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1 00:01:11,030 00:01:13,166 What do you think is in that darkness? What do you think is in that darkness?
2 00:01:16,069 00:01:19,172 I don't know, but it must be something bad, I don't know, but it must be something bad,
3 00:01:19,204 00:01:22,075 otherwise why would I block it out of my memory? otherwise why would I block it out of my memory?
4 00:01:22,108 00:01:23,743 We can try and figure it out. We can try and figure it out.
5 00:01:23,776 00:01:26,646 Another attempt to get me to agree to hypnosis? Another attempt to get me to agree to hypnosis?
6 00:01:26,679 00:01:29,481 You can't blame a girl for trying, William. You can't blame a girl for trying, William.
7 00:01:29,514 00:01:31,283 When are you gonna start calling me Will? When are you gonna start calling me Will?
8 00:01:32,185 00:01:33,418 When you call me Lydia. When you call me Lydia.
9 00:01:34,721 00:01:37,023 You seem very pensive today. You seem very pensive today.
10 00:01:38,091 00:01:40,059 I'm just tired. I'm just tired.
11 00:01:40,093 00:01:43,129 A lot happening, the anniversary, yes? A lot happening, the anniversary, yes?
12 00:01:43,162 00:01:44,563 Denise, two years? Denise, two years?
13 00:01:45,865 00:01:47,200 Yeah. Yeah.
14 00:01:48,233 00:01:49,534 How are the girls doing? How are the girls doing?
15 00:01:50,535 00:01:52,038 They're fine. They're fine.
16 00:01:52,270 00:01:54,272 Have either of them said anything Have either of them said anything
17 00:01:54,306 00:01:56,241 about your wife's passing? about your wife's passing?
18 00:01:57,542 00:01:58,945 Why would they? Why would they?
19 00:01:58,978 00:02:01,613 Well with your own mother passing, Well with your own mother passing,
20 00:02:01,647 00:02:04,483 it's a shared experience you all have. it's a shared experience you all have.
21 00:02:04,516 00:02:07,186 I didn't lose my mother when I was a teenager. I didn't lose my mother when I was a teenager.
22 00:02:07,220 00:02:09,789 But you lost your father, though when you were a kid. But you lost your father, though when you were a kid.
23 00:02:09,822 00:02:12,357 I'm well aware of that. I'm well aware of that.
24 00:02:12,390 00:02:14,694 I'm just surprised the topic hasn't come up. I'm just surprised the topic hasn't come up.
25 00:02:14,727 00:02:17,897 I think it's more important that we move on with our lives I think it's more important that we move on with our lives
26 00:02:19,198 00:02:21,433 and leave the past where it belongs. and leave the past where it belongs.
27 00:02:21,466 00:02:24,003 It's not my intention to agitate you. It's not my intention to agitate you.
28 00:02:24,036 00:02:26,571 See, I think it is if you think it'll help, See, I think it is if you think it'll help,
29 00:02:26,605 00:02:27,673 which it doesn't. which it doesn't.
30 00:02:29,008 00:02:32,377 Ironically, I've actually had a dream Ironically, I've actually had a dream
31 00:02:32,410 00:02:34,279 about my father the other night. about my father the other night.
32 00:02:35,580 00:02:37,049 Really? Really?
33 00:02:37,083 00:02:38,483 What were the circumstances? What were the circumstances?
34 00:02:40,219 00:02:42,420 Nothing really, he was just sort of there. Nothing really, he was just sort of there.
35 00:02:42,454 00:02:45,124 You lose your one parent and then you start dreaming You lose your one parent and then you start dreaming
36 00:02:45,158 00:02:46,391 about the one that you barely knew about the one that you barely knew
37 00:02:46,424 00:02:48,460 or that you hardly ever give a thought to. or that you hardly ever give a thought to.
38 00:02:48,493 00:02:50,428 I mean, up until a couple of weeks ago, I mean, up until a couple of weeks ago,
39 00:02:51,596 00:02:54,100 I had only had like a single picture of him I had only had like a single picture of him
40 00:02:54,133 00:02:56,135 and I misplaced that years ago. and I misplaced that years ago.
41 00:02:56,169 00:02:58,037 What happened a few weeks ago? What happened a few weeks ago?
42 00:02:58,070 00:03:01,540 I came across some boxes of his stuff in my mother's attic. I came across some boxes of his stuff in my mother's attic.
43 00:03:01,573 00:03:03,943 What was in those, in those boxes? What was in those, in those boxes?
44 00:03:03,976 00:03:06,245 I haven't had the time to bring them home yet. I haven't had the time to bring them home yet.
45 00:03:06,279 00:03:08,380 You haven't had the time or you haven't made the time? You haven't had the time or you haven't made the time?
46 00:03:08,413 00:03:11,184 I figure if my mom put all that stuff away, I figure if my mom put all that stuff away,
47 00:03:13,152 00:03:15,855 maybe she put that stuff away for a reason. maybe she put that stuff away for a reason.
48 00:03:15,888 00:03:17,924 I mean, maybe she was trying to keep I mean, maybe she was trying to keep
49 00:03:17,957 00:03:21,526 something about my father from me for a reason. something about my father from me for a reason.
50 00:03:21,560 00:03:23,663 Or maybe she didn't want to deal with you, Or maybe she didn't want to deal with you,
51 00:03:23,696 00:03:25,698 you know, asking questions about him, you know, asking questions about him,
52 00:03:25,731 00:03:27,465 wanting to know more about him. wanting to know more about him.
53 00:03:28,400 00:03:31,436 Maybe she thought that would be too painful. Maybe she thought that would be too painful.
54 00:03:32,872 00:03:34,207 For me? For me?
55 00:03:35,540 00:03:36,876 For her. For her.
56 00:03:37,844 00:03:39,979 Have you ever considered that you might be teeing up Have you ever considered that you might be teeing up
57 00:03:40,012 00:03:42,949 the same exact circumstances for your daughters? the same exact circumstances for your daughters?
58 00:03:47,053 00:03:48,287 The Soviet union announced The Soviet union announced
59 00:03:48,321 00:03:50,957 it will not participate in the Los Angeles summer Olympics it will not participate in the Los Angeles summer Olympics
60 00:03:50,990 00:03:52,758 in retaliation for the American boycott in retaliation for the American boycott
61 00:03:52,792 00:03:55,294 of the 1980 Moscow Olympics. of the 1980 Moscow Olympics.
62 00:03:55,328 00:03:58,097 In national news, as the campaign for November heats up, In national news, as the campaign for November heats up,
63 00:03:58,130 00:03:59,497 president Reagan said today- president Reagan said today-
64 00:03:59,531 00:04:01,533 - Just go ahead and set the boxes there. - Just go ahead and set the boxes there.
65 00:04:03,435 00:04:04,937 There's one more. There's one more.
66 00:04:04,971 00:04:05,938 Can you get it please? Can you get it please?
67 00:04:05,972 00:04:07,006 Why can't Shanna get it? Why can't Shanna get it?
68 00:04:07,039 00:04:08,373 Mindy. Mindy.
69 00:04:12,311 00:04:13,578 Stuff must be old. Stuff must be old.
70 00:04:13,612 00:04:14,881 About 40 years. About 40 years.
71 00:04:15,848 00:04:17,183 Looks like a lot of junk. Looks like a lot of junk.
72 00:04:19,051 00:04:21,386 I'm sure has some value to it I'm sure has some value to it
73 00:04:21,419 00:04:24,190 if Nana held on to it for that long, right? if Nana held on to it for that long, right?
74 00:04:24,223 00:04:25,557 I miss her. I miss her.
75 00:04:28,194 00:04:29,662 Me too. Me too.
76 00:04:29,695 00:04:32,031 You know, she lived a long life, right? You know, she lived a long life, right?
77 00:04:32,064 00:04:33,900 Now, she's with your grandfather. Now, she's with your grandfather.
78 00:04:33,933 00:04:35,935 Yeah, she used to talk about him sometimes. Yeah, she used to talk about him sometimes.
79 00:04:35,968 00:04:37,469 Grandpa Harold. Grandpa Harold.
80 00:04:38,070 00:04:39,305 Gerald. Gerald.
81 00:04:39,338 00:04:40,640 What? What?
82 00:04:40,673 00:04:44,176 My dad's name was Gerald, so it'd be Grandpa Gerald. My dad's name was Gerald, so it'd be Grandpa Gerald.
83 00:04:46,312 00:04:48,047 - Thank you. - Am I done now? - Thank you. - Am I done now?
84 00:04:48,080 00:04:49,081 Yes, you're done now. Yes, you're done now.
85 00:04:49,115 00:04:51,516 Good, I hate it down here, it smells so musty. Good, I hate it down here, it smells so musty.
86 00:06:20,006 00:06:22,441 This is W-2-A-S-D. This is W-2-A-S-D.
87 00:06:22,475 00:06:25,711 Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta. Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta.
88 00:06:27,380 00:06:32,385 This is H-8-A-9-Q-R-L. How are you, Eva? This is H-8-A-9-Q-R-L. How are you, Eva?
89 00:06:33,618 00:06:35,955 I feel like people are watching me. I feel like people are watching me.
90 00:06:35,988 00:06:38,190 I feel eyes on me all the time. I feel eyes on me all the time.
91 00:06:39,125 00:06:40,893 I just want to feel safe. I just want to feel safe.
92 00:06:42,094 00:06:44,397 I'm doing the best I can here. I'm doing the best I can here.
93 00:06:44,430 00:06:47,033 You're crazy, you know that? You're crazy, you know that?
94 00:06:47,066 00:06:48,467 I know. I know.
95 00:06:48,501 00:06:51,337 Relax, nobody's watching you. Relax, nobody's watching you.
96 00:06:53,105 00:06:54,907 How do you know that? How do you know that?
97 00:06:54,940 00:06:57,609 You're just a normal American woman. You're just a normal American woman.
98 00:06:58,878 00:07:00,146 Who'd be watching you? Who'd be watching you?
99 00:07:01,013 00:07:02,014 I don't know. I don't know.
100 00:07:03,682 00:07:04,683 I don't know. I don't know.
101 00:07:08,921 00:07:10,723 I just feel so alone. I just feel so alone.
102 00:07:10,756 00:07:15,161 So, go out, meet people, have a drink, dance. So, go out, meet people, have a drink, dance.
103 00:07:15,995 00:07:17,696 You know I can't do that. You know I can't do that.
104 00:07:18,631 00:07:22,234 Copy that, then I can't help you. Copy that, then I can't help you.
105 00:07:27,640 00:07:28,974 Shit. Shit.
106 00:07:38,984 00:07:41,586 Breaker breaker. No, that's CB's. Breaker breaker. No, that's CB's.
107 00:07:45,758 00:07:48,227 Hello out there, anybody home? Hello out there, anybody home?
108 00:07:56,035 00:07:57,503 Very Dangerous. Very Dangerous.
109 00:07:59,472 00:08:01,340 Hello, this is William. Hello, this is William.
110 00:08:01,373 00:08:03,342 Who's out there? I'm picking you up. Who's out there? I'm picking you up.
111 00:08:04,677 00:08:08,814 This is K-2-W-M-O. Can you hear me? This is K-2-W-M-O. Can you hear me?
112 00:08:11,450 00:08:15,387 Careful! It's not what it seams. Careful! It's not what it seams.
113 00:08:17,823 00:08:19,725 Hello, I'm not making that out. Hello, I'm not making that out.
114 00:08:21,627 00:08:22,962 Hello? Hello?
115 00:08:25,131 00:08:26,799 Can you hear me? Can you hear me?
116 00:08:41,113 00:08:42,214 What are you reading? What are you reading?
117 00:08:43,916 00:08:47,186 Protocols for using that radio downstairs. Protocols for using that radio downstairs.
118 00:08:47,219 00:08:48,888 You're gonna use that old thing? You're gonna use that old thing?
119 00:08:50,022 00:08:51,857 Why not? Might be fun. Why not? Might be fun.
120 00:08:52,825 00:08:54,894 Get me in touch with my dad, maybe. Get me in touch with my dad, maybe.
121 00:08:54,927 00:08:57,496 Maybe you can connect with him on the other side. Maybe you can connect with him on the other side.
122 00:08:58,898 00:08:59,865 I don't think I could afford I don't think I could afford
123 00:08:59,899 00:09:02,001 that long distance bill, honey. that long distance bill, honey.
124 00:09:02,034 00:09:03,335 Who'd want to talk to dead people? Who'd want to talk to dead people?
125 00:09:03,369 00:09:05,771 I think it'd be cool, don't you think? I think it'd be cool, don't you think?
126 00:09:07,406 00:09:10,142 Well, it'd certainly be interesting, that's for sure. Well, it'd certainly be interesting, that's for sure.
127 00:09:18,217 00:09:19,552 Okay. Okay.
128 00:09:20,452 00:09:22,922 Use QC as a general... Use QC as a general...
129 00:09:25,357 00:09:26,458 Let's give this a try. Let's give this a try.
130 00:09:28,928 00:09:32,765 Calling QC, is anybody on this frequency? Calling QC, is anybody on this frequency?
131 00:09:35,501 00:09:36,869 Calling QC. Calling QC.
132 00:09:38,904 00:09:43,909 This is W-2-A-S-D Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta. This is W-2-A-S-D Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta.
133 00:09:44,076 00:09:46,512 Who is this? What's your call number? Who is this? What's your call number?
134 00:09:46,545 00:09:50,182 Me? It's K-2-W-M-O. Me? It's K-2-W-M-O.
135 00:09:51,584 00:09:54,153 Do you have a handle, K-2-W-M-O? Do you have a handle, K-2-W-M-O?
136 00:09:57,723 00:10:00,694 Traveling man? What's yours? Traveling man? What's yours?
137 00:10:02,094 00:10:03,128 Melder girl. Melder girl.
138 00:10:04,463 00:10:06,498 It's nice to meet your Melder girl. It's nice to meet your Melder girl.
139 00:10:06,532 00:10:07,667 Whereabouts are you? Whereabouts are you?
140 00:10:09,201 00:10:11,470 Why do you want to know that? Why do you want to know that?
141 00:10:11,503 00:10:13,739 No reason really, just curious. No reason really, just curious.
142 00:10:14,940 00:10:16,208 I'm really, really new at this. I'm really, really new at this.
143 00:10:16,242 00:10:18,777 So, I don't know how far away you can reach people. So, I don't know how far away you can reach people.
144 00:10:19,912 00:10:22,615 You can reach people all over the world. You can reach people all over the world.
145 00:10:22,649 00:10:24,350 No shit. No shit.
146 00:10:24,383 00:10:25,719 No shit. No shit.
147 00:10:28,254 00:10:29,588 New York. New York.
148 00:10:30,322 00:10:31,658 I'm sorry, what? I'm sorry, what?
149 00:10:32,692 00:10:33,959 I live in New York. I live in New York.
150 00:10:34,793 00:10:35,861 The city? The city?
151 00:10:37,229 00:10:40,432 No, small town in New York state. No, small town in New York state.
152 00:10:41,367 00:10:42,434 Hey, me too. Hey, me too.
153 00:10:42,468 00:10:43,769 What are the odds, huh? What are the odds, huh?
154 00:10:45,337 00:10:47,172 Well, you know, it is a big state, Well, you know, it is a big state,
155 00:10:47,206 00:10:48,642 lot of people live here. lot of people live here.
156 00:10:49,743 00:10:51,310 So, what town do you live in? So, what town do you live in?
157 00:10:52,778 00:10:54,446 I'd prefer not to say. I'd prefer not to say.
158 00:10:55,547 00:10:58,350 Okay. I mean, upstate, downstate? Okay. I mean, upstate, downstate?
159 00:11:00,419 00:11:01,887 Let's just say New York state Let's just say New York state
160 00:11:01,920 00:11:03,489 and leave it at that, shall we? and leave it at that, shall we?
161 00:11:04,490 00:11:05,824 Okay. Okay.
162 00:11:07,593 00:11:09,328 Do you like baseball? Do you like baseball?
163 00:11:09,361 00:11:10,462 No. No.
164 00:11:10,496 00:11:12,831 Okay. This is why I don't date. Okay. This is why I don't date.
