my mother. |
226 | 00:12:43,563 | 00:12:47,043 | - Of course it is. | - Of course it is. |
227 | 00:12:47,067 | 00:12:49,578 | You can buy me a juice. | You can buy me a juice. |
228 | 00:12:49,602 | 00:12:52,281 | She burned you? | She burned you? |
229 | 00:12:52,305 | 00:12:54,117 | - The scar on my back. | - The scar on my back. |
230 | 00:12:54,141 | 00:12:56,085 | - You said you got that from a car accident | - You said you got that from a car accident |
231 | 00:12:56,109 | 00:12:57,186 | before you could remember. | before you could remember. |
232 | 00:12:57,210 | 00:12:59,188 | - That's what she told me. | - That's what she told me. |
233 | 00:12:59,212 | 00:13:02,258 | I know you always thought we had an unhealthy relationship. | I know you always thought we had an unhealthy relationship. |
234 | 00:13:04,317 | 00:13:07,496 | - But there's a big difference between unhealthy | - But there's a big difference between unhealthy |
235 | 00:13:07,520 | 00:13:11,260 | and my mother being genuinely... - Crazy. | and my mother being genuinely... - Crazy. |
236 | 00:13:12,592 | 00:13:15,338 | How long has it been since you talked to her? | How long has it been since you talked to her? |
237 | 00:13:15,362 | 00:13:18,041 | - It's not about how long. | - It's not about how long. |
238 | 00:13:18,065 | 00:13:22,478 | - So it's only been what? A week? A few days? | - So it's only been what? A week? A few days? |
239 | 00:13:22,502 | 00:13:24,413 | This is what you do, Vera. | This is what you do, Vera. |
240 | 00:13:24,437 | 00:13:26,515 | This is why we never really had a marriage. | This is why we never really had a marriage. |
241 | 00:13:26,539 | 00:13:29,118 | You vow to cut her out of your life, | You vow to cut her out of your life, |
242 | 00:13:29,142 | 00:13:30,453 | and that lasts maybe a month before... | and that lasts maybe a month before... |
243 | 00:13:30,477 | 00:13:32,321 | - Remy. | - Remy. |
244 | 00:13:32,345 | 00:13:35,258 | - I can't be a part of the codependent addiction | - I can't be a part of the codependent addiction |
245 | 00:13:35,282 | 00:13:37,160 | you two have to each other. | you two have to each other. |
246 | 00:13:37,184 | 00:13:42,065 | It took me a long time to get over you. | It took me a long time to get over you. |
247 | 00:13:42,089 | 00:13:45,159 | Yeah, I'm seeing someone. | Yeah, I'm seeing someone. |
248 | 00:13:48,495 | 00:13:50,573 | - That's great. - It is. She's great. | - That's great. - It is. She's great. |
249 | 00:13:50,597 | 00:13:54,310 | We're not living together or anything, but it's great. | We're not living together or anything, but it's great. |
250 | 00:13:54,334 | 00:13:56,145 | You know, it's easy. | You know, it's easy. |
251 | 00:13:56,169 | 00:13:57,480 | - So what? | - So what? |
252 | 00:13:57,504 | 00:14:01,350 | It's an Internet date or something? | It's an Internet date or something? |
253 | 00:14:01,374 | 00:14:03,386 | - That doesn't make it any less real. | - That doesn't make it any less real. |
254 | 00:14:03,410 | 00:14:05,388 | You have to meet somehow. | You have to meet somehow. |
255 | 00:14:05,412 | 00:14:07,256 | - That's... Oh, okay. Yes, that's true. | - That's... Oh, okay. Yes, that's true. |
256 | 00:14:07,280 | 00:14:10,159 | That's true, the city has so many people, | That's true, the city has so many people, |
257 | 00:14:10,183 | 00:14:12,428 | you know, to find someone, | you know, to find someone, |
258 | 00:14:12,452 | 00:14:16,332 | anyone you can genuinely connect with, that's... | anyone you can genuinely connect with, that's... |
259 | 00:14:16,356 | 00:14:19,168 | That feels like a miracle. | That feels like a miracle. |
260 | 00:14:19,192 | 00:14:22,671 | - So what about you? Do you have someone? | - So what about you? Do you have someone? |
261 | 00:14:22,695 | 00:14:27,576 | - I thought maybe, but apparently he doesn't feel | - I thought maybe, but apparently he doesn't feel |
262 | 00:14:27,600 | 00:14:30,146 | the same way about me. | the same way about me. |
263 | 00:14:30,170 | 00:14:31,580 | - Well, he sounds like an idiot. | - Well, he sounds like an idiot. |
264 | 00:14:37,310 | 00:14:40,456 | And blessings to our beloved Hank, | And blessings to our beloved Hank, |
265 | 00:14:40,480 | 00:14:43,927 | whom death has temporarily separated from us. | whom death has temporarily separated from us. |
266 | 00:14:43,951 | 00:14:49,632 | And for Sarah, as she embarks on a personal journey. | And for Sarah, as she embarks on a personal journey. |
267 | 00:14:49,656 | 00:14:51,300 | Please illuminate her path. | Please illuminate her path. |
268 | 00:14:51,324 | 00:14:54,337 | - We pray before and after meals now? | - We pray before and after meals now? |
269 | 00:14:54,361 | 00:14:56,539 | - We pray whenever we need to pray. | - We pray whenever we need to pray. |
270 | 00:14:56,563 | 00:14:58,641 | - I'll wrap it up. | - I'll wrap it up. |
271 | 00:14:58,665 | 00:15:01,377 | - No, go ahead, Gabby. - No, she's right. | - No, go ahead, Gabby. - No, she's right. |
272 | 00:15:01,401 | 00:15:05,114 | The last thing Hank would want is for us to postpone pie time. | The last thing Hank would want is for us to postpone pie time. |
273 | 00:15:06,673 | 00:15:08,551 | - I'm actually gonna head back into the city tonight. | - I'm actually gonna head back into the city tonight. |
274 | 00:15:08,575 | 00:15:10,653 | Really? Already? | Really? Already? |
275 | 00:15:10,677 | 00:15:13,156 | - Yeah, um... | - Yeah, um... |
276 | 00:15:13,180 | 00:15:15,724 | The people at the center are having trouble figuring out | The people at the center are having trouble figuring out |
277 | 00:15:15,748 | 00:15:17,526 | what they're going to sacrifice for Refinement, | what they're going to sacrifice for Refinement, |
278 | 00:15:17,550 | 00:15:21,597 | so I said I'd help them out. | so I said I'd help them out. |
279 | 00:15:21,621 | 00:15:23,532 | - That's very kind of you. | - That's very kind of you. |
280 | 00:15:23,556 | 00:15:25,401 | But don't you think it's best | But don't you think it's best |
281 | 00:15:25,425 | 00:15:27,603 | if they come to those decisions on their own? | if they come to those decisions on their own? |
282 | 00:15:29,629 | 00:15:34,343 | Yeah, I know, but some of them haven't done this before. | Yeah, I know, but some of them haven't done this before. |
283 | 00:15:34,367 | 00:15:37,180 | So I said I'd guide them a bit. | So I said I'd guide them a bit. |
284 | 00:15:37,204 | 00:15:38,647 | - I did too. - What? | - I did too. - What? |
285 | 00:15:38,671 | 00:15:40,283 | - I said I'd help some people out too. | - I said I'd help some people out too. |
286 | 00:15:40,307 | 00:15:42,451 | - Well, you kids are so giving. | - Well, you kids are so giving. |
287 | 00:15:42,475 | 00:15:44,253 | - It's true. | - It's true. |
288 | 00:15:44,277 | 00:15:47,756 | - Okay, well, drive safe. | - Okay, well, drive safe. |
289 | 00:15:47,780 | 00:15:49,492 | Have a good talk. | Have a good talk. |
290 | 00:15:49,516 | 00:15:50,693 | - Sure. - Pie time! | - Sure. - Pie time! |
291 | 00:15:50,717 | 00:15:52,428 | - Yeah! | - Yeah! |
292 | 00:15:52,452 | 00:15:54,998 | - Pie is the one thing you cannot make me | - Pie is the one thing you cannot make me |
293 | 00:15:55,022 | 00:15:57,366 | give up for Refinement, Eddie, okay? | give up for Refinement, Eddie, okay? |
294 | 00:15:57,390 | 00:15:58,767 | - How often are you gonna come up | - How often are you gonna come up |
295 | 00:15:58,791 | 00:16:01,270 | with these new decrees, by the way? | with these new decrees, by the way? |
296 | 00:16:01,294 | 00:16:03,306 | Oh, Russel, not now. I'm tired. | Oh, Russel, not now. I'm tired. |
297 | 00:16:03,330 | 00:16:05,708 | - Every month? Every week? | - Every month? Every week? |
298 | 00:16:05,732 | 00:16:07,376 | - Russel. | - Russel. |
299 | 00:16:07,400 | 00:16:09,412 | - The decrees help us. - It's true. | - The decrees help us. - It's true. |
300 | 00:16:09,436 | 00:16:14,317 | The Movement needed a reset, and this is how we're doing it. | The Movement needed a reset, and this is how we're doing it. |
301 | 00:16:14,341 | 00:16:16,219 | - And Sarah? | - And Sarah? |
302 | 00:16:16,243 | 00:16:18,254 | Is this how she's doing that? How she's resetting? | Is this how she's doing that? How she's resetting? |
303 | 00:16:18,278 | 00:16:21,724 | Running around like she doesn't have a daughter to raise? | Running around like she doesn't have a daughter to raise? |
304 | 00:16:21,748 | 00:16:24,327 | I don't know what you've heard, but the Novices are talking. | I don't know what you've heard, but the Novices are talking. |
305 | 00:16:24,351 | 00:16:27,391 | The rumor is she disagrees with the way you're running things. | The rumor is she disagrees with the way you're running things. |
306 | 00:16:30,423 | 00:16:32,668 | - You know what? | - You know what? |
307 | 00:16:32,692 | 00:16:36,339 | Why don't you focus on your own work, Russel? | Why don't you focus on your own work, Russel? |