165 00:11:14,300 00:11:16,201 I'm sorry, I didn't catch that. Come again. I'm sorry, I didn't catch that. Come again.
166 00:11:16,235 00:11:19,138 I said, is anything interesting going on I said, is anything interesting going on
167 00:11:19,171 00:11:21,974 around where you are, wherever you happen to be living? around where you are, wherever you happen to be living?
168 00:11:23,442 00:11:27,112 Nothing interesting ever happens to me around here. Nothing interesting ever happens to me around here.
169 00:11:27,146 00:11:29,148 Same day, same song, as they say. Same day, same song, as they say.
170 00:11:30,182 00:11:32,418 See, now I know exactly where you are. See, now I know exactly where you are.
171 00:11:34,586 00:11:36,555 What do you mean by that? What do you mean by that?
172 00:11:36,588 00:11:39,325 You know what? You know where I live? You know what? You know where I live?
173 00:11:39,358 00:11:40,426 I was just kidding. I was just kidding.
174 00:11:42,828 00:11:44,163 Sorry. Sorry.
175 00:11:44,530 00:11:45,732 Don't worry, my daughters Don't worry, my daughters
176 00:11:45,765 00:11:47,499 don't get my sense of humor either. don't get my sense of humor either.
177 00:11:49,268 00:11:50,336 So, you're married? So, you're married?
178 00:11:51,470 00:11:55,809 I was, she died a couple of years ago, leukemia. I was, she died a couple of years ago, leukemia.
179 00:11:57,142 00:11:58,377 Sorry to hear that. Sorry to hear that.
180 00:11:59,878 00:12:03,182 So am I, how about you, are you married? So am I, how about you, are you married?
181 00:12:05,284 00:12:06,618 No. No.
182 00:12:07,319 00:12:08,420 Boyfriend? Boyfriend?
183 00:12:10,622 00:12:12,124 Not anymore. Not anymore.
184 00:12:12,659 00:12:14,026 I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sorry to hear that.
185 00:12:15,729 00:12:17,596 Well, I guess. Well, I guess.
186 00:12:17,630 00:12:19,766 You know I'm like a lot of other women these days. You know I'm like a lot of other women these days.
187 00:12:19,799 00:12:22,968 I mean, so many men have come and gone. I mean, so many men have come and gone.
188 00:12:24,236 00:12:25,404 Tough love life, huh? Tough love life, huh?
189 00:12:27,906 00:12:30,376 I prefer not to talk about this. I prefer not to talk about this.
190 00:12:31,678 00:12:33,713 I'm sorry, I wasn't meaning to be nosy. I'm sorry, I wasn't meaning to be nosy.
191 00:12:36,148 00:12:37,483 It's jake. It's jake.
192 00:12:38,584 00:12:40,018 Did you just say it's jake? Did you just say it's jake?
193 00:12:41,387 00:12:42,388 Yeah. Yeah.
194 00:12:42,421 00:12:45,324 God, I haven't heard that expression in years. God, I haven't heard that expression in years.
195 00:12:45,357 00:12:47,827 Well, jake, you know, it means it's okay, Well, jake, you know, it means it's okay,
196 00:12:47,861 00:12:49,895 everything's fine, like that. everything's fine, like that.
197 00:12:49,928 00:12:50,896 No, I know what it means, No, I know what it means,
198 00:12:50,929 00:12:52,998 my grandfather used to use it all the time. my grandfather used to use it all the time.
199 00:12:54,533 00:12:56,568 You actually sound familiar to me. You actually sound familiar to me.
200 00:12:56,602 00:12:58,070 I wonder if we've met before. I wonder if we've met before.
201 00:12:59,639 00:13:00,807 I doubt that. I doubt that.
202 00:13:04,811 00:13:07,012 I'm gonna have to sign off now, Traveling man, I'm gonna have to sign off now, Traveling man,
203 00:13:07,045 00:13:08,715 the boys here with the groceries. the boys here with the groceries.
204 00:13:10,850 00:13:14,253 Copy that, hopefully we'll find each other again. Copy that, hopefully we'll find each other again.
205 00:13:17,690 00:13:19,692 That is so cool. That is so cool.
206 00:13:21,593 00:13:23,962 Grocery delivery, she lives in the city. Grocery delivery, she lives in the city.
207 00:13:29,769 00:13:30,737 Who is it? Who is it?
208 00:13:30,770 00:13:32,271 It's Billy. It's Billy.
209 00:13:34,940 00:13:36,375 Over there as usual please. Over there as usual please.
210 00:13:39,679 00:13:41,947 Mr. Krotter says he's all out of sugar, Mr. Krotter says he's all out of sugar,
211 00:13:41,980 00:13:44,283 but hopefully he'll get some in by maybe next week. but hopefully he'll get some in by maybe next week.
212 00:13:45,317 00:13:46,653 Oh well. Oh well.
213 00:13:47,687 00:13:50,122 I guess that means no cookies for me. I guess that means no cookies for me.
214 00:13:50,155 00:13:51,290 Cookies!? Cookies!?
215 00:13:51,323 00:13:53,827 My ma hasn't baked anything sweet in such a long time. My ma hasn't baked anything sweet in such a long time.
216 00:13:53,860 00:13:55,260 Well, it's better for you. Well, it's better for you.
217 00:13:57,129 00:13:58,096 What is it? What is it?
218 00:13:58,130 00:14:00,165 It's $2.40 today, ma'am. It's $2.40 today, ma'am.
219 00:14:06,773 00:14:08,574 There we go. There we go.
220 00:14:08,607 00:14:12,010 Thanks, miss Saints, see you next week. Thanks, miss Saints, see you next week.
221 00:14:33,700 00:14:35,635 God, I remember this. God, I remember this.
222 00:15:17,242 00:15:19,411 "Sir William and I were playing catch this afternoon "Sir William and I were playing catch this afternoon
223 00:15:19,444 00:15:21,513 until it got too dark to see. until it got too dark to see.
224 00:15:23,448 00:15:25,018 Kids got a great arm." Kids got a great arm."
225 00:15:27,286 00:15:28,788 I had a great arm. I had a great arm.
226 00:15:30,188 00:15:31,256 Sir William. Sir William.
227 00:15:32,157 00:15:34,226 God, I forgot all about that. God, I forgot all about that.
228 00:15:37,229 00:15:39,097 Point taken Dr. Jennings. Point taken Dr. Jennings.
229 00:15:39,999 00:15:41,901 Dad, you down there? Dad, you down there?
230 00:15:41,935 00:15:43,468 Yeah. Yeah.
231 00:15:43,502 00:15:45,537 The spaghetti sauce is burning. The spaghetti sauce is burning.
232 00:15:46,639 00:15:48,507 Did you turn the burner off? Did you turn the burner off?
233 00:15:48,540 00:15:49,876 No. No.
234 00:15:50,342 00:15:51,711 Well, Mindy... Well, Mindy...
235 00:16:01,788 00:16:03,355 So, how was school today? So, how was school today?
236 00:16:03,388 00:16:04,958 Boring as always. Boring as always.
237 00:16:04,991 00:16:06,391 That's because you don't have friends. That's because you don't have friends.
238 00:16:06,425 00:16:07,860 - I do too. - Girls. - I do too. - Girls.
239 00:16:09,929 00:16:11,965 I have a stupid history test tomorrow, I have a stupid history test tomorrow,
240 00:16:11,998 00:16:13,565 who cares about history? who cares about history?
241 00:16:15,267 00:16:16,535 On what? On what?
242 00:16:16,568 00:16:17,904 World War II. World War II.
243 00:16:17,937 00:16:20,539 So stupid, it's 1984, So stupid, it's 1984,
244 00:16:20,572 00:16:23,609 who cares about some dumb war anyways? who cares about some dumb war anyways?
245 00:16:23,643 00:16:24,877 I don't think it was dumb for the people I don't think it was dumb for the people
246 00:16:24,911 00:16:27,080 that were living back then. that were living back then.
247 00:16:27,112 00:16:28,580 Were you in the war, dad? Were you in the war, dad?
248 00:16:28,614 00:16:30,783 No honey, I'm not that old. No honey, I'm not that old.
249 00:16:30,817 00:16:31,918 I mean, I was alive back then, I mean, I was alive back then,
250 00:16:31,951 00:16:34,286 but I was younger than the two of you. but I was younger than the two of you.
251 00:16:34,319 00:16:35,855 Did he know anyone who died? Did he know anyone who died?
252 00:16:37,890 00:16:41,894 My two uncles, my dad's brothers, they were both killed. My two uncles, my dad's brothers, they were both killed.
253 00:16:44,262 00:16:46,398 How come your father didn't join the war? How come your father didn't join the war?
254 00:16:49,234 00:16:51,904 He had a problem with the hearing in one of his ears. He had a problem with the hearing in one of his ears.
255 00:16:51,938 00:16:54,306 Bet he was glad to get out of it. Bet he was glad to get out of it.
256 00:16:54,339 00:16:55,374 I don't think so. I don't think so.
257 00:16:55,407 00:16:58,143 I think he was really upset that he couldn't go. I think he was really upset that he couldn't go.
258 00:16:58,176 00:16:59,411 Why? Why?
259 00:16:59,444 00:17:00,713 Things were different back then. Things were different back then.
260 00:17:00,747 00:17:04,182 A lot of people were very patriotic during the war. A lot of people were very patriotic during the war.
261 00:17:04,216 00:17:06,551 It was America all the way. It was America all the way.
262 00:17:06,585 00:17:07,552 Bet they'd feel different Bet they'd feel different
263 00:17:07,586 00:17:09,689 if they had to read about it all the time. if they had to read about it all the time.
264 00:17:13,860 00:17:16,095 I started going through my father's stuff I started going through my father's stuff
265 00:17:16,129 00:17:19,899 and one of the things is his old ham radio. and one of the things is his old ham radio.
266 00:17:19,932 00:17:22,035 And I plugged it in and it still works. And I plugged it in and it still works.
267 00:17:24,202 00:17:25,537 But... But...
268 00:17:26,839 00:17:28,841 But what? But what?
269 00:17:28,875 00:17:31,243 None of that stuff is really stirring things up None of that stuff is really stirring things up
270 00:17:31,276 00:17:32,511 like I hoped it would. like I hoped it would.
271 00:17:33,345 00:17:35,014 Like for instance, I came across Like for instance, I came across
272 00:17:35,048 00:17:36,348 this old checkered handkerchief this old checkered handkerchief
273 00:17:36,381 00:17:37,817 that he used to carry around all the time. that he used to carry around all the time.
274 00:17:37,850 00:17:39,518 And I remembered that he used to And I remembered that he used to
275 00:17:39,551 00:17:42,254 tie it around my face sometimes like an outlaw's mask. tie it around my face sometimes like an outlaw's mask.
276 00:17:43,388 00:17:45,323 So, I'm picking up a thing or two here and there So, I'm picking up a thing or two here and there
277 00:17:45,357 00:17:49,461 but I don't remember, remember. but I don't remember, remember.
278 00:17:49,494 00:17:53,265 You know, that darkness is still there. You know, that darkness is still there.
279 00:17:54,266 00:17:57,870 You know, the mind is a complicated, tricky thing. You know, the mind is a complicated, tricky thing.
280 00:17:57,904 00:18:01,007 That's why it's so important that we try different things That's why it's so important that we try different things
281 00:18:01,040 00:18:03,408 because we never know what's going to stick. because we never know what's going to stick.
282 00:18:03,442 00:18:06,079 And I know you think I'm pitching hypnosis here, And I know you think I'm pitching hypnosis here,
283 00:18:06,112 00:18:08,246 but I'm not, all right. but I'm not, all right.
284 00:18:08,280 00:18:10,983 I actually think it's pretty important I actually think it's pretty important
285 00:18:11,017 00:18:12,785 that you go through your father's belongings that you go through your father's belongings
286 00:18:12,819 00:18:15,253 on a number of levels. on a number of levels.
287 00:18:15,287 00:18:17,790 It actually might bring you out of this darkness. It actually might bring you out of this darkness.
288 00:18:19,092 00:18:20,525 It's just so irritating. It's just so irritating.
289 00:18:21,493 00:18:24,864 I know something happened, but I can't just assume I know something happened, but I can't just assume
290 00:18:24,897 00:18:26,498 that it has anything to do with my father's death. that it has anything to do with my father's death.
291 00:18:26,531 00:18:28,467 That could be a complete coincidence. That could be a complete coincidence.
292 00:18:29,635 00:18:33,806 If you believe in coincidences, which I don't. If you believe in coincidences, which I don't.
293 00:18:41,914 00:18:43,448 "Well, I was at the hardware store, "Well, I was at the hardware store,
294 00:18:43,482 00:18:46,284 a woman came in, never saw her before. a woman came in, never saw her before.
295 00:18:46,318 00:18:48,654 Told Chubby she had just moved to town. Told Chubby she had just moved to town.
296 00:18:49,822 00:18:51,190 I tried to introduce myself I tried to introduce myself
297 00:18:51,224 00:18:52,892 but she gave me the greasy eye. but she gave me the greasy eye.
298 00:18:52,925 00:18:56,361 Not my type, still there was something about her. Not my type, still there was something about her.
299 00:18:56,394 00:18:57,462 Looked like the sort of dame Looked like the sort of dame
300 00:18:57,496 00:18:59,699 that might enjoy a good tumble." that might enjoy a good tumble."
301 00:19:02,769 00:19:04,771 The things you don't want to know about your dad. The things you don't want to know about your dad.
302 00:19:08,440 00:19:09,508 William! William!
303 00:19:13,411 00:19:14,747 William! William!
304 00:19:21,620 00:19:23,923 Hello, who's out there? Hello, who's out there?
305 00:19:28,326 00:19:29,561 Hello? Hello?
306 00:19:32,064 00:19:33,633 Hello? Hello?
307 00:20:05,832 00:20:10,236 This is W-2-A-S-D Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta. This is W-2-A-S-D Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta.
308 00:20:11,170 00:20:13,505 Traveling man, are you on the air? Traveling man, are you on the air?
309 00:20:14,406 00:20:16,108 Traveling man? Traveling man?
310 00:20:16,142 00:20:18,978 This is Traveling man, Melder girl? This is Traveling man, Melder girl?
311 00:20:19,011 00:20:20,345 Copy. Copy.
312 00:20:22,514 00:20:23,716 Didn't have much to do today, Didn't have much to do today,
313 00:20:23,749 00:20:26,118 so, I thought I'd reach out. so, I thought I'd reach out.
314 00:20:26,152 00:20:27,619 I'm here. I'm here.
315 00:20:27,653 00:20:29,088 Can I ask you a question? Can I ask you a question?
316 00:20:29,922 00:20:31,157 Shoot. Shoot.
317 00:20:31,190 00:20:32,859 I'm sorry, come again. I'm sorry, come again.
318 00:20:32,892 00:20:35,560 Yeah, go ahead and ask your question. Yeah, go ahead and ask your question.
319 00:20:35,594 00:20:39,232 So, why Traveling man? Are you a salesman or something? So, why Traveling man? Are you a salesman or something?
320 00:20:40,233 00:20:42,168 No, I'm a post-harvest consultant No, I'm a post-harvest consultant
321 00:20:42,201 00:20:44,569 and it takes me overseas a lot. and it takes me overseas a lot.
322 00:20:44,603 00:20:46,806 What's post-harvest? What's post-harvest?
323 00:20:46,839 00:20:49,242 It's an agriculture term. It's an agriculture term.
324 00:20:49,275 00:20:52,377 Basically, I show people how to store their crops Basically, I show people how to store their crops
325 00:20:52,410 00:20:55,114 after they harvest them so that they get after they harvest them so that they get
326 00:20:55,147 00:20:58,184 as much longevity out of them as possible before they spoil. as much longevity out of them as possible before they spoil.
327 00:20:59,218 00:21:01,586 Sounds like it's very important. Sounds like it's very important.
328 00:21:01,620 00:21:03,055 In some regions of the world In some regions of the world
329 00:21:03,089 00:21:05,992 It's the difference between living and starving to death. It's the difference between living and starving to death.