308 | 00:16:36,363 | 00:16:40,276 | As far as I can tell, you have plenty of it. | As far as I can tell, you have plenty of it. |
309 | 00:16:42,502 | 00:16:44,280 | ♪ | ♪ |
310 | 00:16:44,304 | 00:16:46,582 | - Eddie, would you like some pie? | - Eddie, would you like some pie? |
311 | 00:16:46,606 | 00:16:49,652 | I know Cal does. | I know Cal does. |
312 | 00:16:49,676 | 00:16:53,289 | - That would be great, Mary. Thank you. | - That would be great, Mary. Thank you. |
313 | 00:16:53,313 | 00:16:54,723 | - ♪ No, it's not your imagination ♪ | - ♪ No, it's not your imagination ♪ |
314 | 00:16:54,747 | 00:16:56,792 | ♪ All this ain't no hallucination ♪ | ♪ All this ain't no hallucination ♪ |
315 | 00:16:56,816 | 00:16:58,527 | ♪ Not a dream or an illusion, see ♪ | ♪ Not a dream or an illusion, see ♪ |
316 | 00:16:58,551 | 00:17:00,496 | ♪ Like Buff Monster or Alex Pardee ♪ | ♪ Like Buff Monster or Alex Pardee ♪ |
317 | 00:17:00,520 | 00:17:02,431 | ♪ I'm the vision that you want to be ♪ | ♪ I'm the vision that you want to be ♪ |
318 | 00:17:02,455 | 00:17:04,600 | ♪ That's why all you all bitches so into me ♪ | ♪ That's why all you all bitches so into me ♪ |
319 | 00:17:04,624 | 00:17:06,502 | ♪ Hands up for your favorite freak ♪ | ♪ Hands up for your favorite freak ♪ |
320 | 00:17:06,526 | 00:17:08,371 | - Hey, guys. Sorry I'm late. | - Hey, guys. Sorry I'm late. |
321 | 00:17:08,395 | 00:17:10,373 | My dad was like all over me tonight. | My dad was like all over me tonight. |
322 | 00:17:10,397 | 00:17:12,741 | I feel like he can, like, sense something, you know? | I feel like he can, like, sense something, you know? |
323 | 00:17:12,765 | 00:17:14,577 | I had to make up this crazy story | I had to make up this crazy story |
324 | 00:17:14,601 | 00:17:16,612 | about helping some girl out with her Bible study. | about helping some girl out with her Bible study. |
325 | 00:17:16,636 | 00:17:19,315 | - Well, hopefully you're a better liar than Hawk. | - Well, hopefully you're a better liar than Hawk. |
326 | 00:17:19,339 | 00:17:21,284 | - I was not lying. - Oh, please. | - I was not lying. - Oh, please. |
327 | 00:17:21,308 | 00:17:22,785 | Even Grandma saw right through you. | Even Grandma saw right through you. |
328 | 00:17:22,809 | 00:17:24,853 | Like a wet T-shirt. | Like a wet T-shirt. |
329 | 00:17:24,877 | 00:17:26,622 | - That's a terrible reference. | - That's a terrible reference. |
330 | 00:17:26,646 | 00:17:29,825 | I was just creatively reinterpreting | I was just creatively reinterpreting |
331 | 00:17:29,849 | 00:17:31,660 | the whole Refinement thing. | the whole Refinement thing. |
332 | 00:17:31,684 | 00:17:33,396 | If my mom can take a personal journey... | If my mom can take a personal journey... |
333 | 00:17:33,420 | 00:17:35,564 | - Hey, you don't have to convince me, okay? | - Hey, you don't have to convince me, okay? |
334 | 00:17:35,588 | 00:17:38,301 | This is heaven! - Thanks, guys... | This is heaven! - Thanks, guys... |
335 | 00:17:38,325 | 00:17:41,304 | - I found it, and I never want to leave. | - I found it, and I never want to leave. |
336 | 00:17:41,328 | 00:17:43,539 | But I do have to pee. | But I do have to pee. |
337 | 00:17:43,563 | 00:17:45,341 | - Whoa, slow down, girl! | - Whoa, slow down, girl! |
338 | 00:17:45,365 | 00:17:47,676 | We don't do lines outside the bathrooms here. | We don't do lines outside the bathrooms here. |
339 | 00:17:47,700 | 00:17:50,679 | We do lines inside the bathrooms. | We do lines inside the bathrooms. |
340 | 00:17:50,703 | 00:17:52,715 | Right? | Right? |
341 | 00:17:52,739 | 00:17:54,450 | - You into this? | - You into this? |
342 | 00:17:54,474 | 00:17:57,753 | - I'm open. | - I'm open. |
343 | 00:17:57,777 | 00:17:59,555 | It's an experience. | It's an experience. |
344 | 00:17:59,579 | 00:18:01,724 | - Yeah, that it is. | - Yeah, that it is. |
345 | 00:18:01,748 | 00:18:03,892 | I'm just happy we don't have to be up closer, though. | I'm just happy we don't have to be up closer, though. |
346 | 00:18:03,916 | 00:18:06,795 | - And what is your name, sir? | - And what is your name, sir? |
347 | 00:18:06,819 | 00:18:08,631 | Hmm? | Hmm? |
348 | 00:18:08,655 | 00:18:12,568 | Won't tell me? Okay. | Won't tell me? Okay. |
349 | 00:18:12,592 | 00:18:15,804 | You know, you are just my type! | You know, you are just my type! |
350 | 00:18:15,828 | 00:18:17,373 | Closeted! | Closeted! |
351 | 00:18:19,499 | 00:18:22,478 | - Is that... - Yeah, yeah, that's Arnie. | - Is that... - Yeah, yeah, that's Arnie. |
352 | 00:18:22,502 | 00:18:24,547 | Wait, here's the move. We just... | Wait, here's the move. We just... |
353 | 00:18:24,571 | 00:18:25,781 | - Yeah, what does that mean? | - Yeah, what does that mean? |
354 | 00:18:25,805 | 00:18:27,750 | - You know what it means, just... | - You know what it means, just... |
355 | 00:18:27,774 | 00:18:29,885 | play it cool. | play it cool. |
356 | 00:18:29,909 | 00:18:31,654 | - Aww. | - Aww. |
357 | 00:18:31,678 | 00:18:33,556 | - Hello there, young men! | - Hello there, young men! |
358 | 00:18:33,580 | 00:18:36,859 | Enjoying a little cultural scenery? | Enjoying a little cultural scenery? |
359 | 00:18:36,883 | 00:18:39,562 | - You know, when you're in the city, | - You know, when you're in the city, |
360 | 00:18:39,586 | 00:18:42,898 | why not take in the more colorful sights? | why not take in the more colorful sights? |
361 | 00:18:42,922 | 00:18:45,734 | - Well, pray for them. - Yeah, don't pray for me. | - Well, pray for them. - Yeah, don't pray for me. |
362 | 00:18:45,758 | 00:18:47,503 | - Excuse me? | - Excuse me? |
363 | 00:18:47,527 | 00:18:48,904 | - We're here for the same reason you are. | - We're here for the same reason you are. |
364 | 00:18:48,928 | 00:18:53,809 | It's just that we're together. | It's just that we're together. |
365 | 00:18:53,833 | 00:18:55,744 | - I'm kidding. Believe me. | - I'm kidding. Believe me. |
366 | 00:18:59,772 | 00:19:04,653 | - Um... I'm... so sorry. | - Um... I'm... so sorry. |
367 | 00:19:04,677 | 00:19:06,889 | I just wasn't gonna stand here | I just wasn't gonna stand here |
368 | 00:19:06,913 | 00:19:09,625 | and pretend like I didn't know how he treated you. | and pretend like I didn't know how he treated you. |
369 | 00:19:09,649 | 00:19:14,697 | - No, I appreciated it, like a lot. | - No, I appreciated it, like a lot. |
370 | 00:19:14,721 | 00:19:17,791 | It's very heroic of you. | It's very heroic of you. |
371 | 00:19:22,962 | 00:19:25,508 | - Russel is a ticking bomb. | - Russel is a ticking bomb. |
372 | 00:19:25,532 | 00:19:26,875 | - It's hard to blame him. | - It's hard to blame him. |
373 | 00:19:26,899 | 00:19:29,878 | Russel's been passed over, cheated on. | Russel's been passed over, cheated on. |
374 | 00:19:29,902 | 00:19:31,914 | - Well, now I know why Eddie invited us. | - Well, now I know why Eddie invited us. |
375 | 00:19:31,938 | 00:19:33,982 | He didn't want to be alone with all that dysfunction. | He didn't want to be alone with all that dysfunction. |
376 | 00:19:34,006 | 00:19:35,684 | - I choose to think he's interested | - I choose to think he's interested |
377 | 00:19:35,708 | 00:19:37,820 | in getting closer to us as a family. | in getting closer to us as a family. |
378 | 00:19:37,844 | 00:19:40,914 | - Excuse me, Mr. Roberts? | - Excuse me, Mr. Roberts? |
379 | 00:19:44,917 | 00:19:48,931 | - "A token of my esteem. Yours in Light, Jean-Paul." | - "A token of my esteem. Yours in Light, Jean-Paul." |
380 | 00:19:48,955 | 00:19:50,833 | What am I signing for? - Oh. | What am I signing for? - Oh. |
381 | 00:19:53,860 | 00:20:00,930 | ♪ | ♪ |
382 | 00:20:05,572 | 00:20:08,642 | Oh, my God. | Oh, my God. |
383 | 00:20:21,754 | 00:20:23,699 | - We deserve this, don't you think? | - We deserve this, don't you think? |
384 | 00:20:23,723 | 00:20:25,934 | - I do. | - I do. |
385 | 00:20:25,958 | 00:20:29,472 | I'm not sure that anyone else would see it in the same way. | I'm not sure that anyone else would see it in the same way. |
386 | 00:20:29,496 | 00:20:31,440 | - I mean, it's payment. - I know. | - I mean, it's payment. - I know. |
387 | 00:20:31,464 | 00:20:32,841 | I'm not sure that anyone else would see it in the same... | I'm not sure that anyone else would see it in the same... |
388 | 00:20:32,865 | 00:20:34,610 | - And by anyone else, you mean Eddie. | - And by anyone else, you mean Eddie. |
389 | 00:20:34,634 | 00:20:38,614 | - Yeah, especially during this time of Refinement. | - Yeah, especially during this time of Refinement. |
390 | 00:20:38,638 | 00:20:41,984 | It's not exactly on message. | It's not exactly on message. |
391 | 00:20:42,008 | 00:20:43,852 | - Eddie could've won over JP, | - Eddie could've won over JP, |
392 | 00:20:43,876 | 00:20:46,722 | but he was distracted by his issues with Sarah. | but he was distracted by his issues with Sarah. |
393 | 00:20:46,746 | 00:20:48,591 | You had the foresight to see what he needed, | You had the foresight to see what he needed, |
394 | 00:20:48,615 | 00:20:51,294 | and you were rewarded for it. | and you were rewarded for it. |
395 | 00:20:51,318 | 00:20:53,696 | Our plan is working, okay? We're building our clients, | Our plan is working, okay? We're building our clients, |
396 | 00:20:53,720 | 00:20:56,031 | making connections, and this car is a sign. | making connections, and this car is a sign. |
397 | 00:20:56,055 | 00:20:57,666 | - Well, I just wish he'd send a sign | - Well, I just wish he'd send a sign |
398 | 00:20:57,690 | 00:20:59,902 | that was a little less visible. | that was a little less visible. |
399 | 00:20:59,926 | 00:21:01,537 | Eddie would punish us. | Eddie would punish us. |
400 | 00:21:01,561 | 00:21:03,306 | - Oh, not if he doesn't find out. | - Oh, not if he doesn't find out. |
401 | 00:21:03,330 | 00:21:05,808 | I mean, there must be a garage somewhere out of the way. | I mean, there must be a garage somewhere out of the way. |
402 | 00:21:05,832 | 00:21:07,743 | We can store it. | We can store it. |
403 | 00:21:07,767 | 00:21:09,778 | This is something for us, okay? | This is something for us, okay? |
404 | 00:21:09,802 | 00:21:13,582 | Think about how much we do for him. | Think about how much we do for him. |
405 | 00:21:13,606 | 00:21:15,851 | In fact, let's find out if Sarah is really | In fact, let's find out if Sarah is really |
406 | 00:21:15,875 | 00:21:17,953 | having a personal journey for him. | having a personal journey for him. |
407 | 00:21:23,115 | 00:21:24,760 | - Good afternoon, Yellow Birch Inn. | - Good afternoon, Yellow Birch Inn. |
408 | 00:21:24,784 | 00:21:27,663 | This is Liz. How can I help you today? | This is Liz. How can I help you today? |
409 | 00:21:27,687 | 00:21:30,599 | - Hi, Liz. My name is Nicole, and I was wondering | - Hi, Liz. My name is Nicole, and I was wondering |
410 | 00:21:30,623 | 00:21:32,668 | if you could help me on a secret mission. | if you could help me on a secret mission. |
411 | 00:21:32,692 | 00:21:34,837 | My sister Sarah Lane is staying with you at the Inn, I believe. | My sister Sarah Lane is staying with you at the Inn, I believe. |
412 | 00:21:34,861 | 00:21:36,705 | - Oh, I'm really not supposed to disclose | - Oh, I'm really not supposed to disclose |
413 | 00:21:36,729 | 00:21:38,341 | the names of our guests. | the names of our guests. |
414 | 00:21:38,365 | 00:21:39,908 | - Yeah, it's just that her and her fiancé, | - Yeah, it's just that her and her fiancé, |
415 | 00:21:39,932 | 00:21:41,677 | they just got engaged, | they just got engaged, |
416 | 00:21:41,701 | 00:21:43,546 | and I wanted to send them a secret gift. | and I wanted to send them a secret gift. |
417 | 00:21:43,570 | 00:21:44,947 | Will you let me know if they checked in already? | Will you let me know if they checked in already? |
418 | 00:21:44,971 | 00:21:49,352 | - Well, I shouldn't, but yes, they have. | - Well, I shouldn't, but yes, they have. |
419 | 00:21:49,376 | 00:21:52,906 | - Thank you so much. And remember, not a word! | - Thank you so much. And remember, not a word! |
420 | 00:21:55,081 | 00:21:58,126 | - Does feel good, doesn't it? | - Does feel good, doesn't it? |
421 | 00:22:02,822 | 00:22:05,668 | - I was doing some research, | - I was doing some research, |
422 | 00:22:05,692 | 00:22:07,035 | and it turns out that there are some | and it turns out that there are some |
423 | 00:22:07,059 | 00:22:09,938 | really interesting restaurants in the area. | really interesting restaurants in the area. |
424 | 00:22:09,962 | 00:22:12,875 | One of them even grows its own produce. | One of them even grows its own produce. |
425 | 00:22:12,899 | 00:22:17,613 | It's about an hour from here. - Sorry? | It's about an hour from here. - Sorry? |
426 | 00:22:17,637 | 00:22:19,748 | - I was talking about lunch, you know? | - I was talking about lunch, you know? |
427 | 00:22:19,772 | 00:22:25,120 | Leaving this place for sustenance of some kind. | Leaving this place for sustenance of some kind. |
428 | 00:22:25,144 | 00:22:29,392 | You've got to be hungry by now. - Not really. | You've got to be hungry by now. - Not really. |
429 | 00:22:29,416 | 00:22:31,627 | I'm gonna stay here, if you don't mind. You go. | I'm gonna stay here, if you don't mind. You go. |
430 | 00:22:31,651 | 00:22:33,629 | - You're just gonna sit there and wait? For how long? | - You're just gonna sit there and wait? For how long? |
431 | 00:22:33,653 | 00:22:36,765 | - However long it takes. | - However long it takes. |
432 | 00:22:36,789 | 00:22:41,169 | - Oh, look, I gotta say that I'm feeling... | - Oh, look, I gotta say that I'm feeling... |
433 | 00:22:41,193 | 00:22:43,105 | - What? | - What? |
434 | 00:22:43,129 | 00:22:44,840 | - Used. | - Used. |
435 | 00:22:44,864 | 00:22:46,809 | You didn't want to spend some time together, | You didn't want to spend some time together, |
436 | 00:22:46,833 | 00:22:48,844 | you just wanted a chaperone for this wild goose chase. | you just wanted a chaperone for this wild goose chase. |
437 | 00:22:48,868 | 00:22:50,846 | - No, I told you the reason why I wanted to come here. | - No, I told you the reason why I wanted to come here. |
438 | 00:22:50,870 | 00:22:53,649 | - He didn't talk to you. He said nothing. | - He didn't talk to you. He said nothing. |
439 | 00:22:53,673 | 00:22:55,150 | And you're just sitting here waiting! | And you're just sitting here waiting! |
440 | 00:22:55,174 | 00:22:57,953 | - Because he was shocked to see me. He will come. | - Because he was shocked to see me. He will come. |
441 | 00:22:57,977 | 00:22:59,588 | - How do you know? - Because I know. | - How do you know? - Because I know. |
442 | 00:22:59,612 | 00:23:01,089 | - Oh, well, there it is. - What? | - Oh, well, there it is. - What? |
443 | 00:23:01,113 | 00:23:03,992 | - Right there. Classic, incurable, terminal... | - Right there. Classic, incurable, terminal... |
444 | 00:23:04,016 | 00:23:06,929 | - What? | - What? |
445 | 00:23:06,953 | 00:23:10,023 | - Blind faith. | - Blind faith. |
446 | 00:23:16,896 | 00:23:18,741 | - What? Are you just packing up? | - What? Are you just packing up? |
447 | 00:23:18,765 | 00:23:20,976 | Just... | Just... |
448 | 00:23:21,000 | 00:23:25,648 | - You know, I got into this thing... whatever this is... | - You know, I got into this thing... whatever this is... |
449 | 00:23:25,672 | 00:23:28,150 | Because I believed that you were ready | Because I believed that you were ready |
450 | 00:23:28,174 | 00:23:32,120 | to leave this belief. | to leave this belief. |
451 | 00:23:32,144 | 00:23:35,458 | And I have been so patient, Sarah, | And I have been so patient, Sarah, |
452 | 00:23:35,482 | 00:23:37,159 | in letting you go through every step. | in letting you go through every step. |
453 | 00:23:37,183 | 00:23:39,828 | - Don't do this. - You're never gonna leave. | - Don't do this. - You're never gonna leave. |
454 | 00:23:39,852 | 00:23:42,631 | Especially not now. | Especially not now. |
455 | 00:23:42,655 | 00:23:45,725 | Not after your father's death. | Not after your father's death. |
456 | 00:23:47,259 | 00:23:51,907 | It's created a vacuum of loss | It's created a vacuum of loss |
457 | 00:23:51,931 | 00:23:54,176 | for them to fill with their narratives. | for them to fill with their narratives. |
458 | 00:23:54,200 | 00:23:56,244 | You're just going to replace one blind faith with another. | You're just going to replace one blind faith with another. |
459 | 00:23:56,268 | 00:23:58,146 | - You just think you have it all figured out, | - You just think you have it all figured out, |
460 | 00:23:58,170 | 00:24:00,916 | but you don't leave any room for the possibility of... | but you don't leave any room for the possibility of... |
461 | 00:24:00,940 | 00:24:03,218 | I don't know... something surprising or mysterious, | I don't know... something surprising or mysterious, |
462 | 00:24:03,242 | 00:24:05,988 | or maybe not having it make complete sense! | or maybe not having it make complete sense! |
463 | 00:24:06,012 | 00:24:07,823 | - No, there's a million things in the world | - No, there's a million things in the world |
464 | 00:24:07,847 | 00:24:09,157 | that don't make any sense, that are mysterious. | that don't make any sense, that are mysterious. |
465 | 00:24:09,181 | 00:24:11,126 | But you... | But you... |
466 | 00:24:11,150 | 00:24:14,129 | You're just going deeper, and deeper, and deeper, and... | You're just going deeper, and deeper, and deeper, and... |
467 | 00:24:14,153 | 00:24:19,802 | And I won't get sucked in, Sarah. | And I won't get sucked in, Sarah. |
468 | 00:24:19,826 | 00:24:22,738 | - I'm sorry. | - I'm sorry. |
469 | 00:24:22,762 | 00:24:24,807 | I have to pursue this. | I have to pursue this. |
470 | 00:24:27,834 | 00:24:31,880 | ♪ | ♪ |
471 | 00:24:36,943 | 00:24:38,821 | - Excuse me? | - Excuse me? |