330 00:21:06,025 00:21:07,326 It's very important. It's very important.
331 00:21:08,227 00:21:10,630 You sound very passionate about it. You sound very passionate about it.
332 00:21:10,663 00:21:12,298 Well, I grew up on a farm Well, I grew up on a farm
333 00:21:12,331 00:21:14,066 and I used to work in a grocery store. and I used to work in a grocery store.
334 00:21:14,100 00:21:17,602 So, I guess you could say foods been a big part of my life. So, I guess you could say foods been a big part of my life.
335 00:21:18,570 00:21:21,007 So, you still have the farm? So, you still have the farm?
336 00:21:21,040 00:21:23,643 No, my mom sold that a long time ago, No, my mom sold that a long time ago,
337 00:21:23,676 00:21:25,044 after I left school and decided after I left school and decided
338 00:21:25,077 00:21:26,646 I wanted to become a professor. I wanted to become a professor.
339 00:21:28,114 00:21:31,651 Professor, huh? Very impressive. Professor, huh? Very impressive.
340 00:21:31,684 00:21:33,920 Oh, it is very, very impressive. Oh, it is very, very impressive.
341 00:21:33,953 00:21:37,123 Especially if you love red tape and ass kissing, Especially if you love red tape and ass kissing,
342 00:21:37,156 00:21:38,391 which I don't like either one. which I don't like either one.
343 00:21:38,423 00:21:42,328 So, that's why I left teaching and went into consulting. So, that's why I left teaching and went into consulting.
344 00:21:42,361 00:21:44,297 I think it makes more of an impact anyway. I think it makes more of an impact anyway.
345 00:21:44,330 00:21:46,832 And you know, I get to do a lot of traveling. And you know, I get to do a lot of traveling.
346 00:21:48,100 00:21:50,836 Hence the handle Traveling man. Okay, I got it. Hence the handle Traveling man. Okay, I got it.
347 00:21:51,904 00:21:54,874 So, what about you? What do you do for a living? So, what about you? What do you do for a living?
348 00:21:54,907 00:21:57,442 Nothing anymore, I inherited some money. Nothing anymore, I inherited some money.
349 00:21:58,610 00:22:00,279 Life of leisure, huh? Life of leisure, huh?
350 00:22:01,881 00:22:02,915 Not really. Not really.
351 00:22:03,849 00:22:05,251 Do you travel at all? Do you travel at all?
352 00:22:06,118 00:22:08,654 Used to, not much anymore. Used to, not much anymore.
353 00:22:09,822 00:22:11,357 Have you ever been to Europe? Have you ever been to Europe?
354 00:22:14,293 00:22:16,461 Why do you want to know that? Why do you want to know that?
355 00:22:17,930 00:22:19,932 No reason, just curious. No reason, just curious.
356 00:22:23,402 00:22:25,004 Yes, I've been to Europe. Yes, I've been to Europe.
357 00:22:26,072 00:22:28,741 I just got back, I was there a couple of weeks ago. I just got back, I was there a couple of weeks ago.
358 00:22:29,775 00:22:32,745 I think it'd break my heart to see it now. I think it'd break my heart to see it now.
359 00:22:32,778 00:22:34,180 I thought it was amazing. I thought it was amazing.
360 00:22:34,213 00:22:36,182 I mean, just absolutely beautiful. I mean, just absolutely beautiful.
361 00:22:36,215 00:22:39,051 Especially if you're into the history of it. Especially if you're into the history of it.
362 00:22:39,085 00:22:40,386 Where did you go? Where did you go?
363 00:22:41,320 00:22:42,554 I was in London for a few days I was in London for a few days
364 00:22:42,587 00:22:45,057 and then went on to France and Germany. and then went on to France and Germany.
365 00:22:48,294 00:22:50,396 What do they look like now? What do they look like now?
366 00:22:50,429 00:22:52,965 What do they look like? I don't know. What do they look like? I don't know.
367 00:22:52,999 00:22:55,533 Like America, I guess, except different. Like America, I guess, except different.
368 00:22:55,567 00:22:57,370 I wasn't there working-working, I wasn't there working-working,
369 00:22:57,403 00:22:59,638 those countries don't need my expertise. those countries don't need my expertise.
370 00:22:59,672 00:23:03,409 We were actually there for a conference concerning Zimbabwe. We were actually there for a conference concerning Zimbabwe.
371 00:23:03,442 00:23:05,543 Dad, you down there? Dad, you down there?
372 00:23:05,577 00:23:07,680 I gotta be a Danny's in 10 minutes. I gotta be a Danny's in 10 minutes.
373 00:23:08,881 00:23:10,349 All right, I'll be right up. All right, I'll be right up.
374 00:23:12,485 00:23:14,286 Melder girl, my kids are calling me Melder girl, my kids are calling me
375 00:23:14,320 00:23:16,655 so, I've got to go, you have a great afternoon. so, I've got to go, you have a great afternoon.
376 00:23:22,094 00:23:23,429 Like America. Like America.
377 00:23:25,597 00:23:26,932 I doubt that. I doubt that.
378 00:25:16,442 00:25:19,545 I thought you guys didn't like it down here. I thought you guys didn't like it down here.
379 00:25:37,062 00:25:39,633 So, why aren't you sleeping well? So, why aren't you sleeping well?
380 00:25:39,665 00:25:42,768 I just had the dream about my father still being alive. I just had the dream about my father still being alive.
381 00:25:42,801 00:25:44,203 That's reoccurring? That's reoccurring?
382 00:25:44,236 00:25:45,538 It's actually expanding. It's actually expanding.
383 00:25:46,405 00:25:49,408 Not married, don't have kids. Not married, don't have kids.
384 00:25:49,441 00:25:53,279 It's just the two of us working my family's old farm. It's just the two of us working my family's old farm.
385 00:25:53,312 00:25:54,780 Interesting. Interesting.
386 00:25:54,813 00:25:57,850 And it's not disjointed like dreams usually are though. And it's not disjointed like dreams usually are though.
387 00:25:57,883 00:26:00,619 It's very common, very day-to-day feel. It's very common, very day-to-day feel.
388 00:26:00,654 00:26:02,021 In some ways it's reminiscent In some ways it's reminiscent
389 00:26:02,054 00:26:04,323 of that darkness we've been talking about of that darkness we've been talking about
390 00:26:04,356 00:26:08,727 in the sense that I feel it more than I actually see it, in the sense that I feel it more than I actually see it,
391 00:26:09,862 00:26:12,031 but it's still very real. but it's still very real.
392 00:26:12,064 00:26:15,301 But it isn't, and it certainly shouldn't be keeping you But it isn't, and it certainly shouldn't be keeping you
393 00:26:15,334 00:26:17,069 from a full night's rest. from a full night's rest.
394 00:26:17,102 00:26:18,737 Dreams are a way for our minds Dreams are a way for our minds
395 00:26:18,771 00:26:21,273 to work out our problems and our anxieties. to work out our problems and our anxieties.
396 00:26:21,307 00:26:23,475 They shouldn't be adding to them. They shouldn't be adding to them.
397 00:26:23,509 00:26:25,377 Let me know if this keeps up Let me know if this keeps up
398 00:26:25,411 00:26:27,880 and I'll prescribe something for you. and I'll prescribe something for you.
399 00:26:27,913 00:26:29,248 Okay. Okay.
400 00:26:44,830 00:26:46,765 Are you on the airway Melder girl? Are you on the airway Melder girl?
401 00:26:50,302 00:26:52,104 Melder girl, are you there? Melder girl, are you there?
402 00:26:55,574 00:26:56,643 Melder girl? Melder girl?
403 00:26:59,745 00:27:00,813 Melder girl? Melder girl?
404 00:27:07,019 00:27:09,656 This is Melder girl, Is this Traveling man? This is Melder girl, Is this Traveling man?
405 00:27:10,789 00:27:12,858 Hey, I didn't know if I'd catch you today. Hey, I didn't know if I'd catch you today.
406 00:27:12,891 00:27:16,996 You caught me, what you doing? You caught me, what you doing?
407 00:27:17,029 00:27:19,265 Not a whole lot, just did some running around. Not a whole lot, just did some running around.
408 00:27:19,298 00:27:22,368 Got some time to kill before I have to put dinner on. Got some time to kill before I have to put dinner on.
409 00:27:22,401 00:27:24,704 What is that noise that I keep hearing? What is that noise that I keep hearing?
410 00:27:26,038 00:27:27,373 What noise? What noise?
411 00:27:27,873 00:27:32,144 It's like jingling or metal or something like that. It's like jingling or metal or something like that.
412 00:27:32,177 00:27:35,047 Oh, it's 50 cent pieces. Oh, it's 50 cent pieces.
413 00:27:35,080 00:27:37,983 I carry a lot of change around with me, it's an old habit I carry a lot of change around with me, it's an old habit
414 00:27:38,017 00:27:39,653 and sometimes I wind up playing with them and sometimes I wind up playing with them
415 00:27:39,686 00:27:41,553 and don't even realize I'm doing it. and don't even realize I'm doing it.
416 00:27:42,554 00:27:44,056 Does it annoy you? Does it annoy you?
417 00:27:45,024 00:27:46,025 Yes. Yes.
418 00:27:47,026 00:27:48,360 Sorry. Sorry.
419 00:27:50,329 00:27:51,698 So, anything new with you? So, anything new with you?
420 00:27:52,632 00:27:54,800 Nothing ever changes where I am. Nothing ever changes where I am.
421 00:27:55,934 00:27:58,971 Oh, come on. Things change all the time. Oh, come on. Things change all the time.
422 00:27:59,004 00:28:02,141 Not to me they don't, I don't leave my house. Not to me they don't, I don't leave my house.
423 00:28:03,108 00:28:04,610 Never? Never?
424 00:28:04,644 00:28:06,178 Never. Never.
425 00:28:06,211 00:28:07,846 Why's that? Why's that?
426 00:28:07,880 00:28:11,751 I have a condition, it's extreme nervousness. I have a condition, it's extreme nervousness.
427 00:28:11,785 00:28:15,921 Every time I go outside, my heart starts to race. Every time I go outside, my heart starts to race.
428 00:28:15,954 00:28:20,025 I break into a sweat, I just feel like I'm gonna die. I break into a sweat, I just feel like I'm gonna die.
429 00:28:21,226 00:28:23,095 Well, that sounds like agoraphobia. Well, that sounds like agoraphobia.
430 00:28:24,129 00:28:25,464 What's that? What's that?
431 00:28:25,931 00:28:28,768 You've never heard of agoraphobia before? You've never heard of agoraphobia before?
432 00:28:28,802 00:28:30,369 No. No.
433 00:28:30,402 00:28:32,739 It's a psychological disorder. It's a psychological disorder.
434 00:28:32,772 00:28:36,542 Well, my doctor said it was extreme nervousness. Well, my doctor said it was extreme nervousness.
435 00:28:36,575 00:28:39,178 Well, what did your doctor prescribe? Well, what did your doctor prescribe?
436 00:28:39,211 00:28:40,446 Rest. Rest.
437 00:28:40,479 00:28:42,214 Rest, is that it? Rest, is that it?
438 00:28:42,247 00:28:44,083 There's medications that could help you There's medications that could help you
439 00:28:44,116 00:28:45,317 with this Melder girl. with this Melder girl.
440 00:28:46,352 00:28:47,853 Well, that wasn't mentioned. Well, that wasn't mentioned.
441 00:28:48,722 00:28:50,657 I'd get a second opinion. I'd get a second opinion.
442 00:28:50,690 00:28:52,391 A shrink could certainly help you. A shrink could certainly help you.
443 00:28:53,225 00:28:54,593 Did you say shrink? Did you say shrink?
444 00:28:55,461 00:28:56,796 Yeah. Yeah.
445 00:28:58,864 00:29:00,232 I don't understand. I don't understand.
446 00:29:00,265 00:29:02,836 Like what, I'm supposed to be smaller? Like what, I'm supposed to be smaller?
447 00:29:02,868 00:29:04,203 Smaller? No. Smaller? No.
448 00:29:05,170 00:29:06,605 Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't make you Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't make you
449 00:29:06,639 00:29:08,474 any less of a person, Melder girl. any less of a person, Melder girl.
450 00:29:09,642 00:29:13,245 What does a psychiatrist have to do with this? What does a psychiatrist have to do with this?
451 00:29:13,278 00:29:15,481 That's what we're talking about, a psychiatrist. That's what we're talking about, a psychiatrist.
452 00:29:15,514 00:29:16,716 You should see one to help you You should see one to help you
453 00:29:16,750 00:29:19,184 with being scared to leave your house. with being scared to leave your house.
454 00:29:19,218 00:29:20,854 Well thank you, no. Well thank you, no.
455 00:29:20,886 00:29:23,889 But I don't think I would enjoy electroshock very much. But I don't think I would enjoy electroshock very much.
456 00:29:25,190 00:29:27,493 Electroshock? They don't do that anymore. Electroshock? They don't do that anymore.
457 00:29:28,360 00:29:31,163 Lots of people see psychiatrists, Melder girl. Lots of people see psychiatrists, Melder girl.
458 00:29:31,196 00:29:32,832 I'm even seeing one right now. I'm even seeing one right now.
459 00:29:34,032 00:29:35,601 Why? What's wrong with you? Why? What's wrong with you?
460 00:29:38,671 00:29:41,039 I had a traumatic experience when I was young. I had a traumatic experience when I was young.
461 00:29:42,074 00:29:44,042 What happened? What happened?
462 00:29:44,076 00:29:46,011 I don't remember. I don't remember.
463 00:29:46,044 00:29:47,814 Well then how do you know it was traumatic Well then how do you know it was traumatic
464 00:29:47,847 00:29:49,883 If you can't remember? If you can't remember?
465 00:29:49,915 00:29:52,584 That is a fantastic question. That is a fantastic question.
466 00:29:53,653 00:29:56,622 And I'm currently spending $40 an hour trying to answer it. And I'm currently spending $40 an hour trying to answer it.
467 00:29:58,223 00:30:00,492 $40 An hour? $40 An hour?
468 00:30:01,593 00:30:03,996 I think I know what's causing your trauma. I think I know what's causing your trauma.
469 00:30:12,237 00:30:16,475 H-8-A-9-Q-R-L. Are you there? H-8-A-9-Q-R-L. Are you there?
470 00:30:18,010 00:30:20,012 How are you, Eva? How are you, Eva?
471 00:30:20,045 00:30:23,482 Han, where have you been? I've been trying to contact you. Han, where have you been? I've been trying to contact you.
472 00:30:24,349 00:30:25,852 Been hot here. Been hot here.
473 00:30:25,885 00:30:28,287 Are you still in Panama? Are you still in Panama?
474 00:30:28,320 00:30:30,522 Affirmative. Be moving soon. Affirmative. Be moving soon.
475 00:30:31,590 00:30:33,091 Why? Why?
476 00:30:33,125 00:30:34,727 Got some people to meet. Got some people to meet.
477 00:30:35,862 00:30:37,831 I wish I could come. I wish I could come.
478 00:30:37,864 00:30:39,866 I've always wanted to see South America. I've always wanted to see South America.
479 00:30:40,834 00:30:42,234 You're better there. You're better there.
480 00:30:43,736 00:30:44,737 I suppose so. I suppose so.
481 00:30:46,238 00:30:48,641 This nervousness is really getting to me. This nervousness is really getting to me.
482 00:30:49,876 00:30:51,043 Relax, Eva. Relax, Eva.
483 00:30:52,311 00:30:53,880 How's your project going there? How's your project going there?
484 00:30:55,380 00:30:57,784 It's been very successful. It's been very successful.
485 00:30:57,817 00:30:59,151 Good. Good.
486 00:31:01,186 00:31:05,457 Han, do you think we'll ever meet? Han, do you think we'll ever meet?
487 00:31:07,092 00:31:10,362 No. Signing off. No. Signing off.
488 00:31:47,901 00:31:50,870 K-2-W-M-O. K-2-W-M-O.
489 00:31:53,505 00:31:55,975 K-2-W-M-O, Traveling man. K-2-W-M-O, Traveling man.