472 | 00:24:38,845 | 00:24:40,856 | I was knocking there for a minute. | I was knocking there for a minute. |
473 | 00:24:40,880 | 00:24:43,191 | - Sorry, I was in pretty deep. | - Sorry, I was in pretty deep. |
474 | 00:24:43,215 | 00:24:47,029 | - I certainly do apologize for barging in on you like this, | - I certainly do apologize for barging in on you like this, |
475 | 00:24:47,053 | 00:24:49,231 | disturbing you in the act of prayer. | disturbing you in the act of prayer. |
476 | 00:24:49,255 | 00:24:51,099 | - That's right. | - That's right. |
477 | 00:24:51,123 | 00:24:53,068 | - I was told this is where I'd find Eddie Lane. | - I was told this is where I'd find Eddie Lane. |
478 | 00:24:53,092 | 00:24:55,838 | The man in charge around here. | The man in charge around here. |
479 | 00:24:55,862 | 00:24:57,706 | - Yeah. | - Yeah. |
480 | 00:24:57,730 | 00:25:00,208 | That's... that's me. | That's... that's me. |
481 | 00:25:00,232 | 00:25:02,811 | - I didn't expect to see you sitting on the floor. | - I didn't expect to see you sitting on the floor. |
482 | 00:25:02,835 | 00:25:05,113 | - Yeah, it helps me connect with the Earth. | - Yeah, it helps me connect with the Earth. |
483 | 00:25:05,137 | 00:25:06,248 | The center of everything. | The center of everything. |
484 | 00:25:06,272 | 00:25:07,916 | - How interesting. | - How interesting. |
485 | 00:25:07,940 | 00:25:10,218 | In my faith, we aim for the heavens. | In my faith, we aim for the heavens. |
486 | 00:25:10,242 | 00:25:13,121 | What's above us, not below. | What's above us, not below. |
487 | 00:25:13,145 | 00:25:15,023 | But to each his own. | But to each his own. |
488 | 00:25:15,047 | 00:25:18,260 | Reverend William Matthews of the Porter Mountain Church. | Reverend William Matthews of the Porter Mountain Church. |
489 | 00:25:18,284 | 00:25:20,996 | Folks there call me Pastor Billy. | Folks there call me Pastor Billy. |
490 | 00:25:21,020 | 00:25:22,865 | You're welcome to do the same. | You're welcome to do the same. |
491 | 00:25:22,889 | 00:25:24,567 | - Nice to meet you. | - Nice to meet you. |
492 | 00:25:24,591 | 00:25:26,101 | Is there something I can help you with? | Is there something I can help you with? |
493 | 00:25:26,125 | 00:25:28,070 | - I certainly hope so. | - I certainly hope so. |
494 | 00:25:28,094 | 00:25:30,272 | I'm here to talk to you about my son, Caleb, | I'm here to talk to you about my son, Caleb, |
495 | 00:25:30,296 | 00:25:32,140 | and your son, Hawk. | and your son, Hawk. |
496 | 00:25:32,164 | 00:25:34,777 | - Okay. What about him? | - Okay. What about him? |
497 | 00:25:34,801 | 00:25:39,214 | - I see I'm going to have to be the bearer of bad news. | - I see I'm going to have to be the bearer of bad news. |
498 | 00:25:39,238 | 00:25:43,018 | - Did they do something? - In a manner of speaking. | - Did they do something? - In a manner of speaking. |
499 | 00:25:43,042 | 00:25:44,352 | It's been brought to my attention | It's been brought to my attention |
500 | 00:25:44,376 | 00:25:46,855 | that their friendship is inappropriate. | that their friendship is inappropriate. |
501 | 00:25:46,879 | 00:25:49,057 | Now it is my hope that you and I, as men of God, | Now it is my hope that you and I, as men of God, |
502 | 00:25:49,081 | 00:25:52,094 | can come together and put a stop to it. | can come together and put a stop to it. |
503 | 00:25:52,118 | 00:25:55,030 | - I'm sorry, I'm not following. | - I'm sorry, I'm not following. |
504 | 00:25:55,054 | 00:25:58,166 | How is their friendship inappropriate? | How is their friendship inappropriate? |
505 | 00:25:58,190 | 00:26:00,202 | - I don't want you to think I'm like | - I don't want you to think I'm like |
506 | 00:26:00,226 | 00:26:03,171 | those crazy folks in Westboro, shouting death to homosexuals. | those crazy folks in Westboro, shouting death to homosexuals. |
507 | 00:26:03,195 | 00:26:04,873 | - Wait, did you just say... | - Wait, did you just say... |
508 | 00:26:04,897 | 00:26:07,175 | - At our church, we love the sinner. | - At our church, we love the sinner. |
509 | 00:26:07,199 | 00:26:09,912 | But we cannot condone the sin. | But we cannot condone the sin. |
510 | 00:26:09,936 | 00:26:11,313 | - Wait, wait. | - Wait, wait. |
511 | 00:26:11,337 | 00:26:16,018 | Are you saying that our sons are gay together? | Are you saying that our sons are gay together? |
512 | 00:26:16,042 | 00:26:20,155 | Look, Hawk isn't gay, okay? He would've told me. | Look, Hawk isn't gay, okay? He would've told me. |
513 | 00:26:20,179 | 00:26:21,924 | - I understand. | - I understand. |
514 | 00:26:21,948 | 00:26:24,292 | It's not easy to accept. Terrible. | It's not easy to accept. Terrible. |
515 | 00:26:24,316 | 00:26:26,228 | Take your time, and when you're ready, | Take your time, and when you're ready, |
516 | 00:26:26,252 | 00:26:27,963 | we can discuss what to do. | we can discuss what to do. |
517 | 00:26:27,987 | 00:26:31,366 | - No, this isn't terrible, it's just... | - No, this isn't terrible, it's just... |
518 | 00:26:31,390 | 00:26:34,369 | Listen, if your son and my son | Listen, if your son and my son |
519 | 00:26:34,393 | 00:26:39,207 | are in a romantic something... I'm not saying that they are. | are in a romantic something... I'm not saying that they are. |
520 | 00:26:39,231 | 00:26:41,209 | But I wouldn't do a thing about it | But I wouldn't do a thing about it |
521 | 00:26:41,233 | 00:26:44,179 | other than accept him completely. | other than accept him completely. |
522 | 00:26:44,203 | 00:26:46,649 | I'm not gonna love him one bit less. | I'm not gonna love him one bit less. |
523 | 00:26:46,673 | 00:26:49,117 | - You think I don't love my son? | - You think I don't love my son? |
524 | 00:26:49,141 | 00:26:50,886 | You think that's what this is? | You think that's what this is? |
525 | 00:26:50,910 | 00:26:52,220 | That I don't love him? | That I don't love him? |
526 | 00:26:52,244 | 00:26:55,090 | I love him so much that I will not spend | I love him so much that I will not spend |
527 | 00:26:55,114 | 00:26:58,026 | an eternity separated from him. | an eternity separated from him. |
528 | 00:26:58,050 | 00:27:00,963 | Not because some hippy boy lured him into a sex trap. | Not because some hippy boy lured him into a sex trap. |
529 | 00:27:00,987 | 00:27:04,232 | - Hey, I don't know who you think that we are, | - Hey, I don't know who you think that we are, |
530 | 00:27:04,256 | 00:27:06,935 | but to be honest, I don't care. | but to be honest, I don't care. |
531 | 00:27:06,959 | 00:27:12,240 | You can think whatever the hell you want about us. | You can think whatever the hell you want about us. |
532 | 00:27:12,264 | 00:27:18,246 | But I cannot change who your son is, and neither can you. | But I cannot change who your son is, and neither can you. |
533 | 00:27:18,270 | 00:27:20,248 | So whatever you came here to ask... | So whatever you came here to ask... |
534 | 00:27:20,272 | 00:27:22,885 | - You don't worry about who he is. I'll take care of that. | - You don't worry about who he is. I'll take care of that. |
535 | 00:27:22,909 | 00:27:26,388 | Why don't you focus on your own? | Why don't you focus on your own? |
536 | 00:27:26,412 | 00:27:29,291 | You don't even know what he's doing. | You don't even know what he's doing. |
537 | 00:27:32,318 | 00:27:39,388 | ♪ | ♪ |
538 | 00:27:42,128 | 00:27:43,471 | - Should we wait for Vera to begin? | - Should we wait for Vera to begin? |
539 | 00:27:43,495 | 00:27:45,874 | - I don't believe she'll be coming tonight. | - I don't believe she'll be coming tonight. |
540 | 00:27:45,898 | 00:27:46,909 | - Is everything okay? | - Is everything okay? |
541 | 00:27:46,933 | 00:27:51,914 | - Everything's fine. | - Everything's fine. |
542 | 00:27:51,938 | 00:27:53,716 | - Your pulse is racing. | - Your pulse is racing. |
543 | 00:27:53,740 | 00:27:56,418 | You should sit. | You should sit. |
544 | 00:27:56,442 | 00:27:59,054 | - I haven't heard from her since she got back from France. | - I haven't heard from her since she got back from France. |
545 | 00:27:59,078 | 00:28:00,923 | She won't return my calls. | She won't return my calls. |
546 | 00:28:00,947 | 00:28:03,025 | - Well, did you do something to upset her? | - Well, did you do something to upset her? |
547 | 00:28:03,049 | 00:28:05,719 | - It's my fault? - Of course not. | - It's my fault? - Of course not. |
548 | 00:28:07,453 | 00:28:09,197 | - I want you to call her. | - I want you to call her. |
549 | 00:28:09,221 | 00:28:10,365 | - What do you want me to say? | - What do you want me to say? |
550 | 00:28:10,389 | 00:28:12,500 | - The truth about my illness. | - The truth about my illness. |
551 | 00:28:12,524 | 00:28:14,737 | Maybe she'll listen if it comes from you. | Maybe she'll listen if it comes from you. |
552 | 00:28:14,761 | 00:28:16,438 | - I thought you didn't want to upset her. | - I thought you didn't want to upset her. |
553 | 00:28:16,462 | 00:28:18,473 | - I didn't. | - I didn't. |
554 | 00:28:18,497 | 00:28:21,927 | But it's time. | But it's time. |
555 | 00:28:28,540 | 00:28:31,940 | Let's go inside and begin. | Let's go inside and begin. |
556 | 00:28:42,088 | 00:28:46,068 | ♪ | ♪ |
557 | 00:28:46,092 | 00:28:48,136 | I just spoke with Vera. | I just spoke with Vera. |
558 | 00:28:48,160 | 00:28:51,106 | Unfortunately, she won't be able to join us today. | Unfortunately, she won't be able to join us today. |
559 | 00:28:51,130 | 00:28:55,077 | But she asked me to relay fantastic news. | But she asked me to relay fantastic news. |
560 | 00:28:55,101 | 00:28:57,212 | France was a rousing success. | France was a rousing success. |
561 | 00:28:57,236 | 00:29:02,150 | Felicia Pickard has been named Guardian of the Third Corner. | Felicia Pickard has been named Guardian of the Third Corner. |
562 | 00:29:02,174 | 00:29:04,452 | - It's everything you predicted. | - It's everything you predicted. |
563 | 00:29:04,476 | 00:29:09,224 | - It's not long now, is it? The cleansing of the Earth? | - It's not long now, is it? The cleansing of the Earth? |
564 | 00:29:09,248 | 00:29:13,128 | We're gonna be free of what this world has become. | We're gonna be free of what this world has become. |
565 | 00:29:13,152 | 00:29:16,464 | - Yes. | - Yes. |
566 | 00:29:16,488 | 00:29:17,966 | Yes. | Yes. |
567 | 00:29:20,526 | 00:29:24,526 | ♪ | ♪ |
568 | 00:29:40,847 | 00:29:44,047 | - Hey. - Hey. | - Hey. - Hey. |
569 | 00:29:52,859 | 00:29:56,204 | - I'm sorry, I'm just trying to not break the yoke. | - I'm sorry, I'm just trying to not break the yoke. |
570 | 00:29:56,228 | 00:29:58,140 | - You're making breakfast? | - You're making breakfast? |
571 | 00:29:58,164 | 00:30:01,343 | - I always made breakfast. - You never made breakfast. | - I always made breakfast. - You never made breakfast. |
572 | 00:30:01,367 | 00:30:03,511 | - Right. I knew it was one or the other. | - Right. I knew it was one or the other. |
573 | 00:30:07,573 | 00:30:09,813 | You feel guilty. | You feel guilty. |
574 | 00:30:11,577 | 00:30:13,488 | Is it because I have a girlfriend? | Is it because I have a girlfriend? |
575 | 00:30:13,512 | 00:30:15,557 | - No, no, no. | - No, no, no. |
576 | 00:30:15,581 | 00:30:17,092 | No. | No. |
577 | 00:30:17,116 | 00:30:19,194 | - It's because of the other guy. | - It's because of the other guy. |
578 | 00:30:19,218 | 00:30:22,630 | The one you actually want to be making breakfast for. | The one you actually want to be making breakfast for. |
579 | 00:30:22,654 | 00:30:26,168 | - Well, it's not just him. | - Well, it's not just him. |
580 | 00:30:26,192 | 00:30:30,538 | He's part of this whole community and I was... | He's part of this whole community and I was... |
581 | 00:30:30,562 | 00:30:34,176 | I was actually happy there sometimes. | I was actually happy there sometimes. |
582 | 00:30:34,200 | 00:30:36,144 | Can you imagine that? | Can you imagine that? |
583 | 00:30:36,168 | 00:30:37,579 | - Mm. Not... not really. | - Mm. Not... not really. |
584 | 00:30:37,603 | 00:30:40,315 | I've heard of such things, but... | I've heard of such things, but... |
585 | 00:30:41,640 | 00:30:44,619 | Is that your mother? | Is that your mother? |
586 | 00:30:51,450 | 00:30:53,328 | Is it your mother? | Is it your mother? |
587 | 00:30:53,352 | 00:30:56,231 | - I don't recognize the number. - It's your mother. | - I don't recognize the number. - It's your mother. |
588 | 00:30:56,255 | 00:30:57,632 | Go ahead, answer it. | Go ahead, answer it. |
589 | 00:30:57,656 | 00:31:00,602 | You're gonna run back to her eventually. | You're gonna run back to her eventually. |
590 | 00:31:00,626 | 00:31:04,472 | I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to be... | I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to be... |
591 | 00:31:04,496 | 00:31:06,474 | Listen, I'm gonna hop in the shower. | Listen, I'm gonna hop in the shower. |
592 | 00:31:06,498 | 00:31:08,210 | It would really help me | It would really help me |
593 | 00:31:08,234 | 00:31:11,304 | if you wouldn't be here when I get out. | if you wouldn't be here when I get out. |
594 | 00:31:21,247 | 00:31:23,091 | - Vera, it's Dr. Costa. | - Vera, it's Dr. Costa. |
595 | 00:31:23,115 | 00:31:25,127 | I need to talk to you about your mother's health. | I need to talk to you about your mother's health. |
596 | 00:31:25,151 | 00:31:28,263 | - Thank you so much for doing this with me. | - Thank you so much for doing this with me. |
597 | 00:31:28,287 | 00:31:30,132 | I thought we owed it to your grandfather | I thought we owed it to your grandfather |
598 | 00:31:30,156 | 00:31:32,300 | to finish what he started. | to finish what he started. |
599 | 00:31:32,324 | 00:31:36,404 | Anything new in your life lately going on? | Anything new in your life lately going on? |
600 | 00:31:36,428 | 00:31:37,705 | - Not really, no. | - Not really, no. |
601 | 00:31:37,729 | 00:31:40,475 | - No? | - No? |
602 | 00:31:40,499 | 00:31:42,244 | - What? | - What? |
603 | 00:31:42,268 | 00:31:43,378 | - Nothing you want to talk to me about, or... | - Nothing you want to talk to me about, or... |
604 | 00:31:43,402 | 00:31:45,948 | - No. | - No. |
605 | 00:31:45,972 | 00:31:51,182 | - Because you know, I was visited by Reverend Matthews. | - Because you know, I was visited by Reverend Matthews. |
606 | 00:31:53,279 | 00:31:54,256 | - What? | - What? |
607 | 00:31:54,280 | 00:31:55,690 | - Caleb's father. | - Caleb's father. |
608 | 00:31:55,714 | 00:31:58,260 | - I don't understand, what... | - I don't understand, what... |
609 | 00:31:58,284 | 00:32:00,262 | - I'm not mad at you, okay? | - I'm not mad at you, okay? |
610 | 00:32:00,286 | 00:32:02,597 | I just want to talk to you about this. | I just want to talk to you about this. |
611 | 00:32:02,621 | 00:32:04,399 | - What did he say? What did he... | - What did he say? What did he... |
612 | 00:32:04,423 | 00:32:06,734 | - Kid, I am on your side 100%, okay? | - Kid, I am on your side 100%, okay? |
613 | 00:32:06,758 | 00:32:08,336 | You need to know that. | You need to know that. |
614 | 00:32:08,360 | 00:32:10,272 | - Just tell me what he told you! | - Just tell me what he told you! |
615 | 00:32:10,296 | 00:32:13,675 | - He said that you and his son were in a relationship. | - He said that you and his son were in a relationship. |
616 | 00:32:13,699 | 00:32:16,969 | A romantic relationship. | A romantic relationship. |
617 | 00:32:22,374 | 00:32:26,554 | Hey, bud. Just talk to me. It's fine. | Hey, bud. Just talk to me. It's fine. |
618 | 00:32:26,578 | 00:32:29,457 | - This is not how I wanted you to find out. | - This is not how I wanted you to find out. |
619 | 00:32:29,481 | 00:32:32,394 | Literally, the last possible way. | Literally, the last possible way. |
620 | 00:32:32,418 | 00:32:34,997 | - Okay, look, it's done, all right? | - Okay, look, it's done, all right? |
621 | 00:32:35,021 | 00:32:39,167 | Just tell me what's going on. | Just tell me what's going on. |
622 | 00:32:39,191 | 00:32:41,736 | - Nothing, okay? Nothing's going on. | - Nothing, okay? Nothing's going on. |
623 | 00:32:41,760 | 00:32:44,606 | I'm not different. I don't feel any different. | I'm not different. I don't feel any different. |
624 | 00:32:44,630 | 00:32:47,642 | I just met someone and they happen to be a guy! | I just met someone and they happen to be a guy! |
625 | 00:32:47,666 | 00:32:52,414 | - Okay, look, I just... I wish you would've come to me. | - Okay, look, I just... I wish you would've come to me. |
626 | 00:32:52,438 | 00:32:54,249 | You must've been struggling... | You must've been struggling... |
627 | 00:32:54,273 | 00:32:55,617 | - Yeah, I wasn't really struggling, actually. | - Yeah, I wasn't really struggling, actually. |
628 | 00:32:55,641 | 00:32:58,586 | - Hawk, it kills me that you didn't feel like | - Hawk, it kills me that you didn't feel like |
629 | 00:32:58,610 | 00:33:01,689 | you could talk to me about this. | you could talk to me about this. |
630 | 00:33:01,713 | 00:33:03,525 | - As my leader? | - As my leader? |
631 | 00:33:03,549 | 00:33:05,693 | As the Guardian of the Light, or as my Dad? | As the Guardian of the Light, or as my Dad? |
632 | 00:33:05,717 | 00:33:09,464 | - Hey, I'm your father first and foremost, | - Hey, I'm your father first and foremost, |
633 | 00:33:09,488 | 00:33:14,269 | but I cannot support you unless I know what is going on. | but I cannot support you unless I know what is going on. |
634 | 00:33:14,293 | 00:33:19,541 | Look, I'm not going to judge you or love you any less. | Look, I'm not going to judge you or love you any less. |
635 | 00:33:19,565 | 00:33:23,478 | But you gotta talk to me. | But you gotta talk to me. |
636 | 00:33:23,502 | 00:33:25,447 | - All right, where's Mom? | - All right, where's Mom? |
637 | 00:33:25,471 | 00:33:27,449 | Who's she with? What is she doing? | Who's she with? What is she doing? |