490 00:31:56,843 00:31:58,510 Are you on the air? Are you on the air?
491 00:32:01,681 00:32:04,616 This is traveling man, Melder girl? This is traveling man, Melder girl?
492 00:32:04,651 00:32:05,985 Yeah. Yeah.
493 00:32:06,518 00:32:07,820 How are you doing today? How are you doing today?
494 00:32:08,955 00:32:10,556 Actually, I'm tired. Actually, I'm tired.
495 00:32:11,691 00:32:12,725 Late night, huh? Late night, huh?
496 00:32:14,192 00:32:16,595 No, I'm bored. No, I'm bored.
497 00:32:16,629 00:32:19,164 It's exhausting to have nothing to do all day. It's exhausting to have nothing to do all day.
498 00:32:20,033 00:32:22,869 Saps your brain cells and your body. Saps your brain cells and your body.
499 00:32:22,902 00:32:24,069 Well, what do you do all day Well, what do you do all day
500 00:32:24,102 00:32:26,572 if you don't ever leave your house? if you don't ever leave your house?
501 00:32:26,605 00:32:31,610 I don't know, I cook, I read books and magazines, I don't know, I cook, I read books and magazines,
502 00:32:31,711 00:32:34,279 I do puzzles, listen to the radio. I do puzzles, listen to the radio.
503 00:32:35,514 00:32:37,684 That sounds lonely. That sounds lonely.
504 00:32:37,717 00:32:39,052 Do you at least have cable? Do you at least have cable?
505 00:32:40,920 00:32:43,957 Cable? What, like overseas cables? Cable? What, like overseas cables?
506 00:32:43,990 00:32:46,358 No, like TV cable. No, like TV cable.
507 00:32:47,225 00:32:48,895 What is that? What is that?
508 00:32:49,729 00:32:52,230 You really have been secluded, haven't you? You really have been secluded, haven't you?
509 00:32:52,264 00:32:53,766 I mean, how long have you had this condition, I mean, how long have you had this condition,
510 00:32:53,800 00:32:55,434 this nervousness of yours? this nervousness of yours?
511 00:32:59,038 00:33:01,540 I don't know, I guess it's been bad I don't know, I guess it's been bad
512 00:33:01,573 00:33:02,875 for the last couple of months, for the last couple of months,
513 00:33:02,909 00:33:05,611 but really started about a year ago but really started about a year ago
514 00:33:05,645 00:33:07,179 when I came back to America. when I came back to America.
515 00:33:08,881 00:33:10,315 Where were you before that? Where were you before that?
516 00:33:11,183 00:33:14,921 I was living overseas, circumstances changed. I was living overseas, circumstances changed.
517 00:33:14,954 00:33:18,024 My mother died, probably from shame My mother died, probably from shame
518 00:33:18,057 00:33:20,693 that her daughter didn't live up to her expectations. that her daughter didn't live up to her expectations.
519 00:33:21,560 00:33:25,263 But anyway, came back and now I'm living in their house. But anyway, came back and now I'm living in their house.
520 00:33:26,633 00:33:29,669 Her hous? So, your dad's past as well? Her hous? So, your dad's past as well?
521 00:33:29,702 00:33:32,739 Yeah, it's probably the right thing Yeah, it's probably the right thing
522 00:33:32,772 00:33:34,473 to come back to America. to come back to America.
523 00:33:35,507 00:33:39,912 But it was scary. But it was scary.
524 00:33:39,946 00:33:42,882 I mean, I felt like everybody was watching me I mean, I felt like everybody was watching me
525 00:33:43,750 00:33:47,619 and judging me because I'd been living in Germany. and judging me because I'd been living in Germany.
526 00:33:47,654 00:33:51,590 And I just felt hostility everywhere from everybody. And I just felt hostility everywhere from everybody.
527 00:33:52,725 00:33:54,593 No, I doubt that was the case. No, I doubt that was the case.
528 00:33:54,626 00:33:56,863 That's probably a lot of that's in your head. That's probably a lot of that's in your head.
529 00:33:56,896 00:34:00,733 Maybe, but after a while I just went out less and less. Maybe, but after a while I just went out less and less.
530 00:34:02,200 00:34:05,738 I mean, when I went out, I just felt like I was gonna... I mean, when I went out, I just felt like I was gonna...
531 00:34:05,772 00:34:07,106 I was having a heart attack I was having a heart attack
532 00:34:08,041 00:34:12,277 and I would just feel enveloped by panic, it was awful. and I would just feel enveloped by panic, it was awful.
533 00:34:12,310 00:34:13,612 God, that's terrible. God, that's terrible.
534 00:34:14,781 00:34:16,015 Yeah it was. Yeah it was.
535 00:34:17,516 00:34:18,517 Is. Is.
536 00:34:19,584 00:34:21,754 So, you lived in Germany? So, you lived in Germany?
537 00:34:21,788 00:34:23,122 Yes. Yes.
538 00:34:23,690 00:34:25,323 For how long? For how long?
539 00:34:25,357 00:34:27,026 Couple of years. Couple of years.
540 00:34:27,060 00:34:29,062 Like I told you, I just got back. Like I told you, I just got back.
541 00:34:29,095 00:34:32,197 Did you get to see any of the sites while you lived there? Did you get to see any of the sites while you lived there?
542 00:34:32,230 00:34:33,766 Sites? Sites?
543 00:34:33,800 00:34:35,600 Yeah, well, I mean, we were in Munich, Yeah, well, I mean, we were in Munich,
544 00:34:35,635 00:34:38,171 but I'm not really into cities but I'm not really into cities
545 00:34:38,203 00:34:40,873 so this professor friend and I, so this professor friend and I,
546 00:34:40,907 00:34:45,812 we went around and we did the castles, the famous castles. we went around and we did the castles, the famous castles.
547 00:34:45,845 00:34:47,512 And there was one in particular, And there was one in particular,
548 00:34:53,452 00:34:56,089 I'm sure I'm butchering that, but... I'm sure I'm butchering that, but...
549 00:34:56,122 00:34:57,857 It's Neuschwanstein. It's Neuschwanstein.
550 00:34:57,890 00:34:59,125 That's it. That's it.
551 00:34:59,158 00:35:02,662 That place was amazing, I mean right out of sleeping beauty. That place was amazing, I mean right out of sleeping beauty.
552 00:35:02,695 00:35:05,164 You know, just real fairytale stuff. You know, just real fairytale stuff.
553 00:35:06,032 00:35:08,400 Oh, I know. I see it every morning. Oh, I know. I see it every morning.
554 00:35:09,468 00:35:10,636 How's that? How's that?
555 00:35:11,938 00:35:14,006 I have a picture of it on my wall. I have a picture of it on my wall.
556 00:35:17,143 00:35:20,947 Well, I'm gonna sign off now, I think. Well, I'm gonna sign off now, I think.
557 00:35:20,980 00:35:23,248 I'm really in desperate need of a cup of Joe. I'm really in desperate need of a cup of Joe.
558 00:35:24,316 00:35:25,718 Yeah, talk later. Yeah, talk later.
559 00:35:34,060 00:35:36,028 William. William.
560 00:35:59,852 00:36:03,022 This is K-2-W-M-O, who's out there? Over. This is K-2-W-M-O, who's out there? Over.
561 00:36:06,092 00:36:07,760 Who is this? Over. Who is this? Over.
562 00:36:10,696 00:36:12,497 Melder girl, was that you? Melder girl, was that you?
563 00:36:16,301 00:36:17,837 Melder girl, are you there? Melder girl, are you there?
564 00:36:25,178 00:36:26,344 This is weird. This is weird.
565 00:36:43,996 00:36:45,832 What kind of voices? What kind of voices?
566 00:36:46,866 00:36:51,871 It's hard to describe, but it's like echoey, incoherent. It's hard to describe, but it's like echoey, incoherent.
567 00:36:52,337 00:36:55,473 Voices coming out of a radio, who would've thought that? Voices coming out of a radio, who would've thought that?
568 00:36:55,507 00:36:56,909 You don't have to be an ass about it. You don't have to be an ass about it.
569 00:36:56,943 00:36:58,376 I know how it sounds. I know how it sounds.
570 00:36:58,410 00:37:01,513 It's just not the kind of, what you would expect to hear It's just not the kind of, what you would expect to hear
571 00:37:01,546 00:37:02,982 coming out of a radio. coming out of a radio.
572 00:37:03,015 00:37:04,784 Couldn't it just be people talking Couldn't it just be people talking
573 00:37:04,817 00:37:06,585 and you're hearing bits and pieces, and you're hearing bits and pieces,
574 00:37:06,618 00:37:07,920 fragments of their conversations? fragments of their conversations?
575 00:37:07,954 00:37:10,089 It's more familiar than that. It's more familiar than that.
576 00:37:10,122 00:37:12,859 I mean, I've literally heard my name more than once. I mean, I've literally heard my name more than once.
577 00:37:12,892 00:37:14,526 Your actual name? Your actual name?
578 00:37:14,559 00:37:17,964 Well, you know, that's actually an auditory memory. Well, you know, that's actually an auditory memory.
579 00:37:17,997 00:37:19,732 Especially if it's happening Especially if it's happening
580 00:37:19,765 00:37:21,533 when you're in a hypnagogic state. when you're in a hypnagogic state.
581 00:37:22,400 00:37:23,368 Hypnagogic. Hypnagogic.
582 00:37:23,401 00:37:25,238 Yeah, well that's that time, Yeah, well that's that time,
583 00:37:25,271 00:37:27,640 you know, between waking reality and sleep. you know, between waking reality and sleep.
584 00:37:29,275 00:37:30,542 But I'm not in bed. But I'm not in bed.
585 00:37:30,575 00:37:32,979 I'm not nodding off or anything, I'm perfectly awake. I'm not nodding off or anything, I'm perfectly awake.
586 00:37:33,012 00:37:35,047 Yeah, well, you know, a hypnagogic state, Yeah, well, you know, a hypnagogic state,
587 00:37:35,081 00:37:36,949 it's very common and it doesn't have to be it's very common and it doesn't have to be
588 00:37:36,983 00:37:38,450 at that time specifically. at that time specifically.
589 00:37:38,483 00:37:41,187 They've actually done studies on it. They've actually done studies on it.
590 00:37:41,220 00:37:42,188 You know, some people think You know, some people think
591 00:37:42,221 00:37:44,023 there's a metaphysical component to that, there's a metaphysical component to that,
592 00:37:44,056 00:37:46,225 but I don't buy into that. but I don't buy into that.
593 00:37:46,259 00:37:49,328 Just like you don't buy into coincidences. Just like you don't buy into coincidences.
594 00:37:49,362 00:37:52,031 You know, the mind's already shrouded in enough mystery You know, the mind's already shrouded in enough mystery
595 00:37:52,064 00:37:55,134 without taking on anything paranormal or supernatural. without taking on anything paranormal or supernatural.
596 00:37:56,102 00:37:58,403 I bet you're a lot of fun at story time I bet you're a lot of fun at story time
597 00:37:58,436 00:38:00,106 around the campfire. around the campfire.
598 00:38:38,077 00:38:39,611 What's that? What's that?
599 00:38:39,645 00:38:41,213 Some of your mom's things. Some of your mom's things.
600 00:38:42,081 00:38:43,783 I thought we could go through them. I thought we could go through them.
601 00:38:46,252 00:38:47,353 I thought you said- I thought you said-
602 00:38:47,386 00:38:48,453 - I know what I said, - I know what I said,
603 00:38:48,486 00:38:52,590 and I think it was wrong and I'm sorry about that. and I think it was wrong and I'm sorry about that.
604 00:38:53,759 00:38:55,094 Come on, let's take a look. Come on, let's take a look.
605 00:38:59,799 00:39:01,634 Doesn't it make you sad? Doesn't it make you sad?
606 00:39:01,667 00:39:04,670 Yeah, it does, a little, but it's important. Yeah, it does, a little, but it's important.
607 00:39:04,704 00:39:06,038 Why? Why?
608 00:39:06,973 00:39:08,908 Because family's important. Because family's important.
609 00:39:08,941 00:39:11,944 I mean I lost my dad when I was about your age I mean I lost my dad when I was about your age
610 00:39:11,978 00:39:13,913 and I didn't have a sense of him as a person and I didn't have a sense of him as a person
611 00:39:13,946 00:39:16,282 because Nana didn't like to talk about him after he died. because Nana didn't like to talk about him after he died.
612 00:39:16,315 00:39:17,917 Why not? Why not?
613 00:39:17,950 00:39:18,918 I don't know, honey. I don't know, honey.
614 00:39:18,951 00:39:20,186 I'm sure she had a reason. I'm sure she had a reason.
615 00:39:20,219 00:39:22,487 But not talking about him was very hard for me. But not talking about him was very hard for me.
616 00:39:22,520 00:39:24,957 And I don't want the same thing for the two of you. And I don't want the same thing for the two of you.
617 00:39:24,991 00:39:27,860 I don't want you to ever lose the image of your mom. I don't want you to ever lose the image of your mom.
618 00:39:27,893 00:39:29,527 I want you to always remember her I want you to always remember her
619 00:39:29,561 00:39:32,431 and always be able to keep that memory close. and always be able to keep that memory close.
620 00:39:32,465 00:39:34,200 I mean none of this is really that valuable, I mean none of this is really that valuable,
621 00:39:34,233 00:39:35,735 but she'd want you to have it. but she'd want you to have it.
622 00:39:36,635 00:39:37,770 Are those pictures? Are those pictures?
623 00:39:37,803 00:39:41,207 Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
624 00:39:41,240 00:39:43,676 And they're from when she was younger. And they're from when she was younger.
625 00:39:45,444 00:39:46,445 You look like her. You look like her.
626 00:39:47,913 00:39:50,016 You look just like her in this one. You look just like her in this one.
627 00:39:50,049 00:39:51,784 You actually both have her looks. You actually both have her looks.
628 00:39:52,752 00:39:54,519 You also have some of her mannerisms. You also have some of her mannerisms.
629 00:39:54,552 00:39:56,722 The way you say certain things. The way you say certain things.
630 00:39:58,357 00:40:00,092 I see her in both of you every day. I see her in both of you every day.
631 00:40:01,293 00:40:02,527 Can I keep this one? Can I keep this one?
632 00:40:02,560 00:40:04,529 You can keep all of it. You can keep all of it.
633 00:40:04,562 00:40:07,366 Everything in this box belongs to both of you now. Everything in this box belongs to both of you now.
634 00:40:34,827 00:40:37,696 Melder girl, this is Traveling man. Melder girl, this is Traveling man.
635 00:40:40,833 00:40:44,804 Melder girl? Melder girl?
636 00:40:44,837 00:40:46,338 Melder girl? Melder girl?
637 00:40:47,273 00:40:50,943 I'm here. I also think I'm a little drunk. I'm here. I also think I'm a little drunk.
638 00:40:52,311 00:40:54,280 I don't think I'm too far behind you. I don't think I'm too far behind you.
639 00:40:56,182 00:40:57,817 So, you drinking because you're happy So, you drinking because you're happy
640 00:40:57,850 00:40:59,785 or drowning your problems? or drowning your problems?
641 00:41:01,520 00:41:03,022 The last one. The last one.
642 00:41:03,522 00:41:05,157 I've been there. I've been there.
643 00:41:05,191 00:41:07,259 I'll tell you, the devil's hard to drown. I'll tell you, the devil's hard to drown.
644 00:41:08,160 00:41:11,130 I know I've been spending a lot of my days trying. I know I've been spending a lot of my days trying.
645 00:41:12,264 00:41:14,599 You know, the problem with being alone You know, the problem with being alone
646 00:41:14,633 00:41:17,203 is you just have all these thoughts is you just have all these thoughts
647 00:41:17,236 00:41:20,306 and you just, you don't have anybody to work them out with. and you just, you don't have anybody to work them out with.
648 00:41:21,407 00:41:24,210 So, they just sit there and go round and round in your head So, they just sit there and go round and round in your head
649 00:41:24,243 00:41:27,413 like some kind of crazy Ferris wheel. like some kind of crazy Ferris wheel.