638 | 00:33:27,473 | 00:33:30,285 | And why is everyone pretending like it's completely normal | And why is everyone pretending like it's completely normal |
639 | 00:33:30,309 | 00:33:33,388 | when it is in fact super fucked up? | when it is in fact super fucked up? |
640 | 00:33:33,412 | 00:33:36,424 | - I wish I knew. | - I wish I knew. |
641 | 00:33:36,448 | 00:33:37,592 | Okay? | Okay? |
642 | 00:33:37,616 | 00:33:44,232 | I really don't, Hawk. | I really don't, Hawk. |
643 | 00:33:44,256 | 00:33:46,401 | - So why did you ask me to help you finish | - So why did you ask me to help you finish |
644 | 00:33:46,425 | 00:33:48,603 | my dead grandfather's tree house | my dead grandfather's tree house |
645 | 00:33:48,627 | 00:33:51,506 | when all you wanted to do was grill me about my private life? | when all you wanted to do was grill me about my private life? |
646 | 00:33:51,530 | 00:33:56,078 | - I wanted to spend some time with you man to man. | - I wanted to spend some time with you man to man. |
647 | 00:33:56,102 | 00:34:00,782 | - Yeah, well, here's my Reflection, all right? | - Yeah, well, here's my Reflection, all right? |
648 | 00:34:00,806 | 00:34:07,407 | My relationship with Caleb is my business. | My relationship with Caleb is my business. |
649 | 00:34:09,681 | 00:34:13,561 | We're given only as much pain as we can bear. | We're given only as much pain as we can bear. |
650 | 00:34:13,585 | 00:34:17,699 | - We're given only as much pain as we can bear. | - We're given only as much pain as we can bear. |
651 | 00:34:17,723 | 00:34:20,402 | - Why are we here? | - Why are we here? |
652 | 00:34:20,426 | 00:34:22,870 | - 'Cause I'm asking people to Reflect | - 'Cause I'm asking people to Reflect |
653 | 00:34:22,894 | 00:34:26,541 | and Refine when I haven't myself. | and Refine when I haven't myself. |
654 | 00:34:26,565 | 00:34:30,345 | -Why not? What's holding you back? | -Why not? What's holding you back? |
655 | 00:34:30,369 | 00:34:33,348 | - My fear. | - My fear. |
656 | 00:34:33,372 | 00:34:36,551 | - What are you afraid of? | - What are you afraid of? |
657 | 00:34:36,575 | 00:34:38,720 | - Losing them. | - Losing them. |
658 | 00:34:38,744 | 00:34:40,814 | - Who? Who are you losing? | - Who? Who are you losing? |
659 | 00:34:46,485 | 00:34:48,330 | People. | People. |
660 | 00:34:48,354 | 00:34:49,831 | My followers. | My followers. |
661 | 00:34:49,855 | 00:34:51,899 | I'm losing them. | I'm losing them. |
662 | 00:34:51,923 | 00:34:55,570 | My... my son. | My... my son. |
663 | 00:34:55,594 | 00:34:57,605 | - You're son. Good. | - You're son. Good. |
664 | 00:34:57,629 | 00:35:00,342 | - My boy. | - My boy. |
665 | 00:35:00,366 | 00:35:04,312 | - Why are you losing him? | - Why are you losing him? |
666 | 00:35:04,336 | 00:35:07,549 | - He doesn't trust me anymore. | - He doesn't trust me anymore. |
667 | 00:35:07,573 | 00:35:11,853 | - Fear. We know the symptoms. | - Fear. We know the symptoms. |
668 | 00:35:11,877 | 00:35:15,523 | Now let's find the Transgress, the distraction. | Now let's find the Transgress, the distraction. |
669 | 00:35:20,586 | 00:35:22,830 | Vera! | Vera! |
670 | 00:35:22,854 | 00:35:25,600 | - Vera? - Vera. | - Vera? - Vera. |
671 | 00:35:25,624 | 00:35:27,369 | - Vera's a beautiful distraction. | - Vera's a beautiful distraction. |
672 | 00:35:27,393 | 00:35:29,604 | Secular, skilled in the ways of the world. | Secular, skilled in the ways of the world. |
673 | 00:35:29,628 | 00:35:33,508 | Is she really the thing? | Is she really the thing? |
674 | 00:35:33,532 | 00:35:36,644 | Say it, Eddie! I want to get out of here as much as you! | Say it, Eddie! I want to get out of here as much as you! |
675 | 00:35:36,668 | 00:35:39,381 | Maybe not as much. | Maybe not as much. |
676 | 00:35:39,405 | 00:35:43,418 | You can only be free if you say it. | You can only be free if you say it. |
677 | 00:35:43,442 | 00:35:45,620 | Who is it you're holding onto? | Who is it you're holding onto? |
678 | 00:35:49,748 | 00:35:51,626 | - Sarah! | - Sarah! |
679 | 00:35:51,650 | 00:35:55,930 | - Sarah. Sarah. | - Sarah. Sarah. |
680 | 00:35:55,954 | 00:35:57,632 | - Sarah. | - Sarah. |
681 | 00:35:57,656 | 00:35:59,501 | - Yes! | - Yes! |
682 | 00:35:59,525 | 00:36:03,671 | - Sarah is at the Yellow Birch Inn | - Sarah is at the Yellow Birch Inn |
683 | 00:36:03,695 | 00:36:07,475 | having a romantic getaway with a man. | having a romantic getaway with a man. |
684 | 00:36:07,499 | 00:36:11,779 | A lover. | A lover. |
685 | 00:36:11,803 | 00:36:15,917 | So what's the real burden, Eddie? | So what's the real burden, Eddie? |
686 | 00:36:15,941 | 00:36:18,741 | What can you bear no more? | What can you bear no more? |
687 | 00:36:23,582 | 00:36:26,694 | - That I can get hundreds, | - That I can get hundreds, |
688 | 00:36:26,718 | 00:36:30,998 | thousands of people to believe, | thousands of people to believe, |
689 | 00:36:31,022 | 00:36:32,767 | but not her. | but not her. |
690 | 00:36:35,794 | 00:36:40,404 | ♪ | ♪ |
691 | 00:36:40,732 | 00:36:42,910 | - Anyone joining you this morning? | - Anyone joining you this morning? |
692 | 00:36:42,934 | 00:36:46,848 | - Uh, no. I thought maybe but, um... | - Uh, no. I thought maybe but, um... |
693 | 00:36:46,872 | 00:36:48,942 | Time to go, thank you. | Time to go, thank you. |
694 | 00:36:54,946 | 00:36:58,660 | ♪ | ♪ |
695 | 00:36:58,684 | 00:37:00,862 | - I shouldn't have come. I should've stayed away. | - I shouldn't have come. I should've stayed away. |
696 | 00:37:00,886 | 00:37:02,597 | - Please, I'm glad you did. | - Please, I'm glad you did. |
697 | 00:37:02,621 | 00:37:04,732 | Do you want to get a cup of coffee inside? | Do you want to get a cup of coffee inside? |
698 | 00:37:04,756 | 00:37:06,968 | - I can't stay, but I didn't want to let you go | - I can't stay, but I didn't want to let you go |
699 | 00:37:06,992 | 00:37:09,704 | without at least talking to you about the past, | without at least talking to you about the past, |
700 | 00:37:09,728 | 00:37:12,607 | about the questions you were asking. | about the questions you were asking. |
701 | 00:37:12,631 | 00:37:14,742 | I haven't heard Lilith's name in years. | I haven't heard Lilith's name in years. |
702 | 00:37:14,766 | 00:37:17,845 | I thought I'd never hear it again. | I thought I'd never hear it again. |
703 | 00:37:17,869 | 00:37:20,014 | But it makes sense that you would bring her back | But it makes sense that you would bring her back |
704 | 00:37:20,038 | 00:37:22,984 | into my consciousness. | into my consciousness. |
705 | 00:37:23,008 | 00:37:25,587 | She was a gifted woman too. | She was a gifted woman too. |
706 | 00:37:25,611 | 00:37:27,455 | Full of light and inspiration. | Full of light and inspiration. |
707 | 00:37:27,479 | 00:37:29,624 | She made great contributions in her early days. | She made great contributions in her early days. |
708 | 00:37:29,648 | 00:37:33,628 | - I've read her writings. I can see that. | - I've read her writings. I can see that. |
709 | 00:37:33,652 | 00:37:36,864 | - But she was also touched by madness. | - But she was also touched by madness. |
710 | 00:37:36,888 | 00:37:40,935 | Broken by trauma and pain that Steve... | Broken by trauma and pain that Steve... |
711 | 00:37:40,959 | 00:37:44,672 | - That Steve couldn't heal? | - That Steve couldn't heal? |
712 | 00:37:44,696 | 00:37:47,509 | - That he fed on. | - That he fed on. |
713 | 00:37:47,533 | 00:37:48,876 | Used. | Used. |
714 | 00:37:48,900 | 00:37:51,640 | Assimilated into his system of belief. | Assimilated into his system of belief. |
715 | 00:37:53,739 | 00:37:56,751 | And then he sent her away. | And then he sent her away. |
716 | 00:37:56,775 | 00:37:59,487 | Denied her credit, denied her very existence. | Denied her credit, denied her very existence. |
717 | 00:37:59,511 | 00:38:03,090 | - All of you knew about it, everyone from the early days. | - All of you knew about it, everyone from the early days. |
718 | 00:38:03,114 | 00:38:06,928 | You, my mother, my father. | You, my mother, my father. |
719 | 00:38:06,952 | 00:38:11,032 | My God, how could you knowingly treat her that way? | My God, how could you knowingly treat her that way? |
720 | 00:38:11,056 | 00:38:13,735 | - There's no excuse. | - There's no excuse. |
721 | 00:38:13,759 | 00:38:17,972 | But when you're enveloped in faith, you rationalize things. | But when you're enveloped in faith, you rationalize things. |
722 | 00:38:17,996 | 00:38:20,542 | Little things at first, for the greater good. | Little things at first, for the greater good. |
723 | 00:38:20,566 | 00:38:23,845 | The bigger things and bigger until... | The bigger things and bigger until... |
724 | 00:38:23,869 | 00:38:25,580 | one day the clouds part, | one day the clouds part, |
725 | 00:38:25,604 | 00:38:26,914 | and you don't even recognize yourself. | and you don't even recognize yourself. |