650 00:41:29,415 00:41:31,750 Well, I'm here right now. You can talk to me. Well, I'm here right now. You can talk to me.
651 00:41:34,019 00:41:35,121 I don't know you. I don't know you.
652 00:41:36,621 00:41:38,157 That's what makes it perfect. That's what makes it perfect.
653 00:41:38,190 00:41:41,093 I mean, who better than a stranger to tell your problems to? I mean, who better than a stranger to tell your problems to?
654 00:41:42,461 00:41:43,462 Maybe. Maybe.
655 00:41:44,964 00:41:46,665 So, what's troubling you this evening, So, what's troubling you this evening,
656 00:41:46,699 00:41:48,200 Melder girl? Melder girl?
657 00:41:50,903 00:41:52,238 The past. The past.
658 00:41:53,572 00:41:55,241 Just doesn't want to let go of me. Just doesn't want to let go of me.
659 00:41:56,742 00:41:59,912 I guess a lot of people could say something like that. I guess a lot of people could say something like that.
660 00:41:59,945 00:42:03,549 I know my past's been haunting me for years. I know my past's been haunting me for years.
661 00:42:03,582 00:42:05,784 Why? What happened to you? Why? What happened to you?
662 00:42:05,818 00:42:07,253 I told you, I don't know. I told you, I don't know.
663 00:42:08,354 00:42:11,657 How can something you don't know haunt you? How can something you don't know haunt you?
664 00:42:12,625 00:42:16,262 'Cause I feel it, even if I can't remember it. 'Cause I feel it, even if I can't remember it.
665 00:42:16,295 00:42:18,831 Then how do you know it's bad? Then how do you know it's bad?
666 00:42:18,864 00:42:21,600 That's what my shrink and I are trying to figure out. That's what my shrink and I are trying to figure out.
667 00:42:22,835 00:42:24,170 Your what? Your what?
668 00:42:24,803 00:42:27,706 I told you I'm seeing this psychiatrist. I told you I'm seeing this psychiatrist.
669 00:42:29,141 00:42:31,277 Oh yeah, yeah, that's right. I remember. Oh yeah, yeah, that's right. I remember.
670 00:42:32,511 00:42:34,113 I don't know, Traveling man. I don't know, Traveling man.
671 00:42:35,481 00:42:38,017 I think I'd like to trade with you. I think I'd like to trade with you.
672 00:42:38,050 00:42:39,852 I'd like to forget my past. I'd like to forget my past.
673 00:42:41,287 00:42:42,454 I don't recommend it. I don't recommend it.
674 00:42:43,722 00:42:45,958 So, what are you trying to forget? So, what are you trying to forget?
675 00:42:45,991 00:42:47,326 Broken heart? Broken heart?
676 00:42:49,295 00:42:50,796 It's part of it. It's part of it.
677 00:42:51,730 00:42:53,465 Probably not like you think though. Probably not like you think though.
678 00:42:56,368 00:42:59,171 Can I ask you a personal question? Can I ask you a personal question?
679 00:42:59,205 00:43:00,773 Depends. What is it? Depends. What is it?
680 00:43:02,208 00:43:04,644 What's your name? Like your real name? What's your name? Like your real name?
681 00:43:06,612 00:43:08,747 Why do you want to know that? Why do you want to know that?
682 00:43:08,781 00:43:11,750 'Cause Melder girl's starting to sound like, 'Cause Melder girl's starting to sound like,
683 00:43:11,784 00:43:14,253 "Hey you" or "To whom it may concern". "Hey you" or "To whom it may concern".
684 00:43:16,922 00:43:19,992 It's Eva. What's yours? It's Eva. What's yours?
685 00:43:21,260 00:43:22,328 My name's William. My name's William.
686 00:43:24,096 00:43:25,564 Some people call me Will. Some people call me Will.
687 00:43:27,667 00:43:29,034 Most of them are gone now. Most of them are gone now.
688 00:43:30,569 00:43:33,172 You sound a little bit drunk yourself, Will. You sound a little bit drunk yourself, Will.
689 00:43:35,241 00:43:37,509 Either that or very sad. Either that or very sad.
690 00:43:40,946 00:43:41,947 The last one. The last one.
691 00:45:01,860 00:45:03,329 I was actually pretty close I was actually pretty close
692 00:45:03,362 00:45:05,097 to my mother growing up, you know? to my mother growing up, you know?
693 00:45:07,032 00:45:09,335 But all that ended when I lived abroad. But all that ended when I lived abroad.
694 00:45:11,537 00:45:14,373 She didn't approve of my attachments. She didn't approve of my attachments.
695 00:45:16,241 00:45:18,310 She just stopped talking to me, you know. She just stopped talking to me, you know.
696 00:45:19,178 00:45:22,114 She wouldn't answer my letters or my telegrams. She wouldn't answer my letters or my telegrams.
697 00:45:24,583 00:45:26,786 My mom and I were always close. My mom and I were always close.
698 00:45:27,654 00:45:31,056 Of course, my dad died when I was a kid, so it made sense Of course, my dad died when I was a kid, so it made sense
699 00:45:31,090 00:45:34,360 that we were sort of clinging to each other. that we were sort of clinging to each other.
700 00:45:36,362 00:45:38,964 I am sorry to hear about your mom though. I am sorry to hear about your mom though.
701 00:45:38,997 00:45:41,100 Yeah, me too. Yeah, me too.
702 00:45:41,133 00:45:43,435 But I don't regret my decisions. But I don't regret my decisions.
703 00:45:45,537 00:45:48,374 So, I want to ask you another personal question. So, I want to ask you another personal question.
704 00:45:48,407 00:45:52,645 It'll help me put a better mental picture of you in my mind. It'll help me put a better mental picture of you in my mind.
705 00:45:53,747 00:45:56,215 It's jake, go ahead. It's jake, go ahead.
706 00:45:58,951 00:46:00,052 How old are you? How old are you?
707 00:46:03,857 00:46:05,524 That is personal. That is personal.
708 00:46:06,693 00:46:09,094 I know better, but I'm drunk, so... I know better, but I'm drunk, so...
709 00:46:12,398 00:46:14,099 Let's just say I'm old enough. Let's just say I'm old enough.
710 00:46:16,068 00:46:18,170 That is a fantastic age. That is a fantastic age.
711 00:46:20,874 00:46:21,875 God. God.
712 00:46:23,342 00:46:25,277 We've been doing this all night. We've been doing this all night.
713 00:46:26,211 00:46:29,682 I know, it's been Saturday for a couple of hours now. I know, it's been Saturday for a couple of hours now.
714 00:46:30,983 00:46:32,117 You must be tired. You must be tired.
715 00:46:34,854 00:46:36,355 I am. I am.
716 00:46:40,359 00:46:41,360 Who is it? Who is it?
717 00:46:42,561 00:46:44,296 It's Billy. It's Billy.
718 00:46:45,264 00:46:47,032 Will, I gotta go now, Will, I gotta go now,
719 00:46:47,065 00:46:50,035 the kids here with the groceries, I'm gonna sign off. the kids here with the groceries, I'm gonna sign off.
720 00:46:51,570 00:46:54,206 Okay, talk to you later. Okay, talk to you later.
721 00:47:07,186 00:47:08,822 Put it over there. Put it over there.
722 00:47:11,691 00:47:14,092 It's $2.10 today, ma'am. It's $2.10 today, ma'am.
723 00:47:16,028 00:47:17,362 Here. Here.
724 00:47:18,530 00:47:19,732 What's wrong? What's wrong?
725 00:47:19,766 00:47:22,234 I forgot to bring change. I forgot to bring change.
726 00:47:22,267 00:47:25,404 How can you deliver groceries without change? How can you deliver groceries without change?
727 00:47:25,437 00:47:27,573 You should always have change on you. You should always have change on you.
728 00:47:29,107 00:47:32,277 Tell Mr. Krotter that he can have his ten cents next time. Tell Mr. Krotter that he can have his ten cents next time.
729 00:47:32,311 00:47:34,914 when his delivery boy does his job right. when his delivery boy does his job right.
730 00:47:34,948 00:47:37,349 But he'll take it out of my wages. But he'll take it out of my wages.
731 00:47:37,382 00:47:39,886 Price of an education, now beat it. Price of an education, now beat it.
732 00:48:03,041 00:48:04,376 God. God.
733 00:48:06,578 00:48:08,413 Don't get caught up, William. Don't get caught up, William.
734 00:48:10,717 00:48:12,652 It's not what it seems. It's not what it seems.
735 00:48:13,786 00:48:16,956 Live on the wrong side of the world. Live on the wrong side of the world.
736 00:48:16,990 00:48:19,591 Hello? Who is this? Hello? Who is this?
737 00:48:20,994 00:48:23,095 I think you're bleeding into my frequency. I think you're bleeding into my frequency.
738 00:48:24,029 00:48:25,264 What's your call number? What's your call number?
739 00:48:27,366 00:48:29,401 I found it. I found it.
740 00:48:39,611 00:48:41,648 Auditory memory my ass. Auditory memory my ass.
741 00:48:47,452 00:48:51,156 So, shouldn't I be laying on a couch or something? So, shouldn't I be laying on a couch or something?
742 00:48:51,189 00:48:53,625 Would that make you more comfortable? Would that make you more comfortable?
743 00:48:53,660 00:48:55,127 No. No.
744 00:48:55,160 00:48:56,930 Okay then. Okay then.
745 00:48:56,963 00:49:00,499 All right, so how do we do this? All right, so how do we do this?
746 00:49:00,532 00:49:03,736 Well, I'm just gonna talk you into a state of relaxation Well, I'm just gonna talk you into a state of relaxation
747 00:49:03,770 00:49:05,137 and we'll go from there. and we'll go from there.
748 00:49:06,271 00:49:09,042 All right, I want you to close your eyes. All right, I want you to close your eyes.
749 00:49:09,074 00:49:13,545 All right, and I want you to take some slow deep breaths. All right, and I want you to take some slow deep breaths.
750 00:49:15,480 00:49:20,252 Now, can you think of a place that's peaceful and safe? Now, can you think of a place that's peaceful and safe?
751 00:49:21,219 00:49:25,390 You're at that place and your whole body feels light. You're at that place and your whole body feels light.
752 00:49:27,827 00:49:28,928 You're at peace. You're at peace.
753 00:49:29,796 00:49:34,801 There's no pain, no sorrow, just peace. There's no pain, no sorrow, just peace.
754 00:49:35,668 00:49:39,171 Now, keeping that safety and that peace. Now, keeping that safety and that peace.
755 00:49:39,204 00:49:41,139 I want you to go back in time, I want you to go back in time,
756 00:49:42,274 00:49:44,844 back to the day your memory was lost. back to the day your memory was lost.
757 00:49:45,745 00:49:49,414 Start early in that day. What were you doing? Start early in that day. What were you doing?
758 00:49:50,717 00:49:52,250 Helping dad with the tractor. Helping dad with the tractor.
759 00:49:54,921 00:49:58,457 Is everything okay between the two of you? Is everything okay between the two of you?
760 00:49:58,490 00:50:01,593 Yes, but he seems upset about something. Yes, but he seems upset about something.
761 00:50:02,729 00:50:05,397 He tries to hide the fact that he's upset. He tries to hide the fact that he's upset.
762 00:50:05,430 00:50:08,067 Did he say anything out of the ordinary? Did he say anything out of the ordinary?
763 00:50:08,101 00:50:10,335 No, but I can tell. No, but I can tell.
764 00:50:11,436 00:50:12,537 What do you do next? What do you do next?
765 00:50:13,640 00:50:15,574 I'm going to my job at the store. I'm going to my job at the store.
766 00:50:17,342 00:50:18,845 Then what? Then what?
767 00:50:26,886 00:50:28,721 I don't want to. I don't want to.
768 00:50:28,755 00:50:29,989 It's okay. It's okay.
769 00:50:30,023 00:50:31,223 I don't know. I don't know.
770 00:50:33,926 00:50:35,028 I don't know. I don't know.
771 00:50:38,397 00:50:42,068 It's okay, just take a deep breath. It's okay, just take a deep breath.
772 00:50:42,101 00:50:44,503 Why don't you just go back to your safe place now. Why don't you just go back to your safe place now.
773 00:50:55,380 00:50:56,883 It's okay. It's okay.
774 00:50:57,282 00:50:58,617 One more thing I suck at. One more thing I suck at.
775 00:51:00,687 00:51:01,721 We'll get there. We'll get there.
776 00:51:11,563 00:51:16,135 So, last time we talked you were a little down. So, last time we talked you were a little down.
777 00:51:17,369 00:51:18,537 I was drunk. I was drunk.
778 00:51:19,571 00:51:21,373 Are you feeling better? Are you feeling better?
779 00:51:21,406 00:51:25,878 Yeah, you know, it's actually really nice Yeah, you know, it's actually really nice
780 00:51:25,912 00:51:28,648 to have somebody to talk to for a change. to have somebody to talk to for a change.
781 00:51:28,681 00:51:30,883 God, you say that like I'm your only option, God, you say that like I'm your only option,
782 00:51:30,917 00:51:34,252 which for your sake I hope is not the case. which for your sake I hope is not the case.
783 00:51:34,286 00:51:37,255 Am I becoming a burden to you, Will? Am I becoming a burden to you, Will?
784 00:51:37,289 00:51:38,590 Just the opposite. Just the opposite.
785 00:51:38,623 00:51:41,728 I'm sure I'm only moderately jake at best. I'm sure I'm only moderately jake at best.
786 00:51:42,561 00:51:44,964 No, you're fine company. No, you're fine company.
787 00:51:44,997 00:51:46,866 Seriously though, I mean, you don't have anybody else Seriously though, I mean, you don't have anybody else
788 00:51:46,899 00:51:50,402 you can talk to like friends, neighbor? you can talk to like friends, neighbor?
789 00:51:50,435 00:51:52,138 Something more than just my stupid voice Something more than just my stupid voice
790 00:51:52,171 00:51:53,673 coming out of a little box. coming out of a little box.
791 00:51:55,675 00:51:59,011 I do have a friend of sorts. I do have a friend of sorts.
792 00:52:00,312 00:52:01,613 What's she like? What's she like?
793 00:52:02,849 00:52:04,183 It's a he. It's a he.
794 00:52:06,152 00:52:07,552 Oh. Oh.
795 00:52:07,586 00:52:09,621 And we don't do a lot of talking. And we don't do a lot of talking.
796 00:52:10,723 00:52:11,824 None of my business. None of my business.
797 00:52:12,859 00:52:15,460 You don't have to snap your cap, Will. You don't have to snap your cap, Will.
798 00:52:15,494 00:52:18,998 I mean it's not serious or anything, he's married. I mean it's not serious or anything, he's married.
799 00:52:21,868 00:52:24,603 That's right, I'm one of those women. That's right, I'm one of those women.
800 00:52:27,372 00:52:29,608 Will, are you still there? Will, are you still there?
801 00:52:29,642 00:52:34,080 I mean look, I'm not some crazy man-eater or something. I mean look, I'm not some crazy man-eater or something.
802 00:52:34,113 00:52:36,783 It's just, you know, one of those things. It's just, you know, one of those things.
803 00:52:39,584 00:52:41,319 It's not my place to judge. It's not my place to judge.
804 00:52:42,922 00:52:45,658 No, it's not, but you asked. No, it's not, but you asked.
805 00:52:46,893 00:52:49,494 Yeah, sometimes I'm not very smart. Yeah, sometimes I'm not very smart.
806 00:52:50,797 00:52:51,964 Most men aren't. Most men aren't.
807 00:52:55,367 00:52:56,468 Are we still friends? Are we still friends?
808 00:52:59,806 00:53:01,274 Yes, we're still friends. Yes, we're still friends.
809 00:53:02,809 00:53:06,212 I'm glad. I'm gonna sign off now. I'm glad. I'm gonna sign off now.
810 00:53:11,184 00:53:12,885 It's not your time. It's not your time.
811 00:53:56,229 00:54:01,200 This is W-2-A-S-D, Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta. This is W-2-A-S-D, Whiskey two Alpha Sierra Delta.
812 00:54:03,035 00:54:05,671 This is H-8-A-9-Q-R-L, This is H-8-A-9-Q-R-L,
813 00:54:05,705 00:54:09,374 Hotel eight Alpha nine Quebec Romeo Lima. Hotel eight Alpha nine Quebec Romeo Lima.
814 00:54:10,843 00:54:13,578 I'm close to having everything all together. I'm close to having everything all together.
815 00:54:13,612 00:54:15,114 How do you want me to send it? How do you want me to send it?
816 00:54:16,148 00:54:18,718 Just use the normal signal when it's ready. Just use the normal signal when it's ready.
817 00:54:18,751 00:54:21,988 I'll send someone within a few days after to pick it up. I'll send someone within a few days after to pick it up.
818 00:54:40,039 00:54:41,307 So, what's all this? So, what's all this?
819 00:54:41,340 00:54:43,142 We're making picture boards. We're making picture boards.
820 00:54:43,175 00:54:45,144 You take the clothes pin and put it on the board You take the clothes pin and put it on the board
821 00:54:45,177 00:54:46,879 and put pictures of mom on it like this. and put pictures of mom on it like this.
822 00:54:46,913 00:54:48,748 Then you hang it on the wall. Then you hang it on the wall.
823 00:54:48,781 00:54:51,117 We're making one for each of us, including you. We're making one for each of us, including you.
824 00:54:52,018 00:54:53,219 That's okay, isn't it? That's okay, isn't it?
825 00:54:54,053 00:54:55,388 It's jake. It's jake.
826 00:55:00,126 00:55:01,459 Jake? Jake?
827 00:55:02,762 00:55:04,263 He's weird. He's weird.
828 00:55:10,870 00:55:13,205 Yeah, Denise was great. Yeah, Denise was great.
829 00:55:13,239 00:55:15,007 And she took care of everything too, And she took care of everything too,
830 00:55:15,041 00:55:17,410 the house, the girls, me. the house, the girls, me.
831 00:55:18,711 00:55:20,046 You must miss her a lot. You must miss her a lot.
832 00:55:21,347 00:55:24,684 You have no idea, I mean, she was everything to me You have no idea, I mean, she was everything to me
833 00:55:25,685 00:55:28,520 and it was amazing how in sync we were. and it was amazing how in sync we were.
834 00:55:28,553 00:55:30,423 I mean, I'd start a sentence, she'd finish it. I mean, I'd start a sentence, she'd finish it.
835 00:55:30,455 00:55:32,258 She always knew what I was thinking. She always knew what I was thinking.
836 00:55:34,193 00:55:37,529 And she had this way of singing things, And she had this way of singing things,
837 00:55:37,562 00:55:39,732 things that you and I would normally say. things that you and I would normally say.
838 00:55:41,167 00:55:42,134 Like what? Like what?
839 00:55:42,168 00:55:43,369 Well, you know, like mundane stuff Well, you know, like mundane stuff
840 00:55:43,402 00:55:46,604 like "The laundry needs to be folded" like "The laundry needs to be folded"
841 00:55:46,639 00:55:51,609 or "I'm starving, why don't you take me to dinner?" or "I'm starving, why don't you take me to dinner?"
842 00:55:51,644 00:55:54,447 Actually, it was kind of annoying but, Actually, it was kind of annoying but,
843 00:55:55,982 00:55:58,317 I'd give anything to hear her do it again. I'd give anything to hear her do it again.
844 00:55:59,517 00:56:03,022 Well, maybe she did that to get a reaction out of you. Well, maybe she did that to get a reaction out of you.
845 00:56:03,055 00:56:05,825 Women like to keep men on their toes you know? Women like to keep men on their toes you know?
846 00:56:05,858 00:56:07,592 Oh, she was good at that. Oh, she was good at that.
847 00:56:07,625 00:56:10,463 Every time I turned around, she was redecorating the house, Every time I turned around, she was redecorating the house,
848 00:56:10,495 00:56:14,734 paint, curtains, knick-knacks, you name it. paint, curtains, knick-knacks, you name it.
849 00:56:14,767 00:56:16,836 So, it made it that much harder when she died. So, it made it that much harder when she died.
850 00:56:16,869 00:56:18,536 I just couldn't look around I just couldn't look around
851 00:56:18,570 00:56:21,007 anywhere in this place and not see her. anywhere in this place and not see her.
852 00:56:23,009 00:56:24,744 So, I wound up packing it all up. So, I wound up packing it all up.
853 00:56:25,978 00:56:28,447 Didn't really talk about her much with the girls. Didn't really talk about her much with the girls.
854 00:56:31,183 00:56:33,052 I was kind of a shit father actually. I was kind of a shit father actually.
855 00:56:34,619 00:56:36,322 I wasn't very fair to them at all. I wasn't very fair to them at all.
856 00:56:39,091 00:56:41,994 Well look, you said that they're teenagers. Well look, you said that they're teenagers.
857 00:56:42,028 00:56:45,431 I mean, come on, they're old enough to know how you feel. I mean, come on, they're old enough to know how you feel.
858 00:56:45,464 00:56:47,366 Maybe, but it still wasn't fair. Maybe, but it still wasn't fair.
859 00:56:49,435 00:56:54,440 So, I pulled everything back out, gave it to them. So, I pulled everything back out, gave it to them.
860 00:56:57,009 00:56:58,677 It's not easy looking at it but, It's not easy looking at it but,
861 00:57:00,479 00:57:02,681 I don't want them to forget her. I don't want them to forget her.
862 00:57:06,118 00:57:08,687 I'm sure that they won't. I'm sure that they won't.
863 00:57:08,721 00:57:11,323 You're lucky, you have those things You're lucky, you have those things
864 00:57:11,357 00:57:12,792 and you have your daughters. and you have your daughters.
865 00:57:15,261 00:57:16,729 When I lost Gerde... When I lost Gerde...
866 00:57:18,596 00:57:20,598 Who's Gerde? Who's Gerde?
867 00:57:21,566 00:57:22,935 He was my fiance. He was my fiance.
868 00:57:24,003 00:57:25,271 You were engaged? You were engaged?
869 00:57:26,205 00:57:27,540 Yeah. Yeah.
870 00:57:27,907 00:57:29,075 Well what happened? Well what happened?
871 00:57:32,445 00:57:33,479 He was killed. He was killed.
872 00:57:35,147 00:57:37,049 God, I'm sorry about that. God, I'm sorry about that.
873 00:57:37,950 00:57:39,452 Yeah, me too. Yeah, me too.
874 00:57:41,619 00:57:45,891 You remember that castle that you went to? Neuschwanstein. You remember that castle that you went to? Neuschwanstein.
875 00:57:46,792 00:57:48,626 It's where I met him. It's where I met him.
876 00:57:48,661 00:57:50,029 You're kidding. You're kidding.
877 00:57:50,062 00:57:52,465 No, he worked there for a while. No, he worked there for a while.
878 00:57:53,598 00:57:55,701 God, he was a wonderful man. God, he was a wonderful man.
879 00:57:57,770 00:57:59,672 You know, a lot of people said You know, a lot of people said
880 00:57:59,705 00:58:02,208 that I was too old to get married. that I was too old to get married.
881 00:58:02,241 00:58:03,909 Past my prime and you know, Past my prime and you know,
882 00:58:03,943 00:58:05,911 no man would ever look at me that way. no man would ever look at me that way.
883 00:58:07,480 00:58:11,517 But he was different, he saw past the wrapping. But he was different, he saw past the wrapping.
884 00:58:14,120 00:58:16,255 He saw me for who I really am. He saw me for who I really am.
885 00:58:19,624 00:58:20,860 When did he die? When did he die?
886 00:58:23,028 00:58:24,964 Right before I came back to America. Right before I came back to America.
887 00:58:27,333 00:58:28,868 So, that's why you came back? So, that's why you came back?
888 00:58:30,069 00:58:31,470 It's one of the reasons. It's one of the reasons.
889 00:58:32,671 00:58:33,973 Again, I'm really sorry. Again, I'm really sorry.
890 00:58:35,641 00:58:37,910 Yeah, me too. Yeah, me too.
891 00:58:39,945 00:58:41,380 And all I have left of him And all I have left of him
892 00:58:41,413 00:58:43,949 is a framed photograph, that's it. is a framed photograph, that's it.
893 00:58:45,851 00:58:47,953 So, every day I talk to it, So, every day I talk to it,
894 00:58:48,821 00:58:50,923 I tell him how much I still love him. I tell him how much I still love him.
895 00:58:52,258 00:58:53,659 How much I still miss him. How much I still miss him.
896 00:58:58,030 00:59:00,032 But now you have a new man, right? But now you have a new man, right?
897 00:59:02,001 00:59:03,469 Is that what you are? Is that what you are?
898 00:59:04,703 00:59:07,206 I was talking about the guy that you told me about, I was talking about the guy that you told me about,
899 00:59:07,239 00:59:08,908 the married guy. the married guy.
900 00:59:10,242 00:59:11,477 Nobody's perfect. Nobody's perfect.
901 00:59:14,013 00:59:16,482 You know what, I'm tired, It's late. You know what, I'm tired, It's late.
902 00:59:16,515 00:59:17,850 I think I'm gonna sign off. I think I'm gonna sign off.
903 00:59:19,752 00:59:21,620 Hey, if I hit a nerve there, I'm sorry. Hey, if I hit a nerve there, I'm sorry.
904 00:59:21,655 00:59:23,722 I really didn't mean anything by it. I really didn't mean anything by it.
905 00:59:24,890 00:59:27,026 It's okay, I really am tired though. It's okay, I really am tired though.
906 00:59:30,296 00:59:31,964 Good night, Eva. Good night, Eva.
907 00:59:33,499 00:59:35,000 Good night, Will. Good night, Will.
908 01:00:00,993 01:00:02,494 You're late. You're late.
909 01:00:02,861 01:00:04,196 I knew you'd be up. I knew you'd be up.
910 01:00:05,097 01:00:06,332 Did anybody see you? Did anybody see you?
911 01:00:06,365 01:00:07,566 No. No.
912 01:00:07,600 01:00:09,301 Do you have something for me? Do you have something for me?
913 01:00:12,905 01:00:15,808 You wouldn't be here if I didn't. You wouldn't be here if I didn't.
914 01:01:24,877 01:01:26,646 Don't! Don't!
915 01:01:28,013 01:01:29,348 No! No!
916 01:02:23,936 01:02:26,673 So, what happened to him? So, what happened to him?
917 01:02:28,607 01:02:30,710 I'm not sure of all the details but... I'm not sure of all the details but...
918 01:02:32,244 01:02:33,579 Actually he got shot. Actually he got shot.
919 01:02:35,147 01:02:36,348 You're Kidding me. You're Kidding me.
920 01:02:37,784 01:02:41,887 No, I'm not. Apparently he went to the wrong house, No, I'm not. Apparently he went to the wrong house,
921 01:02:41,920 01:02:43,322 thought he was calling on some guy thought he was calling on some guy
922 01:02:43,355 01:02:45,859 that wanted to buy a piece of farm equipment. that wanted to buy a piece of farm equipment.
923 01:02:45,891 01:02:47,960 Guy told him he'd be out back working on something Guy told him he'd be out back working on something
924 01:02:47,993 01:02:49,662 and to go on in. and to go on in.
925 01:02:49,962 01:02:52,965 My father entered and the woman who actually lived there, My father entered and the woman who actually lived there,
926 01:02:52,998 01:02:55,934 mistook him for a robber and shot him. mistook him for a robber and shot him.
927 01:02:58,705 01:03:01,073 My God, that's really horrible. My God, that's really horrible.
928 01:03:01,106 01:03:02,809 It must've been very hard for you. It must've been very hard for you.
929 01:03:04,677 01:03:06,145 Well, actually I was pretty close Well, actually I was pretty close
930 01:03:06,178 01:03:08,180 to the scene of the accident when it happened. to the scene of the accident when it happened.
931 01:03:08,213 01:03:10,549 I was running errands for my boss I was running errands for my boss
932 01:03:10,582 01:03:13,787 and I fell off my bike or something, and I fell off my bike or something,
933 01:03:13,820 01:03:16,155 hit my head, blacked out. hit my head, blacked out.
934 01:03:16,188 01:03:17,389 I don't remember any of it, I don't remember any of it,
935 01:03:17,423 01:03:19,324 just the little bit my mother told me. just the little bit my mother told me.
936 01:03:21,293 01:03:23,696 What happened to the woman who shot him? What happened to the woman who shot him?
937 01:03:25,632 01:03:27,667 You know, I have no idea. You know, I have no idea.
938 01:03:27,700 01:03:29,869 And like I said, my mother never really talked about it And like I said, my mother never really talked about it
939 01:03:29,903 01:03:33,338 and by the time I got old enough to look into it myself, and by the time I got old enough to look into it myself,
940 01:03:33,372 01:03:38,076 I figured nothing's gonna bring him back, I figured nothing's gonna bring him back,
941 01:03:38,110 01:03:40,012 so why bother digging it all up again? so why bother digging it all up again?
942 01:03:42,347 01:03:43,850 Poor woman. Poor woman.
943 01:03:47,887 01:03:50,088 My mother or the woman who shot my father? My mother or the woman who shot my father?
944 01:03:51,557 01:03:52,892 Both. Both.
945 01:04:10,509 01:04:12,411 Are you in your safe place, William? Are you in your safe place, William?
946 01:04:14,213 01:04:15,547 Yes. Yes.
947 01:04:16,683 01:04:18,918 Now let's go back to that day. Now let's go back to that day.
948 01:04:20,687 01:04:24,022 You're on the farm with your father working on the tractor? You're on the farm with your father working on the tractor?
949 01:04:25,591 01:04:27,159 Yes. Yes.
950 01:04:27,192 01:04:28,928 What's his demeanor? What's his demeanor?
951 01:04:28,962 01:04:31,263 He's upset about something, He's upset about something,
952 01:04:31,296 01:04:33,532 but he tries to hide it from me. but he tries to hide it from me.
953 01:04:33,565 01:04:35,234 What happens next? What happens next?
954 01:04:35,267 01:04:37,236 I finished my morning chores, I finished my morning chores,
955 01:04:37,269 01:04:40,239 then I go to my job at the grocery store. then I go to my job at the grocery store.
956 01:04:41,340 01:04:44,376 So, you're at the grocers, what happens next? So, you're at the grocers, what happens next?
957 01:04:45,244 01:04:48,347 I stock some shelves and I sweep the floor, I stock some shelves and I sweep the floor,
958 01:04:48,380 01:04:51,083 then my boss tells me I need to make a delivery. then my boss tells me I need to make a delivery.
959 01:04:52,618 01:04:55,087 Pack the groceries in a box and strap it to my bike Pack the groceries in a box and strap it to my bike
960 01:04:55,120 01:04:57,256 and then I ride to the house. and then I ride to the house.
961 01:04:58,457 01:04:59,792 I get there and... I get there and...
962 01:05:03,696 01:05:05,163 It's okay. It's okay.
963 01:05:05,197 01:05:06,164 It's all right, you know what, It's all right, you know what,
964 01:05:06,198 01:05:08,001 this all happened a long time ago. this all happened a long time ago.
965 01:05:08,033 01:05:09,368 You were just an observer. You were just an observer.
966 01:05:09,401 01:05:13,438 Now, watch this as if it was a television show. Now, watch this as if it was a television show.
967 01:05:13,472 01:05:15,607 Just tell me what happened next. Just tell me what happened next.
968 01:05:15,642 01:05:17,409 I get to the house I get to the house
969 01:05:17,442 01:05:19,879 and then I pick up the groceries and then I pick up the groceries
970 01:05:19,913 01:05:22,782 and I walk to the basement hatch. and I walk to the basement hatch.
971 01:05:23,850 01:05:26,184 Do you always deliver there? Do you always deliver there?
972 01:05:26,218 01:05:27,252 Yes. Yes.
973 01:05:27,286 01:05:28,788 Why? Why?
974 01:05:28,821 01:05:29,789 I don't know. I don't know.
975 01:05:29,822 01:05:32,157 It's just what she wants me to do. It's just what she wants me to do.