726 | 00:38:26,938 | 00:38:31,085 | - Is this how all religion ends up? | - Is this how all religion ends up? |
727 | 00:38:31,109 | 00:38:35,823 | Preaching love, and truth, and peace, and... | Preaching love, and truth, and peace, and... |
728 | 00:38:35,847 | 00:38:40,962 | You're sitting on buried secrets and lies. | You're sitting on buried secrets and lies. |
729 | 00:38:40,986 | 00:38:42,964 | - Maybe. | - Maybe. |
730 | 00:38:42,988 | 00:38:44,966 | Maybe that's the cost of faith. | Maybe that's the cost of faith. |
731 | 00:38:44,990 | 00:38:47,802 | - Is Lilith alive? Can I contact her? | - Is Lilith alive? Can I contact her? |
732 | 00:38:47,826 | 00:38:49,937 | - She's alive. | - She's alive. |
733 | 00:38:49,961 | 00:38:52,807 | But if you contact her, she might tell you things, Sarah, | But if you contact her, she might tell you things, Sarah, |
734 | 00:38:52,831 | 00:38:54,776 | that make it impossible for you to go back. | that make it impossible for you to go back. |
735 | 00:38:54,800 | 00:38:56,844 | - I've already given up so much already. | - I've already given up so much already. |
736 | 00:38:56,868 | 00:38:59,814 | That's a chance I'm willing to take. | That's a chance I'm willing to take. |
737 | 00:38:59,838 | 00:39:04,752 | You have contact with her. Do you know where she is? | You have contact with her. Do you know where she is? |
738 | 00:39:04,776 | 00:39:07,021 | - No, I haven't been in contact with her over the years, | - No, I haven't been in contact with her over the years, |
739 | 00:39:07,045 | 00:39:10,057 | but I've been aware of her. | but I've been aware of her. |
740 | 00:39:10,081 | 00:39:12,093 | She's a veterinarian. | She's a veterinarian. |
741 | 00:39:12,117 | 00:39:14,696 | On Riverside and 72nd Street. | On Riverside and 72nd Street. |
742 | 00:39:14,720 | 00:39:16,998 | I know. | I know. |
743 | 00:39:17,022 | 00:39:18,966 | She took to healing animals. | She took to healing animals. |
744 | 00:39:18,990 | 00:39:21,603 | It's an impulse I understand. | It's an impulse I understand. |
745 | 00:39:24,630 | 00:39:31,112 | ♪ | ♪ |
746 | 00:39:31,136 | 00:39:33,881 | - Did you remember the canola oil? | - Did you remember the canola oil? |
747 | 00:39:33,905 | 00:39:34,949 | - Was it on the list? | - Was it on the list? |
748 | 00:39:34,973 | 00:39:36,784 | - No, but I told you. | - No, but I told you. |
749 | 00:39:36,808 | 00:39:38,753 | - If it's not on the list, it doesn't happen. | - If it's not on the list, it doesn't happen. |
750 | 00:39:38,777 | 00:39:40,988 | Stop making me feel like a failure. | Stop making me feel like a failure. |
751 | 00:39:41,012 | 00:39:44,191 | - Hey, we're on the same team here. | - Hey, we're on the same team here. |
752 | 00:39:44,215 | 00:39:46,861 | Is this about Eddie? | Is this about Eddie? |
753 | 00:39:46,885 | 00:39:50,898 | - This was gonna be the year that things got better. | - This was gonna be the year that things got better. |
754 | 00:39:50,922 | 00:39:52,900 | Had some responsibility. | Had some responsibility. |
755 | 00:39:52,924 | 00:39:54,869 | Respect. | Respect. |
756 | 00:39:54,893 | 00:39:57,004 | - You know what this is really about? | - You know what this is really about? |
757 | 00:39:57,028 | 00:39:58,906 | Sarah. | Sarah. |
758 | 00:39:58,930 | 00:40:01,008 | Ever since she decided to go on walkabout, | Ever since she decided to go on walkabout, |
759 | 00:40:01,032 | 00:40:03,845 | it's like Eddie makes us all suffer. | it's like Eddie makes us all suffer. |
760 | 00:40:03,869 | 00:40:06,013 | - Sarah sneezes, we all get a cold. | - Sarah sneezes, we all get a cold. |
761 | 00:40:06,037 | 00:40:07,782 | - Now this Refinement decree? | - Now this Refinement decree? |
762 | 00:40:07,806 | 00:40:09,150 | What are we supposed to give up? | What are we supposed to give up? |
763 | 00:40:09,174 | 00:40:11,653 | I mean, look at us. What's left? | I mean, look at us. What's left? |
764 | 00:40:36,802 | 00:40:39,647 | - What are you giving up? - Nothing. | - What are you giving up? - Nothing. |
765 | 00:40:39,671 | 00:40:41,816 | Dad comes back from France ranting and raving | Dad comes back from France ranting and raving |
766 | 00:40:41,840 | 00:40:45,186 | about how everyone's not working hard enough. | about how everyone's not working hard enough. |
767 | 00:40:45,210 | 00:40:49,924 | Mom's off who knows where? They're enough as it is. | Mom's off who knows where? They're enough as it is. |
768 | 00:40:49,948 | 00:40:53,018 | - You still haven't heard from him? | - You still haven't heard from him? |
769 | 00:40:55,220 | 00:40:58,933 | I'm really sorry, Hawk. | I'm really sorry, Hawk. |
770 | 00:40:58,957 | 00:41:01,102 | - Thanks. | - Thanks. |
771 | 00:41:01,126 | 00:41:03,971 | - And even though we're divorced, | - And even though we're divorced, |
772 | 00:41:03,995 | 00:41:06,155 | I still relied on him. | I still relied on him. |
773 | 00:41:08,534 | 00:41:11,679 | I looked to him for my own self-worth. | I looked to him for my own self-worth. |
774 | 00:41:11,703 | 00:41:14,248 | And from this day forward, | And from this day forward, |
775 | 00:41:14,272 | 00:41:17,952 | I am never speaking to that bastard again! | I am never speaking to that bastard again! |
776 | 00:41:17,976 | 00:41:22,089 | - All I ever cared about until right now | - All I ever cared about until right now |
777 | 00:41:22,113 | 00:41:24,726 | was likes on Instagram. | was likes on Instagram. |
778 | 00:41:24,750 | 00:41:26,027 | - But no more. | - But no more. |
779 | 00:41:26,051 | 00:41:29,263 | No more mustard, no more cigarettes. | No more mustard, no more cigarettes. |
780 | 00:41:29,287 | 00:41:32,934 | My body is my body. | My body is my body. |
781 | 00:41:38,196 | 00:41:42,777 | - Wow. I am so proud of all of you. | - Wow. I am so proud of all of you. |
782 | 00:41:42,801 | 00:41:45,813 | Your commitment to finding a deeper connection | Your commitment to finding a deeper connection |
783 | 00:41:45,837 | 00:41:50,151 | to your faith is... it warms my heart. | to your faith is... it warms my heart. |
784 | 00:41:50,175 | 00:41:55,790 | You know, as a leader, I can sometimes lose my own way. | You know, as a leader, I can sometimes lose my own way. |
785 | 00:41:55,814 | 00:41:59,927 | I can sometimes lose focus of what is at the core | I can sometimes lose focus of what is at the core |
786 | 00:41:59,951 | 00:42:02,096 | of this for me. | of this for me. |
787 | 00:42:02,120 | 00:42:06,333 | And what that is is all of you. | And what that is is all of you. |
788 | 00:42:06,357 | 00:42:08,035 | This beautiful community. | This beautiful community. |
789 | 00:42:28,146 | 00:42:30,546 | - I have something to sacrifice. | - I have something to sacrifice. |
790 | 00:42:33,251 | 00:42:38,800 | A gift that I'm ashamed to admit | A gift that I'm ashamed to admit |
791 | 00:42:38,824 | 00:42:41,294 | I thought might make me happy. | I thought might make me happy. |
792 | 00:42:44,295 | 00:42:47,008 | Turns out... | Turns out... |
793 | 00:42:48,934 | 00:42:54,344 | Turns out it was nothing but one gigantic distraction. | Turns out it was nothing but one gigantic distraction. |
794 | 00:42:59,144 | 00:43:06,224 | ♪ | ♪ |
795 | 00:43:19,397 | 00:43:26,837 | ♪ | ♪ |
796 | 00:43:38,283 | 00:43:40,995 | - Yeah. - ALL RIGHT. | - Yeah. - ALL RIGHT. |
797 | 00:43:43,989 | 00:43:46,033 | - Whoo. - Nice. | - Whoo. - Nice. |
798 | 00:43:49,995 | 00:43:55,168 | - I, um... - I thought about keeping it. | - I, um... - I thought about keeping it. |
799 | 00:43:58,403 | 00:44:00,181 | - Go, Gaby! | - Go, Gaby! |
800 | 00:44:00,205 | 00:44:01,348 | - Yeah, Grandma! | - Yeah, Grandma! |
801 | 00:44:01,372 | 00:44:03,050 | - All right! | - All right! |
802 | 00:44:03,074 | 00:44:04,919 | - Whoo! - Yeah! | - Whoo! - Yeah! |
803 | 00:44:07,278 | 00:44:09,857 | - It's okay. | - It's okay. |
804 | 00:44:09,881 | 00:44:11,693 | You did well. | You did well. |
805 | 00:44:11,717 | 00:44:14,147 | Thank you for inspiring me. | Thank you for inspiring me. |
806 | 00:44:25,063 | 00:44:32,143 | ♪ | ♪ |
807 | 00:44:47,118 | 00:44:50,397 | - Dr. Costa said your tumor was spreading. | - Dr. Costa said your tumor was spreading. |
808 | 00:44:50,421 | 00:44:52,734 | - I'm taking the medicine. | - I'm taking the medicine. |
809 | 00:44:52,758 | 00:44:54,902 | I'll have the surgery. | I'll have the surgery. |
810 | 00:44:54,926 | 00:44:56,337 | It's nothing. | It's nothing. |
811 | 00:44:56,361 | 00:44:59,040 | We have more important matters to discuss. | We have more important matters to discuss. |
812 | 00:44:59,064 | 00:45:00,742 | - What's more important? | - What's more important? |
813 | 00:45:00,766 | 00:45:03,210 | - Why haven't you called? | - Why haven't you called? |
814 | 00:45:03,234 | 00:45:05,312 | What happened after France? | What happened after France? |
815 | 00:45:05,336 | 00:45:13,320 | Did Eddie... He rejected you. | Did Eddie... He rejected you. |