976 01:05:32,190 01:05:33,760 What do you do next? What do you do next?
977 01:05:33,793 01:05:37,195 I go down the stairs and knock on the door. I go down the stairs and knock on the door.
978 01:05:38,263 01:05:39,866 Who answers the door? Who answers the door?
979 01:05:39,899 01:05:41,099 I don't see her, I don't see her,
980 01:05:41,133 01:05:42,936 she says to set the groceries down. she says to set the groceries down.
981 01:05:45,772 01:05:47,105 What do you see now? What do you see now?
982 01:05:47,974 01:05:50,542 Looking at the calendar on the wall. Looking at the calendar on the wall.
983 01:05:50,576 01:05:51,577 What does it say? What does it say?
984 01:05:52,411 01:05:54,246 June, 1946. June, 1946.
985 01:05:55,380 01:05:58,216 There's a picture right next to the calendar on the wall. There's a picture right next to the calendar on the wall.
986 01:06:00,085 01:06:01,086 It's familiar. It's familiar.
987 01:06:02,487 01:06:03,990 It's a castle. It's a castle.
988 01:06:06,625 01:06:08,460 There's a man. There's a man.
989 01:06:10,429 01:06:11,631 It's a picture of a man. It's a picture of a man.
990 01:06:21,074 01:06:22,407 William. William.
991 01:06:23,843 01:06:25,277 What did you see? What did you see?
992 01:06:28,014 01:06:29,514 Nothing, nothing. Nothing, nothing.
993 01:06:32,551 01:06:34,988 Just, you know... Just, you know...
994 01:06:35,021 01:06:40,026 To see something from so long ago, so vividly. To see something from so long ago, so vividly.
995 01:06:40,192 01:06:42,260 It's okay, just take slow, deep breaths. It's okay, just take slow, deep breaths.
996 01:06:43,295 01:06:44,964 What did you see? What did you see?
997 01:06:49,836 01:06:50,870 I can't do this anymore. I can't do this anymore.
998 01:06:50,903 01:06:52,270 We can do this next time. We can do this next time.
999 01:06:52,304 01:06:53,438 Are you okay? Are you okay?
1000 01:06:56,909 01:06:59,277 Think, you can remember this. Think, you can remember this.
1001 01:06:59,311 01:07:01,179 Where was that house? Where was that house?
1002 01:07:01,213 01:07:03,082 Think William, think. Think William, think.
1003 01:07:03,116 01:07:04,216 You had to go across that bridge. You had to go across that bridge.
1004 01:07:04,249 01:07:06,418 It was that little house in Ludlowville. It was that little house in Ludlowville.
1005 01:07:07,252 01:07:09,088 If Eva's the same woman, If Eva's the same woman,
1006 01:07:09,122 01:07:12,224 no wonder she didn't want to tell you how old she is. no wonder she didn't want to tell you how old she is.
1007 01:07:17,529 01:07:19,032 Yes? Yes?
1008 01:07:19,065 01:07:21,166 Is Eva here? Is Eva here?
1009 01:07:21,199 01:07:22,401 Who? Who?
1010 01:07:22,434 01:07:25,104 Eva, I think she lives here. Eva, I think she lives here.
1011 01:07:25,138 01:07:26,105 There's no Eva here, There's no Eva here,
1012 01:07:26,139 01:07:28,306 I've lived here for 15 years, never has been. I've lived here for 15 years, never has been.
1013 01:07:30,009 01:07:31,309 Sorry. Sorry.
1014 01:08:52,058 01:08:53,826 Will, are you there? Will, are you there?
1015 01:08:57,362 01:08:58,664 Will, are you there? Will, are you there?
1016 01:08:59,832 01:09:04,837 Will, are you on the air? Over. Will, are you on the air? Over.
1017 01:09:11,144 01:09:12,645 I'm here, Eva. I'm here, Eva.
1018 01:09:13,212 01:09:15,915 Hey, what's buzzin' cousin? Hey, what's buzzin' cousin?
1019 01:09:17,016 01:09:18,217 Sounds like you are. Sounds like you are.
1020 01:09:19,218 01:09:21,220 Been hitting the booze again? Been hitting the booze again?
1021 01:09:21,254 01:09:25,258 Actually, yeah. Well only a little bit. Actually, yeah. Well only a little bit.
1022 01:09:25,290 01:09:28,493 I just finished a bit of a project. I just finished a bit of a project.
1023 01:09:28,527 01:09:30,730 So, I'm celebrating a little bit. So, I'm celebrating a little bit.
1024 01:09:30,763 01:09:33,465 How about you, what are you doing today? How about you, what are you doing today?
1025 01:09:33,498 01:09:35,768 Eva, that picture that you were telling me about Eva, that picture that you were telling me about
1026 01:09:35,802 01:09:39,038 on your wall, the one at the castle. on your wall, the one at the castle.
1027 01:09:39,071 01:09:40,405 Yeah? Yeah?
1028 01:09:41,808 01:09:43,608 How long have you had that? How long have you had that?
1029 01:09:45,645 01:09:47,079 A little over a year. A little over a year.
1030 01:09:47,113 01:09:50,283 I had a friend send it to me from Germany after the war. I had a friend send it to me from Germany after the war.
1031 01:09:51,516 01:09:52,852 The war. The war.
1032 01:09:53,418 01:09:56,722 You mean the second World War? You mean the second World War?
1033 01:09:58,157 01:10:00,592 Well, yeah, what else would I be referring to? Well, yeah, what else would I be referring to?
1034 01:10:02,695 01:10:04,462 You drinking a little early yourself, Will? You drinking a little early yourself, Will?
1035 01:10:04,496 01:10:05,965 How is this possible? How is this possible?
1036 01:10:08,734 01:10:10,368 Will, are you still there? Will, are you still there?
1037 01:10:10,402 01:10:11,871 Eva. Eva.
1038 01:10:11,904 01:10:13,239 Yeah? Yeah?
1039 01:10:14,573 01:10:17,677 What's the name of the kid that delivers your groceries? What's the name of the kid that delivers your groceries?
1040 01:10:18,711 01:10:20,279 Why do you want to know that? Why do you want to know that?
1041 01:10:21,580 01:10:22,982 What's his name? What's his name?
1042 01:10:25,483 01:10:26,819 Billy. Billy.
1043 01:10:29,487 01:10:31,123 Eva, what year is it? Eva, what year is it?
1044 01:10:33,125 01:10:36,262 1946. You have been drinking. 1946. You have been drinking.
1045 01:10:40,900 01:10:43,302 Will, you still there? Will, you still there?
1046 01:10:44,170 01:10:45,671 I've gotta go. I've gotta go.
1047 01:10:54,814 01:10:57,016 She's in the past. She's in the past.
1048 01:10:57,049 01:10:58,718 She's in the past. She's in the past.
1049 01:11:00,887 01:11:02,722 How is this happening? How is this happening?
1050 01:11:04,156 01:11:05,925 This isn't happening. This isn't happening.
1051 01:11:07,693 01:11:09,161 Look's like they hit a wreck out- Look's like they hit a wreck out-
1052 01:11:09,195 01:11:10,863 She was a big one. She was a big one.
1053 01:11:10,897 01:11:14,000 That skirt was so high! That skirt was so high!
1054 01:11:14,033 01:11:15,400 You knew there'd be a problem- You knew there'd be a problem-
1055 01:11:15,433 01:11:18,104 That dame would... That dame would...
1056 01:11:19,404 01:11:20,706 William. William.
1057 01:11:25,645 01:11:28,180 Who is this? What do you want? Who is this? What do you want?
1058 01:11:30,615 01:11:33,786 You can't trust her. You can't trust her.
1059 01:11:36,956 01:11:38,057 You're breaking up. You're breaking up.
1060 01:11:38,925 01:11:40,026 My journal. My journal.
1061 01:11:43,863 01:11:47,333 QC, this is K-2-W-M-O, who is this? QC, this is K-2-W-M-O, who is this?
1062 01:11:49,235 01:11:52,838 K-2-W-M-O. K-2-W-M-O.
1063 01:11:55,241 01:11:58,811 Yes, this is K-2-W-M-O! You've reached K-2-W-M-O! Yes, this is K-2-W-M-O! You've reached K-2-W-M-O!
1064 01:11:59,745 01:12:03,816 K-2-W-M-O? K-2-W-M-O?
1065 01:12:03,849 01:12:04,951 Yes, this... Yes, this...
1066 01:12:04,984 01:12:08,020 I'm K-2-W-M-O! Who is this?! I'm K-2-W-M-O! Who is this?!
1067 01:12:08,054 01:12:12,124 K-2-W-M-O. K-2-W-M-O.
1068 01:12:12,158 01:12:13,491 Read my journal. Read my journal.
1069 01:12:17,196 01:12:18,764 William, my journal. William, my journal.
1070 01:12:22,301 01:12:25,638 K-2-W-M-O, my journal. K-2-W-M-O, my journal.
1071 01:12:33,379 01:12:34,714 Dad? Dad?
1072 01:12:42,254 01:12:43,222 Billy. Billy.
1073 01:12:48,794 01:12:50,062 Master William. Master William.
1074 01:12:52,865 01:12:54,900 "Today I was headed for Joe's when I saw her again, "Today I was headed for Joe's when I saw her again,
1075 01:12:54,934 01:12:56,168 she was just leaving the drug store. she was just leaving the drug store.
1076 01:12:56,202 01:12:58,704 She saw me looking at her and she gave me that chilly look. She saw me looking at her and she gave me that chilly look.
1077 01:12:58,738 01:13:00,572 She walked away without looking back. She walked away without looking back.
1078 01:13:01,807 01:13:03,109 I've been keeping an eye out for that dame, I've been keeping an eye out for that dame,
1079 01:13:03,142 01:13:04,110 I know I shouldn't, I know I shouldn't,
1080 01:13:04,143 01:13:05,711 but there's something mysterious about her. but there's something mysterious about her.
1081 01:13:05,745 01:13:06,912 Haven't seen her though. Haven't seen her though.
1082 01:13:09,248 01:13:11,384 I was in Ludlowville this morning and saw her again. I was in Ludlowville this morning and saw her again.
1083 01:13:11,417 01:13:13,652 She was setting her milk bottle out for the milkman. She was setting her milk bottle out for the milkman.
1084 01:13:13,686 01:13:14,787 She looked up at me this time. She looked up at me this time.
1085 01:13:14,820 01:13:17,223 I fancy she might've smiled a little, I fancy she might've smiled a little,
1086 01:13:21,193 01:13:22,560 I guess I'm a sinner after all. I guess I'm a sinner after all.
1087 01:13:22,594 01:13:24,363 I've been with her four times now, I've been with her four times now,
1088 01:13:24,397 01:13:26,032 I know what's wrong, but I can't help it. I know what's wrong, but I can't help it.
1089 01:13:26,065 01:13:28,566 She's gotten under my skin somehow. She's gotten under my skin somehow.
1090 01:13:28,600 01:13:30,736 I don't know why, she's not a young woman. I don't know why, she's not a young woman.
1091 01:13:30,770 01:13:33,105 I can't let Margaret find out. I can't let Margaret find out.
1092 01:13:33,973 01:13:35,741 I've still got her and Billy to think of, I've still got her and Billy to think of,
1093 01:13:35,775 01:13:38,377 this would not bode well in Sir William's kingdom." this would not bode well in Sir William's kingdom."
1094 01:13:42,481 01:13:43,816 God, dad. God, dad.
1095 01:14:03,436 01:14:04,770 June 11th? June 11th?
1096 01:14:14,447 01:14:16,449 You gotta be kidding me. You gotta be kidding me.
1097 01:14:16,482 01:14:18,851 "I've never been so fucking furious in my life. "I've never been so fucking furious in my life.
1098 01:14:18,884 01:14:21,520 I thought I was falling in love and with what? I thought I was falling in love and with what?
1099 01:14:21,554 01:14:23,289 A lying bitch. A lying bitch.
1100 01:14:23,322 01:14:25,958 She sure put one over on me, on all of us. She sure put one over on me, on all of us.
1101 01:14:25,991 01:14:27,293 She's a fucking..." She's a fucking..."
1102 01:14:38,003 01:14:40,239 What did you just ask me? What did you just ask me?
1103 01:14:40,272 01:14:41,774 What's his name? What's his name?
1104 01:14:42,241 01:14:44,643 That's none of your damn business. That's none of your damn business.
1105 01:14:44,677 01:14:45,878 It's important. It's important.
1106 01:14:46,846 01:14:48,447 No, it's not. No, it's not.
1107 01:14:48,481 01:14:50,282 I need to know, Eva. I need to know, Eva.
1108 01:14:50,316 01:14:52,785 Well then you are destined to be disappointed. Well then you are destined to be disappointed.
1109 01:14:52,818 01:14:54,520 All right, fine, then tell me this. All right, fine, then tell me this.
1110 01:14:54,553 01:14:56,822 Have the two of you been fighting recently? Have the two of you been fighting recently?
1111 01:14:56,856 01:14:59,125 Again, none of your damn business. Again, none of your damn business.
1112 01:14:59,158 01:15:00,326 You have, haven't you? You have, haven't you?
1113 01:15:00,359 01:15:02,495 'Cause his name's Gerald, isn't it? 'Cause his name's Gerald, isn't it?
1114 01:15:02,528 01:15:04,029 His name is Gerald. His name is Gerald.
1115 01:15:05,664 01:15:06,699 I'm right, aren't I? I'm right, aren't I?
1116 01:15:09,502 01:15:11,770 How do you know these things? How do you know these things?
1117 01:15:11,804 01:15:14,140 How do I know what, that his name's Gerald How do I know what, that his name's Gerald
1118 01:15:14,173 01:15:16,108 or that you're a Nazi? or that you're a Nazi?
1119 01:15:16,142 01:15:18,744 'Cause you are, aren't you? You're a Nazi! 'Cause you are, aren't you? You're a Nazi!
1120 01:15:20,079 01:15:23,482 Eva, I'm right, aren't I?! Eva, I'm right, aren't I?!
1121 01:15:23,516 01:15:24,683 Don't call me again. Don't call me again.
1122 01:15:26,952 01:15:27,953 Eva! Eva!
1123 01:15:29,955 01:15:34,460 Eva! You're a Nazi, aren't you, Eva?! Eva! You're a Nazi, aren't you, Eva?!
1124 01:15:35,928 01:15:36,929 Eva! Eva!
1125 01:15:37,763 01:15:38,764 Fuck! Fuck!
1126 01:15:44,470 01:15:47,006 Dr. Jennings, this is William. Dr. Jennings, this is William.
1127 01:15:47,039 01:15:48,941 I need to see you as soon as possible. I need to see you as soon as possible.
1128 01:15:50,009 01:15:51,377 I need to finish this. I need to finish this.
1129 01:15:56,549 01:15:58,784 Han, I've been signaling, Han, I've been signaling,
1130 01:15:58,817 01:16:00,286 you aren't answering me. you aren't answering me.
1131 01:16:00,319 01:16:04,123 I'm really vulnerable right now, somebody knows. I'm really vulnerable right now, somebody knows.
1132 01:16:04,156 01:16:06,625 I still have all of this stuff. I still have all of this stuff.
1133 01:16:06,660 01:16:10,629 Han, please pick up. Do you copy? Han, please pick up. Do you copy?
1134 01:16:10,664 01:16:14,567 I have everything ready here, nobody's picked anything up. I have everything ready here, nobody's picked anything up.
1135 01:16:14,600 01:16:18,304 This is so important, you have to get back to me. This is so important, you have to get back to me.
1136 01:16:18,337 01:16:21,675 Han, goddammit! Where are you?! Han, goddammit! Where are you?!
1137 01:16:28,080 01:16:29,748 Let's go back through that day. Let's go back through that day.
1138 01:16:34,220 01:16:35,454 What happens next? What happens next?
1139 01:16:35,487 01:16:38,190 She opens the basement door and I go inside. She opens the basement door and I go inside.
1140 01:16:40,726 01:16:42,094 What do you see? What do you see?
1141 01:16:42,127 01:16:44,430 Just stuff, a calendar, Just stuff, a calendar,
1142 01:16:46,832 01:16:47,967 a picture on the wall, a picture on the wall,
1143 01:16:49,703 01:16:50,903 a picture of a guy, a picture of a guy,
1144 01:16:53,038 01:16:55,407 a gun like my uncle used to own, a gun like my uncle used to own,
1145 01:16:56,508 01:16:57,843 a clock. a clock.
1146 01:16:58,344 01:17:00,479 Do either of you say anything? Do either of you say anything?
1147 01:17:00,512 01:17:02,414 I tell her that the bill is 3.19. I tell her that the bill is 3.19.
1148 01:17:04,083 01:17:05,217 She pays me the money. She pays me the money.
1149 01:17:06,619 01:17:07,786 I start to leave. I start to leave.
1150 01:17:09,255 01:17:10,756 What is it, William? What is it, William?
1151 01:17:10,789 01:17:12,258 I hear something. I hear something.
1152 01:17:13,092 01:17:14,059 What do you hear? What do you hear?
1153 01:17:14,093 01:17:16,730 Shouting. It's a man. Shouting. It's a man.
1154 01:17:18,364 01:17:19,565 I'm scared. I'm scared.
1155 01:17:19,598 01:17:20,766 Why are you scared? Why are you scared?
1156 01:17:20,799 01:17:23,535 I can hear them moving, she might need help. I can hear them moving, she might need help.
1157 01:17:24,536 01:17:26,872 I keep hearing them shouting. I keep hearing them shouting.
1158 01:17:26,905 01:17:28,675 Can you make out what they're saying? Can you make out what they're saying?
1159 01:17:28,708 01:17:32,778 Not all of it, but I keep hearing a man's voice. Not all of it, but I keep hearing a man's voice.
1160 01:17:34,913 01:17:36,048 What then? What then?
1161 01:17:38,752 01:17:39,753 The gun... The gun...
1162 01:17:39,818 01:17:42,121 - What about the gun? - It's gone. - What about the gun? - It's gone.
1163 01:17:44,123 01:17:45,858 I hear the voice again. I hear the voice again.
1164 01:17:45,891 01:17:47,860 "You bitch, how could you?!" "You bitch, how could you?!"
1165 01:17:49,495 01:17:51,731 Can you tell who the voice belongs to? Can you tell who the voice belongs to?
1166 01:17:52,598 01:17:53,932 It's my father. It's my father.
1167 01:17:55,735 01:17:56,969 Remember William, you're safe. Remember William, you're safe.
1168 01:17:57,002 01:18:00,506 You're just observing. What do you see next? You're just observing. What do you see next?
1169 01:18:00,539 01:18:02,107 I'm upstairs. I'm upstairs.
1170 01:18:02,141 01:18:04,711 The woman and my dad, they're arguing. The woman and my dad, they're arguing.
1171 01:18:05,911 01:18:07,413 She has a gun. She has a gun.
1172 01:18:08,648 01:18:10,717 And then? And then?
1173 01:18:14,019 01:18:16,021 What's happening now? What's happening now?
1174 01:18:16,055 01:18:17,657 I'm running away from the house I'm running away from the house
1175 01:18:17,691 01:18:19,191 through the woods. through the woods.
1176 01:18:19,224 01:18:23,362 I just keep running and running and running and then... I just keep running and running and running and then...
1177 01:18:28,802 01:18:30,135 Darkness. Darkness.
1178 01:18:38,277 01:18:40,512 Nothing but darkness. Nothing but darkness.
1179 01:18:44,651 01:18:47,219 I can't speak or move, but I hear them talking. I can't speak or move, but I hear them talking.
1180 01:18:48,120 01:18:51,758 They asked me questions but I can't remember. They asked me questions but I can't remember.
1181 01:18:51,791 01:18:53,492 My mother tells them to leave me alone. My mother tells them to leave me alone.
1182 01:18:53,525 01:18:56,796 My father's dead, it was a terrible accident. My father's dead, it was a terrible accident.
1183 01:18:56,830 01:18:58,732 She can't afford to lose me as well. She can't afford to lose me as well.
1184 01:19:00,032 01:19:01,533 I'm just a kid. I'm just a kid.
1185 01:19:03,869 01:19:05,204 I suffered enough. I suffered enough.
1186 01:19:09,475 01:19:10,943 Will, you're safe, you're here with me. Will, you're safe, you're here with me.
1187 01:19:10,976 01:19:12,111 You saw something terrible, You saw something terrible,
1188 01:19:12,144 01:19:15,280 but now we know what the darkness is covering up. but now we know what the darkness is covering up.
1189 01:19:16,850 01:19:19,719 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
1190 01:19:19,753 01:19:21,220 Now we can work on fixing it. Now we can work on fixing it.
1191 01:19:22,921 01:19:23,989 Fix? Fix?
1192 01:19:24,022 01:19:25,524 We can fix it. We can fix it.
1193 01:19:26,558 01:19:31,563 My father died on June 12th, 1946, June 12th. My father died on June 12th, 1946, June 12th.
1194 01:19:32,364 01:19:34,634 38 Years ago, today. 38 Years ago, today.
1195 01:19:34,667 01:19:37,837 Did you realize that when you set this appointment? Did you realize that when you set this appointment?
1196 01:19:37,871 01:19:41,841 Anniversaries can be important milestones in therapy. Anniversaries can be important milestones in therapy.
1197 01:19:44,943 01:19:46,612 You said coincidences. You said coincidences.
1198 01:19:48,013 01:19:50,315 I don't believe in them, I still don't. I don't believe in them, I still don't.
1199 01:19:52,317 01:19:56,522 Everything happens in its proper time and place. Everything happens in its proper time and place.
1200 01:19:58,357 01:19:59,692 Time. Time.
1201 01:20:14,606 01:20:15,574 William! William!
1202 01:20:15,607 01:20:17,042 I can still stop it. I can still stop it.
1203 01:20:22,782 01:20:24,717 The clock in her bunker said 5:07. The clock in her bunker said 5:07.
1204 01:20:27,019 01:20:28,520 There's still time. There's still time.
1205 01:20:30,155 01:20:31,156 Eva? Eva?
1206 01:20:35,762 01:20:37,730 Eva, I know you're there. Eva, I know you're there.
1207 01:20:37,764 01:20:40,365 I don't know who you are, but you need to stop. I don't know who you are, but you need to stop.
1208 01:20:41,233 01:20:44,369 I know who you are, you stay away from Gerald. I know who you are, you stay away from Gerald.
1209 01:20:44,403 01:20:47,506 Don't you ever contact me again, do you understand me? Don't you ever contact me again, do you understand me?
1210 01:20:48,540 01:20:50,643 Are you listening to me, Eva? Are you listening to me, Eva?
1211 01:20:50,677 01:20:51,845 Nazi bitch! Nazi bitch!
1212 01:20:56,248 01:20:58,984 You leave Gerald alone, do you hear me? You leave Gerald alone, do you hear me?
1213 01:20:59,017 01:21:00,486 Billy. Billy.
1214 01:21:00,519 01:21:01,888 Hi, Miss Saints. Hi, Miss Saints.
1215 01:21:01,921 01:21:03,756 Yeah, this just really isn't the time. Yeah, this just really isn't the time.
1216 01:21:03,790 01:21:04,824 Do you hear me, you bitch? Do you hear me, you bitch?
1217 01:21:04,858 01:21:05,859 Just doing routine. Just doing routine.
1218 01:21:05,892 01:21:07,760 - Just put it down - Don't you dare touch him. - Just put it down - Don't you dare touch him.
1219 01:21:09,729 01:21:10,830 Don't you dare touch him. Don't you dare touch him.
1220 01:21:12,064 01:21:13,833 Bitch, where are you? Bitch, where are you?
1221 01:21:13,867 01:21:16,335 Just get out, Billy. Just get out, Billy.
1222 01:21:16,368 01:21:17,436 Is that my dad? Is that my dad?
1223 01:21:17,469 01:21:18,805 Get out. Get out.
1224 01:21:19,171 01:21:20,606 Eva, I know you can hear me. Eva, I know you can hear me.
1225 01:21:20,640 01:21:21,941 But the money. But the money.
1226 01:21:21,975 01:21:24,744 Dammit, Eva you stay away from Gerald, do you hear me? Dammit, Eva you stay away from Gerald, do you hear me?
1227 01:21:24,777 01:21:27,546 You stay away from Gerald. You stay away from Gerald.
1228 01:21:27,579 01:21:28,882 Answer me! Answer me!
1229 01:21:28,915 01:21:30,917 Eva, you answer me! Eva, you answer me!
1230 01:21:30,950 01:21:32,685 Pick up, Eva! Pick up, Eva!
1231 01:21:32,719 01:21:34,286 Are you listening? Are you listening?
1232 01:21:34,319 01:21:36,188 Eva, you pick up. Eva, you pick up.
1233 01:21:36,221 01:21:37,556 Hello? Hello?
1234 01:21:37,924 01:21:39,258 Hello? Hello?
1235 01:21:39,826 01:21:41,026 Do you live here? Do you live here?
1236 01:21:42,227 01:21:43,796 Who is this? Who is this?
1237 01:21:43,830 01:21:46,231 Because I need my $3.19. Because I need my $3.19.
1238 01:21:50,569 01:21:51,905 Billy? Billy?
1239 01:21:52,504 01:21:53,973 How do you know my name? How do you know my name?
1240 01:21:55,507 01:21:57,309 That doesn't matter right now. That doesn't matter right now.
1241 01:21:57,342 01:21:59,177 Is that woman's still there? Is that woman's still there?
1242 01:21:59,211 01:22:02,080 No, she ran out when that guy upstairs started yelling. No, she ran out when that guy upstairs started yelling.
1243 01:22:04,751 01:22:06,585 You said she ran out? You said she ran out?
1244 01:22:06,618 01:22:07,987 Yeah, before she paid me. Yeah, before she paid me.
1245 01:22:13,058 01:22:16,395 Billy, listen to me. Is the gun still there? Billy, listen to me. Is the gun still there?
1246 01:22:16,428 01:22:18,965 It would be to your right over on the shelf. It would be to your right over on the shelf.
1247 01:22:21,266 01:22:22,601 Yeah. Yeah.
1248 01:22:24,069 01:22:26,605 Billy, I want you to listen to me very carefully. Billy, I want you to listen to me very carefully.
1249 01:22:27,606 01:22:31,410 I'm a friend of your father's, your dad is in trouble. I'm a friend of your father's, your dad is in trouble.
1250 01:22:31,443 01:22:34,814 He's in danger, Billy. That woman is going to hurt him. He's in danger, Billy. That woman is going to hurt him.
1251 01:22:37,784 01:22:39,852 Billy, I know you. Billy, I know you.
1252 01:22:43,022 01:22:45,058 I know you know how to use that gun. I know you know how to use that gun.
1253 01:23:18,024 01:23:19,358 Dad. Dad.
1254 01:23:20,059 01:23:21,393 Billy. Billy.
1255 01:23:21,728 01:23:24,931 Son, put the gun down. Son, put the gun down.
1256 01:23:24,964 01:23:27,165 Listen to me, put the gun down. Listen to me, put the gun down.
1257 01:23:27,199 01:23:30,770 - No, he's a little shit. - No! - No, he's a little shit. - No!
1258 01:23:32,105 01:23:33,538 Billy! Billy!
1259 01:23:47,086 01:23:48,755 That's the third time this season, That's the third time this season,
1260 01:23:48,788 01:23:50,657 he's lost his footing out there. he's lost his footing out there.
1261 01:23:50,690 01:23:52,257 Of course, in my state I can't just go out Of course, in my state I can't just go out
1262 01:23:52,290 01:23:54,359 and drag him back to the house. and drag him back to the house.
1263 01:23:54,393 01:23:56,595 And that's when I came to the sad realization And that's when I came to the sad realization
1264 01:23:56,628 01:23:58,430 that my dad and I had been working that farm together that my dad and I had been working that farm together
1265 01:23:58,463 01:24:00,133 for so many years. for so many years.
1266 01:24:00,165 01:24:01,134 He's in his late 70's, He's in his late 70's,
1267 01:24:01,166 01:24:03,703 so he's bound to slow down at some point. so he's bound to slow down at some point.
1268 01:24:03,736 01:24:04,771 Guess it was just inevitable Guess it was just inevitable
1269 01:24:04,804 01:24:06,338 that we were gonna have to start thinking about that we were gonna have to start thinking about
1270 01:24:06,371 01:24:07,640 bringing somebody else on bringing somebody else on
1271 01:24:09,142 01:24:11,110 and I can keep doing what I'm doing. and I can keep doing what I'm doing.
1272 01:24:12,477 01:24:14,981 I can't run the whole farm by myself. I can't run the whole farm by myself.
1273 01:24:15,014 01:24:16,515 Well, that's understandable. Well, that's understandable.
1274 01:24:17,684 01:24:19,752 How's it going outside of the business though? How's it going outside of the business though?
1275 01:24:19,786 01:24:21,620 How about with your personal life? How about with your personal life?
1276 01:24:23,255 01:24:24,556 Everything's fine I guess. Everything's fine I guess.
1277 01:24:26,025 01:24:28,761 Been having a hard time sleeping lately. Been having a hard time sleeping lately.
1278 01:24:28,795 01:24:30,295 Headaches again? Headaches again?
1279 01:24:31,831 01:24:33,432 There's always the headaches, right? There's always the headaches, right?
1280 01:24:33,465 01:24:34,533 I mean, they can patch you up I mean, they can patch you up
1281 01:24:34,566 01:24:35,835 after getting shot in the head, after getting shot in the head,
1282 01:24:35,868 01:24:38,104 but they can't get rid of a goddamn headache. but they can't get rid of a goddamn headache.
1283 01:24:39,271 01:24:42,075 No, what's keeping me up is a dream. No, what's keeping me up is a dream.
1284 01:24:44,877 01:24:46,545 Tell me about it. Tell me about it.
1285 01:24:49,381 01:24:54,386 I'm married in it, but my wife's not there. I'm married in it, but my wife's not there.
1286 01:24:54,586 01:24:56,022 You know, dreams can get weird You know, dreams can get weird
1287 01:24:56,055 01:24:57,389 like when you're outside, like when you're outside,
1288 01:24:57,422 01:25:01,226 but you're inside at the same time, you know what I mean? but you're inside at the same time, you know what I mean?
1289 01:25:01,259 01:25:05,198 But I have kids, two daughters. But I have kids, two daughters.
1290 01:25:06,666 01:25:10,870 I swear I can see their faces, I can hear their voices. I swear I can see their faces, I can hear their voices.
1291 01:25:12,071 01:25:13,639 It's just so real. It's just so real.
1292 01:25:14,841 01:25:18,310 Sometimes the things that we deeply desire, Sometimes the things that we deeply desire,
1293 01:25:18,343 01:25:20,713 they can show up in our sleeping minds. they can show up in our sleeping minds.
1294 01:25:21,781 01:25:23,448 It doesn't feel made up though. It doesn't feel made up though.
1295 01:25:26,152 01:25:27,419 It's just too familiar. It's just too familiar.
1296 01:25:29,621 01:25:32,624 Something to delve into next time, perhaps? Something to delve into next time, perhaps?
1297 01:25:33,960 01:25:35,460 Sounds good. Sounds good.
1298 01:25:36,461 01:25:40,166 Well, it's all the time we have for today. Well, it's all the time we have for today.
1299 01:25:41,701 01:25:43,636 She's kicking me out. She's kicking me out.
1300 01:25:43,669 01:25:45,004 Not at all. Not at all.
1301 01:25:45,671 01:25:47,272 You be safe, Will. You be safe, Will.
1302 01:25:47,305 01:25:48,741 You too, Lydia. You too, Lydia.
1303 01:26:09,962 01:26:11,530 William. William.
1304 01:26:16,301 01:26:19,772 I need you to wake up now, sleepy-head I need you to wake up now, sleepy-head
1305 01:26:27,880 01:26:29,115 time to get up. time to get up.
1306 01:27:57,670 01:27:59,372 It's not your time. It's not your time.
1307 01:30:15,941 01:30:18,144 Hello? Hello?