816 | 00:45:13,344 | 00:45:15,456 | It hurts, but it's for the best. | It hurts, but it's for the best. |
817 | 00:45:15,480 | 00:45:19,026 | - Just like Remy. - What? | - Just like Remy. - What? |
818 | 00:45:19,050 | 00:45:22,363 | - You said the same when Remy left me, | - You said the same when Remy left me, |
819 | 00:45:22,387 | 00:45:26,968 | when he'd had enough of this, of us, | when he'd had enough of this, of us, |
820 | 00:45:26,992 | 00:45:28,469 | you said it was for the best. | you said it was for the best. |
821 | 00:45:28,493 | 00:45:31,038 | - Okay, but what does this have to do with Remy? | - Okay, but what does this have to do with Remy? |
822 | 00:45:31,062 | 00:45:32,439 | - He was my husband. | - He was my husband. |
823 | 00:45:32,463 | 00:45:34,508 | - He was a detour. He wasn't your destiny. | - He was a detour. He wasn't your destiny. |
824 | 00:45:34,532 | 00:45:36,778 | - I wanted a family. | - I wanted a family. |
825 | 00:45:36,802 | 00:45:38,512 | A life apart from us! | A life apart from us! |
826 | 00:45:38,536 | 00:45:41,348 | I wanted children. I still want that! | I wanted children. I still want that! |
827 | 00:45:41,372 | 00:45:43,084 | - And you'll have that. | - And you'll have that. |
828 | 00:45:43,108 | 00:45:45,352 | After The Fire, you will meet someone. | After The Fire, you will meet someone. |
829 | 00:45:45,376 | 00:45:49,523 | You will raise your children in a better world. | You will raise your children in a better world. |
830 | 00:45:49,547 | 00:45:53,027 | - Are you even sick? | - Are you even sick? |
831 | 00:45:53,051 | 00:45:54,428 | - Of course I am. | - Of course I am. |
832 | 00:45:54,452 | 00:45:58,065 | - I asked you many times about your illness, | - I asked you many times about your illness, |
833 | 00:45:58,089 | 00:45:59,533 | and you kept telling me that you were fine. | and you kept telling me that you were fine. |
834 | 00:45:59,557 | 00:46:02,236 | So were you lying then, or are you lying now? | So were you lying then, or are you lying now? |
835 | 00:46:02,260 | 00:46:07,441 | - If I ever softened the truth, it was only to protect you. | - If I ever softened the truth, it was only to protect you. |
836 | 00:46:07,465 | 00:46:11,345 | - And the scar on my back? | - And the scar on my back? |
837 | 00:46:11,369 | 00:46:16,417 | Yeah, the one you burned into me. | Yeah, the one you burned into me. |
838 | 00:46:16,441 | 00:46:23,157 | Was that to protect me too? | Was that to protect me too? |
839 | 00:46:23,181 | 00:46:24,558 | - I was ill. | - I was ill. |
840 | 00:46:24,582 | 00:46:27,394 | Those people, they made me ill. | Those people, they made me ill. |
841 | 00:46:27,418 | 00:46:29,263 | - I shouldn't have come... | - I shouldn't have come... |
842 | 00:46:29,287 | 00:46:31,265 | It's never your fault, is it? | It's never your fault, is it? |
843 | 00:46:31,289 | 00:46:34,401 | - I carry the shame of what I did to you every day. | - I carry the shame of what I did to you every day. |
844 | 00:46:34,425 | 00:46:39,273 | But I'm glad you know because we can talk about this now. | But I'm glad you know because we can talk about this now. |
845 | 00:46:39,297 | 00:46:41,442 | Like we always do, you and me. | Like we always do, you and me. |
846 | 00:46:41,466 | 00:46:44,511 | Always. | Always. |
847 | 00:46:47,538 | 00:46:54,578 | ♪ | ♪ |
848 | 00:47:03,889 | 00:47:07,089 | - Good-bye, Mom. | - Good-bye, Mom. |
849 | 00:47:22,107 | 00:47:26,053 | - Mom. | - Mom. |
850 | 00:47:26,077 | 00:47:27,521 | - It's so late! | - It's so late! |
851 | 00:47:27,545 | 00:47:29,423 | - Yeah, I told her she could stay up | - Yeah, I told her she could stay up |
852 | 00:47:29,447 | 00:47:31,458 | as long as she went to bed as soon as you got home. | as long as she went to bed as soon as you got home. |
853 | 00:47:31,482 | 00:47:33,594 | - I missed you. - I missed you too, pumpkin. | - I missed you. - I missed you too, pumpkin. |
854 | 00:47:33,618 | 00:47:35,262 | So much. | So much. |
855 | 00:47:35,286 | 00:47:37,498 | I'll see you in the morning, okay? | I'll see you in the morning, okay? |
856 | 00:47:37,522 | 00:47:39,862 | - Good night, honey. | - Good night, honey. |
857 | 00:47:45,230 | 00:47:48,309 | - Thank you for being here. I know that it was... | - Thank you for being here. I know that it was... |
858 | 00:47:48,333 | 00:47:50,577 | - Look, Sarah, don't, okay? | - Look, Sarah, don't, okay? |
859 | 00:47:50,601 | 00:47:54,481 | No apologies or excuses... - I wasn't apologizing. | No apologies or excuses... - I wasn't apologizing. |
860 | 00:47:54,505 | 00:47:56,217 | I was trying to explain why I had to leave. | I was trying to explain why I had to leave. |
861 | 00:47:56,241 | 00:47:58,085 | - All right, well, no more explaining. | - All right, well, no more explaining. |
862 | 00:47:58,109 | 00:47:59,620 | There's nothing more to explain. | There's nothing more to explain. |
863 | 00:47:59,644 | 00:48:03,124 | Look, I just want to... I just want to say something, | Look, I just want to... I just want to say something, |
864 | 00:48:03,148 | 00:48:05,692 | so just let me get it out, let me say it. | so just let me get it out, let me say it. |
865 | 00:48:05,716 | 00:48:09,663 | - Okay. | - Okay. |
866 | 00:48:09,687 | 00:48:13,600 | - Look, people have been joining the Movement | - Look, people have been joining the Movement |
867 | 00:48:13,624 | 00:48:15,636 | by the hundreds. | by the hundreds. |
868 | 00:48:15,660 | 00:48:17,638 | Thousands. | Thousands. |
869 | 00:48:17,662 | 00:48:19,506 | Following me. | Following me. |
870 | 00:48:19,530 | 00:48:22,643 | They're putting their trust, their faith, | They're putting their trust, their faith, |
871 | 00:48:22,667 | 00:48:27,281 | their lives in my hands. | their lives in my hands. |
872 | 00:48:27,305 | 00:48:28,715 | And I can... | And I can... |
873 | 00:48:28,739 | 00:48:31,953 | I can't focus on what I'm supposed to be doing, | I can't focus on what I'm supposed to be doing, |
874 | 00:48:31,977 | 00:48:35,957 | because all I'm doing is thinking about you. | because all I'm doing is thinking about you. |
875 | 00:48:35,981 | 00:48:37,558 | - Eddie... - No. | - Eddie... - No. |
876 | 00:48:37,582 | 00:48:40,394 | You questioning. | You questioning. |
877 | 00:48:40,418 | 00:48:43,730 | One foot in, one foot out. | One foot in, one foot out. |
878 | 00:48:43,754 | 00:48:45,399 | - I'm sorry. | - I'm sorry. |
879 | 00:48:45,423 | 00:48:49,603 | - No, I don't want your apologies. | - No, I don't want your apologies. |
880 | 00:48:49,627 | 00:48:54,141 | I want you to leave us. | I want you to leave us. |
881 | 00:48:54,165 | 00:48:55,509 | Just make it official. | Just make it official. |
882 | 00:48:55,533 | 00:48:57,478 | What you've been doing for months now | What you've been doing for months now |
883 | 00:48:57,502 | 00:49:01,482 | slowly, slowly just drifting away, | slowly, slowly just drifting away, |
884 | 00:49:01,506 | 00:49:04,518 | just rip it off now. | just rip it off now. |
885 | 00:49:04,542 | 00:49:05,686 | Just leave the Movement. | Just leave the Movement. |
886 | 00:49:05,710 | 00:49:08,255 | - No, I won't leave my family. | - No, I won't leave my family. |
887 | 00:49:08,279 | 00:49:10,424 | Ever. | Ever. |
888 | 00:49:10,448 | 00:49:12,559 | - I am not asking you to do that. | - I am not asking you to do that. |
889 | 00:49:12,583 | 00:49:14,595 | - What if I'm not ready? I have questions, I do, | - What if I'm not ready? I have questions, I do, |
890 | 00:49:14,619 | 00:49:17,559 | but this is my life. | but this is my life. |
891 | 00:49:19,424 | 00:49:22,234 | - Then do it for me. | - Then do it for me. |
892 | 00:49:24,662 | 00:49:27,541 | Please. | Please. |
893 | 00:49:27,565 | 00:49:35,549 | I have Reflected, and what I've found, | I have Reflected, and what I've found, |
894 | 00:49:35,573 | 00:49:39,713 | what is holding me back from my Refinement... | what is holding me back from my Refinement... |
895 | 00:49:42,247 | 00:49:45,592 | is you. | is you. |
896 | 00:49:47,385 | 00:49:49,363 | Okay. | Okay. |
897 | 00:49:49,387 | 00:49:52,599 | You're right. | You're right. |
898 | 00:49:52,623 | 00:49:56,293 | I shouldn't peddle something I think is broken. | I shouldn't peddle something I think is broken. |
899 | 00:49:58,496 | 00:50:01,475 | Not anymore. | Not anymore. |
900 | 00:50:04,502 | 00:50:11,542 | ♪ | ♪ |
901 | 00:50:31,596 | 00:50:38,666 | ♪ | ♪ |
902 | 00:50:53,418 | 00:50:55,629 | - I want to become a Meyerist. | - I want to become a Meyerist. |
903 | 00:50:58,656 | 00:51:05,696 | ♪ | ♪ |
904 | 00:51:20,378 | 00:51:23,448 | - You found me. | - You found me. |
905 | 00:51:28,153 | 00:51:36,153 | ♪ Stay ♪ Ooh ♪ No one ever said | ♪ Stay ♪ Ooh ♪ No one ever said |
906 | 00:51:44,702 | 00:51:52,702 | ♪ That you remind me ♪ Whoa | ♪ That you remind me ♪ Whoa |
907 | 00:52:01,619 | 00:52:04,459 | ♪ Sticks and stones | ♪ Sticks and stones |